| Jean's Birthday |

last saturday was Jean's belated 21st birthday party and we went to grab some unlimited flow of food. ha! that's not true of course, i may like pigging sessions, but i'm glam enough to look good while eating this much. *winkz*

::from left to right, yours truly, birthday gal, and biscuit::

::together with terrence this time::

::i dun quite know this gal except we've clubbed once or twice together::

::with my baby this time, and the tallest guy on the extreme left, i believe has a crush on biscuit *lolz*::

well, and before that we caught Hitch and we thought it was rather good. sweet ending, comical storyline, some pretty heart-wretching parts which showed the reasons for the need of a Date Doctor. its not totally hilarious but it was good nonetheless. recommended.


P.S: you guys may click on the pics on this post, and the previous post to view them on a larger scale

| Thankful |

i'm thankful for some people who still believe in me.
i'm thankful that their trust in me didn't waver.
i'm thankful for some people who still love me as a person.
i'm thankful for relationships and friendships still standing strong after this incident, it shows me who are true friends and who are not.
i'm thankful for deardear's support and understanding, it shows me how much i mean to him.
what's past is past. i hope whoever wrote nasty horrible stuff about me would take it out and quit spoiling my reputation. i hope you would honour your words.

that aside, i've decided against closing my blog. like what hongda said, why should i let some immature brat spoil my reputation and then close my blog? i have a gift for writing. *winkz*
i would have posted loads of pics if this incident didn't happen. i should take things easy and let the past go, or i'll grow old very fast. *lolz*

::the bunch of dear's bunkmates::

::my cute baby with his favourite bag he says::

::the bunch of them fooling around their toys::

::my baby's favourite gun::

::out @ Chervon::

::his best friend in camp i think , Lawerence::

| Closure |

i've been in a dilemma if i should close my blog. yesterday and today has been the worst days of my life, i've never been so wronged, never been so accused, never been so maligned. for someone i hardly even know to openly slam me down in her blog was pure accusation. for someone whom i had friendship with for more than two years to jump into conclusion was pure pain. for someone whose been my friend for more than two years to simply say "so-so doesn't want me to get involved" has simply failed to understand my pain.

then it occured to me, what is friendship?

never mind. the crux should be, is closing down my blog good? but i just wanna write. writing is not just my forte, writing is my life!

| Disappointed |

it's amazing how shallow humans can be sometimes? after 2 days of happiness, i was greeted with a series of accusations the moment i was about to do my routine blogging. i'm hurt, and a friendship is lost. there is no reason why i should harp on it even when the odds are against me. i refuse to salvage the friendship, i refuse to save my reputation, there is simply no point. those who know me, would know when faced with adversity, my only choice is silence.
and just for your information, there are other people in my office, i have colleagues who also read blogs. i won't point fingers and say that who did what, just be very careful when making assumptions. i may have casually discussed your problems, relationships etc with them, and even if they really did make those anonymous' comments, its really up to them yah? you can never really have control over people's mouths or thoughts.
although i must say, i honestly would have prefered a more direct and upfront approach rather than slashing my reputation before getting your facts right. preach what you practice, or you lose integrity. period.

| Forgiveness |

sometimes forgiveness is a hard thing to do. forgiveness and love goes hand in hand, you need to have love to forgive, and you'll forgive if you love.
sometimes love requires us to say, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do" (Lk. 23:34). sometimes love requires us to forgive over and over (Mt. 18:21-22). and sometimes love requires us to withhold forgiveness for the sake of the one who has harmed us. in biblical terms, therefore, forgiveness is the loving, voluntary cancellation of a debt. The point is that sin incurs a debt that must be canceled or forgiven. It is the kind of release Jesus spoke of in the many instances in the Bible, therefore there are 5 parts to forgiveness:
1. the offense
2. the confrontation
3. the repentence
4. the forgiveness
5. the restoration
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1. the offense
sin can be defined as any failure to love. denial of pain is a common form of self-deception. we pretend things really don't hurt that much, or we tell ourselves that we are just being too sensitive. a small crack begins in a relationship and steadily widens to the point that there is no real closeness. we then continue the charade by simply saying, "oh well, people change." we miss an opportunity to experience the joy of honest love, forgiveness, and reconciliation. sin is an ongoing problem that erodes the trust and intimacy for which we were made for. forgiveness, therefore, is an ongoing necessity for dealing with our sins against one another. not only do we need to forgive, but we ourselves need to be forgiven by those we have hurt.
2. the confrontation
"Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do" (Lk. 23:34; see also Acts 7:60) but sometimes the nature of the offense and the attitude of the offender require a more direct response like, "i need to let you know how much you have hurt me. you need to know what this has done to our relationship. i feel that you have betrayed my trust." unresolved problems of relationship can result in unexplained distance and coolness. they break down mutual trust, breed fear and avoidance, and if not dealt with can leave the offending party free to go on without accountability. letting an offender off the hook actually encourages him to repeat the same pattern of behavior again and again. a willingness to be lovingly honest with someone who has wronged us takes wisdom and courage. it takes wisdom to know when to speak up and when to keep quiet. it takes courage because there is no way to predict what the outcome will be.
3. the repentence
repentance refers specifically to the change of heart and mind that is necessary for a real change of behavior to take place.
4. the forgiveness
when an offense is dealt with, a forgiving heart can rightly say, "I will no longer hold this against you. I can see that you know you have hurt me and that it was wrong for you to do so."
5. the restoration
when there has been a separation in a relationship and things are made right through repentance and forgiveness, there is a wonderful moment of release that words cannot describe. restoration in our human relationships gives us a finite taste of the joy God experiences when we in repentance come to Him admitting our sin.

a high price is required from both sides involved in the forgiving process. while the cost of forgiveness is high for both the offended and the offender, the price is well worth the joy of restoration and the release that comes because of the renewed relationship. our unwillingness to love those who have harmed us reflects our own failure to understand how much God has loved us.
laymen have this strange thinking to forgive is to forget. well, the "forgive and forget" approach to forgiveness is an attempt to find a way to escape the hurt of the past. but it is based on a wrong assumption. God does not teach us to forget, but rather not to hold sins against one another.

well, that's all i have for you guys. i think after reading this, you would know who this piece of article is directed at. but i only mean well, and thinking through the forgiving process, will help you determine if you can forgive him, and carry on the relationship, or let him go totally.
the offense you found out, you've had the confrontation with him, he also repented and gave you his word of eternity with you. he's done all, now its your turn, all up to you whether you wanna forgive him and restore this relationship with him. i'm still sitting on the fence, not siding either one. please do pray and think about it.

| Busy |

I'M SO BUSY I HAVE NO TIME TO BLOG!!! *SCREAMING* OH SOMEONE, JUST KILL ME! *POUTS*

| *blah* |

can't think of any title despite one week of not blogging. i've been real busy and tired i wanna sleep this very instance!!! *screaming*
1. just took my basic theory test this morning, and i'm hoping i make it through so i can save some time and get to finally drive a car, with an instructor by my side of course. ha! i'm not exactly excited about it because i just have this thing about driving, kinda scares me. *shrugz* but i'm still doing it nevertheless, because its survival skill, daddy said.
2. my second sis drove me to the comfort driving center and waited till i was done with the test, drove me to get breakfast, then finally to the MRT station so i could get to work on time. how sweet was that? *smilez* thanx a million sis, couldn't have made it there on time without you! also not forgetting my dad who was over-protective and insisted on coming along but couldn't get up in the end. *lolz* that's papa dearest for you.
3. biscuit's off to bintan today till friday. she'll be back to work on saturday. some peace at last! haha! just kidding gal. wish ya all the fun, you deserve it after all, though i'm not so sure if you're gonna be with here raining cats and dogs. *tongue sticking out*
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1. saw a caucasian downstairs my office building while out running some errands just now. he was with a pup, a black labrador, real cute. but he was leached up and he kept wanting to smell the passers-by. that's how pups are like. but what was rather disturbing was the fact that the caucasian's most probably an expatriate who just got the pup here locally while he's here for work, for entertainment of course. afterwhich, depending on his love for his pup, he'll either leave the poor pup here at the SPCA or bring him back to his country of origin after his work locally is completed. both ways, the poor pup will have to suffer. *sigh* my heart aches at the mere thought of abandonment. my heart also aches at the countless tests and quarantine the poor thing will have to go through in order for it to be sent to whichever european terrain.
2. received a call from HSA (like finally) this morning. and just as expected, the application has errors and we're required to either withdraw the application and forfeit the application fees, or re-do the entire application. just kill me. i cannot bear the thought of looking at their website, its just too painful for me. sux big time!!!

i rest my case.

| Unfair |

life's not fair, ain't that right? alot of 'aftermath' feelings after yesterday. posting for my boy came out, and it wasn't what he expected, it wasn't what all his friends and sergeants expected. disappointment.
why does one do his best, and try so hard when it all comes down to nothing? i've been taught that whatever happens in life, has a reason. i know whatever happens in life has a reason, but what is the rationale? where is the reason?
i'm oblivious to the disappointment my baby feels, for one, i dunno what goes on in the army. but i do know golds after golds of IPPT means something. passing of SOC after SOC means something more. good behaviour and a good personality also means something. but why something totally estranged from him to be his specialisation? why suppress one's talent when you jolly well know he's more than capable?
i wonder, how does the army group soldiers into their respective units? issit the stupid IQ test right from the start even before their enlistment? pure stupidity. i foresee the downfall of this country if disaster strikes. those from OCS are just a bunch of A-level students and a handful of poly grads who know nuts about commanding a regiment! in fact, those from SISPEC would make a better leader if you ask me.
unlike the olden days where physique makes hell lot of a difference, unlike the times of my daddy where brains and brawns make it to OCS. if disaster strikes, without those old retired soldiers, this country will never make it alive. my daddy was a Captain in the army in case you're wondering. and he made it there with his capabilities. he still has that sword that was knighted by the first president of singapore, Yusof bin Ishak.
unfair. life is never fair. but at least i know God is just.

| His Poems to Me |

"I want to make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Wash your room window,
when its lunar new year.
All I want to do,
is grow old with you.

I'll write you a sweet poem,
when i'm outfield training,
Plan a great makan session when i book out.
Oh it can be so nice,
growing old with you.

I'll hug you when i see you,
get your soft pillow when you stay at my place,
ring you when i miss you,
i've even stopped CS for a year or so.

So let me do everything when you watch fiery thunderbolt,
put you to sleep by trying not to snore..
Oh i could be the man who'd grow old with you.
I wanna grow old with you..."
~Daniel LTZ 23/2/2005 12:47PM
this sms came in just this afternoon. he wrote a similar one some time back, and in case you didn't know, this poem goes with Adam Sandler's I Wanna Grow Old With You.

"On the fallen leaves, branches and roots where i laid,
i glanced up above to see the night black sky.
And in that sky there were a million stars.
I said to myself, "What a lovely sight!"
And in this instance i thought of you,
and how i wish you were here with me.
I miss you baby, i really do.
The stars remind me of lovely you.
And i'm glad its 4 more days to be with you."
~Daniel LTZ 16/1/2005 11:37AM
he wrote this poem while he was out on his 4-day outfield trip, where he was confined for a weekend. many of his bunk-mates even copied it in hope of winning the girl of their dreams, and those who already had girlfriends, this message was sent to them too! *lolz* boys will always be boys.

"A promise of marriage i make to you.
To wed with you and live with you.
May our engagement be filled with
love, happiness and trust.
Always will i love you baby. :)"
~Daniel LTZ 22/11/2004 10:43AM
the day after our engagement, his reassurance gave me warmth and it just further confirmed my destiny with him.

"I LOVE YOU!
This statement expresses the true feelings of
Tezhong, NRIC S82***99G.
These feelings can be reflected in Tezhong's organs,
namely heart and brain.
If you find any discrepancies in this statement anytime,
please notify your nearest Tezhong.
Otherwise, we will consider this statement as correct. :P"
~Daniel LTZ 20/11/2004 5:02PM
the evening before my 21st birthday party started. he's really creative huh? and so cute!

"To Wylyn Chia
>>> This communication is meant only for the addressee
named above and contain information which is confidential
and or legally privileged.
If you are not the named addressee, this communication
has been sent to you in error.
Unauthorised dissemination, distribution, copying or reliance
on this communication is prohibited and may attract criminal penalities.
>>>Message>>>I love you baby! :-D hee hee!"
~Daniel LTZ 27/7/2004 9:52AM
he wrote this during one of those days where he had excessive brain juice running i guess. its really something huh???

| Retail Therapy |

last weekend was the last one i had with my sister before she flew back to aussie last night. and just before she left, we had retail therapy at Mango because we were trying to get their privilege card. *lolz* at least we got it. *winkz*
had my own shopping spree at Victoria's Secret yesterday in a bid to cure my depression. well, on a better note, as least one of the items i ordered was a red cardigan?
got my diamond earrings just the other day when i was out with biscuit. though not very pricey, still my vanity has depleted my resources. *pouts* i'm waiting for payday now, when is the end of the month coming???
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between Constantine and A Very Long Engagement, dear chose the former of course. nevertheless, i'm bend on watching the latter, which i've heard is pretty good. Although i thought Constantine was a rather nonsensical movie, it had relatively novel ideas with regards to the Bible and of Christianity, refreshing i must say.
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oh i did another collage for my boy using some old and new pictures which i found on his blog, because i dun have much of his self-portrait. i thought this looks better. *hee*

nicer right?

| Pictures |

pat came down to my office last saturday and we took a couple of pics. and since i'm bored and waiting for 6pm to come, think i shall just post some of the pics. which reminds me, just received her birthday invitation. this means retail therapy again, ha!
but i just spent quite a big amount on victoria secrets to cure my depression. i mean since i'm pretty well-paid and i can afford it, i shop at victoria secrets. just for clarification purposes, i'm not those barely living beyond their means and still crave for designer stuff. *smilez*
that aside, what to get for that gal? *thinking*

::did her face grow fatter? *crowd shakes head in unison* see i told ya!::

::a close-up so 'blind' pple can take a closer look::

::there was no one to take for us, so i had to stretch my short hand to capture the pic::

::decided to do one for dear as well, or not he'll get upset *tongue sticking out*::

| Goodbye |

my sister will be leaving tonight for aussie again, our second seperation, our second goodbye. before today became a reality, the first goodbye scene was already replaying in my head, and now the second one awaits. i hate goodbyes. seperation ain't that painful but goodbyes are. it makes you go through an emotional roller-coaster ride, and when you reach the bottom bit, tears fall uncontrollably. damn. how i dread seeing her off tonight. with dear not by my side, i sure am gonna cry buckets and buckets of tears.
but wait. she'll be married off when she returns here for good next year, so shouldn't i already get used to the fact that she ain't gonna be around anymore at home? but i still miss her! *crying*

| Anniversary |

i know its only february and its about 3 more months to my 4th year anniversary with my darling dearest, but i am already starting to plan for our mini celebration. *tongue sticking out* gonna have a really romantic weekend getaway (again), and this time, its gonna be at some classy 5-star hotel - Shangri-La's Rasa Sentosa Beach Resort. or should i say i'm actually still in the midst of deciding between this one, and The Beaufort Singapore? *sighz* what a headache!

both are pretty and i'd love to be in either, but, which one should it be? i've already made reservations at Shangri-La's for their exclusive Executive Paranomic Room though. its at the highest floor with unobstructed seaview, and exclusivity also comes with high price. but i'm sure my baby boy wouldn't mind splurging on something that only comes once a year. *smilez*

::rasa sentosa as an overall picture::

::shangri-la's swimming pool::

::i want to get married HERE!!! *hint hint* guess i've always wanted a garden wedding::

i guess part of the reason why i'm in a dilemma is because i've been in Beaufort before with my entire family, where my dad had an all-expense-paid stay at the Executive Suite. it was, by the way, lovely.

::one of their suites::

::the swimming pool by night::

but problem is, which one? *shrugz*

| a mess of me |

i have more time for myself today, unlike the last couple of days where i had work tied up to my neck! so i finally have time to really blog now.
do you know that i'm pms-ing now, and when i pms, i crave for:
1. tom yam soup/bee hoon
2. chilli crab
3. ice-cream
4. all-you-can-eat buffet
5. food, food and more food. *slurps*

did you know that:
1. my boy has gone hole-digging *lolz* as his outfield trip for 3 days, 2 nights?
2. he'll return from his outfield on saturday afternoon?
3. he'll be booking out on saturday evening?
*pouts* how long more must i endure before seeing him?


::a mess of me::

::me refusing to smile and what dear had to do which finally got me smiling, i'm hard to please huh? *tsk*::

::a mess of prince and princess::

oh come on someone, tell me i did good with the pics even though i kinda took the idea from friendster?

| When a Girl......|

When a GIRL is quiet,
Million of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lies on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms-es u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

::BORED::

so i'm back at work, and late again as a matter of fact. *shrugz* shan't bother to explain but i received a couple more hangbaos today. *hee* now i'm waiting for dinner with my bosses and being the bored me, i took a self-portrait and hey, i don't look that bad in specs now do i???

::pretty studious huh??::

::5th Day of CNY::

barely keeping both eyes opened, we made it to church on sunday. but we went to the Paya Lebar Methodist Church which my big sis and her other half attends. its the big church just newly renovated at around serangoon. our own church service was way too early, and having had supper the night before, we just couldn't get up in the morning. *tongue sticking out*

::in the car, on the way to church, trying to look chirpy::

::the interior of PLMC, real big and majestic looking, nice! we were up in the santuary by the way::

and i guess by the amount of posts i'd written today would be able to tell you how bored i am at home. but then, i would rather be home than at work. *oopsie*

::4th Day of CNY::

on the later part of the fourth day, my family was invited for dinner at my uncle's house, and after which, we would be out for a Sistas' Nite Out with our respective partners. *hee* nothing much happened except that we kept eating and eating at my uncle's house, went for a movie in town, and then went for supper at 85 market.

::the three of us and our pup::

::the movie that we caught at about midnight::

the movie was cute, funny cute i would say. not a bad show, a display of determination and passion, well worth the money. *winks*

To Be Continued - 5th Day of CNY

::3rd Day of CNY::

on the third and fourth day of the lunar new year, we packed ourselves up to Le Meridien Changi Village Hotel where it was our little V-day celebration thing. it was a great little getaway and the place was peaceful and pretty.

::the exterior of the hotel when we just got there::

::our home for 2 days::

::the interior of our room::

::a self-portrait on the bed; the bed was just too inviting::

::after our swim where we were just about to go get dinner::

::the swimming pool, pretty huh?::

::my deardear looking cute::

::another view from the top, lovely!::

::and finally, when we had to say goodbye *sobs*::

To Be Continued - 4th Day of CNY

::Valentine's Day::

today is the 14th of february, which happens to be the world renown Valentine's Day. for me, its a pretty sad and lonely day, because my boy had to book in last night, leaving me home alone with just my pup to celebrate the day with me, while my sisters go out to have fun with their respective dates. i even had to walk him and wash up him, oh how i miss my date!
my dad also chipped in to help ease the loneliness when he offered to send me to the comfort driving centre to book my basic theory, and alas, i finally picked a date for the test! the lucky date is 2nd march, which doesn't leave me very much time, so i better start studying. *tsk* by the way, i saw biscuit there too, and i poured out all my complains to her! a waiting time of close to an hour almost killed my patience but my dad insisted i stay put, so i was grumpy and frustrated and hungry. *pouts* boy am i glad its over. *phew*
alrightey, at least i feel a little accomplished today. *hee*

::2nd Day of CNY::

my boy came over to give his new year wishes to my parents on the second day, after which, it was my turn to go over his house to pay his parents a visit. then i followed my hubby-to-be to meet some of his relatives. i didn't exactly want to follow, but my mother-in-law insisted? she even wanted me to have reunion dinner with them, and to tag along with them on the first day?! told my boy i would only follow him on the second day which i did. *shrugz* i felt a little compelled and i could tell my parents would rather me be with them, but i was caught in between. and yes i know i know, she's just trying to be nice and all, i appreciate it but i'm not exactly married into his family yet you know? *pouts*
that aside, the day wasn't that bad. *smilez*

::my handsome boy at my house::

::myself in my room; 2nd outfit for CNY::

::finally, US in my house::

::my little nephew who was at my house, cute huh? *winkz*::

::his little niece who was just too adorable for words!::

To Be Continued - 3rd Day of CNY

::1st Day of CNY::

well, as for me, this was how i spent the first day of the chinese lunar new year (and yes i'm aware we're in the midst of CNY, the 5th day to be exact, and i'm a couple of days late, but there's something called an update?)
as i was saying, visited most of my relatives on the first day and thus collected most of my hangbaos. i guess i dreaded seeing them even though its a yearly event. artificial, fake and all the pretence. *blahz* the only time i really had fun was bringing my pup to mount faber for his walk. *hee*

::the little boy also had a new shirt in conjunction with CNY::

::the sistas and the pup on the first day::

::the scenic view from the top of mount faber::

::pretty Kois, a sign of good luck i guess, also @ mount faber::

::big sis and yours truly::

::and my CNY 1st outfit::

To Be Continued - 2nd Day of CNY

::CNY Eve::

another year has passed by just like that, today is reunion dinner night and i just received my first hangbao from my in-laws. *hee* i'm kinda dreading tomorrow with all the visiting and the humidity that we're surely gonna be experiencing but i don't look like i have much of a choice now do i? *pouts*
there's currently a Miss Dog Beauty Pageant on tv right now and they're all so pretty and adorable! its a showcase of not just their beauty, but also their talents. there's even one singing!? *eyes wide open* some of them look young and energetic, while some look rather old. and then i think to myself, i still have about 6-8 years more with my own pup and i'm wondering how it'll be like the day he has to leave us? oh God, i can't think and i should stop making myself feel so depressed, its CNY and V-day is around the corner? cheer up gal! i better run to get some chores done before daddy comes to scream at each one of us. *tongue sticking out*
wishing everyone out there a Happy and Prosperous Lunar New Year! *smilez*

::Hungry::

today is my lady boss' birthday and we're gonna be lunching at some chinese restaurant in about an hours' time. i'm so hungry! *screaming* i need food in my little body! so we got her a cake, a chocolate one, hopefully it'll be good. oh i can't wait for lunch time! *tummy growling*
i managed to have some fun with photoshop despite the fact that i still cannot upload any pictures from my canon ixus. argh!

::nice?? *hee* guess i have a fettish for sketching effect pics::

::russ russ boy looking so sad::

where is my lunch??? *pouts*

::Pink::

i'm all in pink today, well mostly. *hee* just felt like it i guess. wearing my pink morgan top, with my pink earrings that my sister gave me, with pink sandals that i just got from charles and keith, and my pink watch from happy house..oh and my pink blusher. *tsk* i'm turning into Ms. Elle Woods? ha!
anyway, deardear is on his way home, and i can't wait to see him! at work now and wishing and hoping i could go off soon. *keeping fingers, toes, hands and legs crossed*
actually i'm super tired from baking pineapple tarts and washing the kitchen yesterday. those were the most pineapple tarts i had ever made in my entire being! i did at least 20 trays of them, and now i have about 10 bottles of them at home. sorrie, its strictly not for sale, just for own consumption, heh! gonna give one bottle to my future in-laws and to both my sisters' boyfriends. see, i'm so nice right? *chuckles*
and by the time we finished washing the kitchen, it came close to about 3am odd. i'm so sleepy! and i miss my dear so much! *screaming*

::Hotel 1929::

linked up other blogs in hope of a good read and found something interesting - Hotel 1929. pretty cool inside, the kind that dear would love to stay in. small, cosy and sweet. but too bad, reservations had been made at Meridien, which by the way is pretty cool on its own too. perhaps we could pack ourselves into Hotel 1929 for our 4th year anniversary? *chuckles*
had my hair cut today, though the word "cut" may seem a little exaggerated, "trim" would be a better choice of vocab i would think. not too bad, though i think i may look like a huge mushroom? *lolz* oh whatever, bad mistake to trim my hair at this crucial point when CNY is just barely 5 days away! cheer up, i look fine. *smilez* (living in self-denial)
that aside, pineapple tarts baking and kitchen washing are on tomorrow, so i requested for another day of leave to give mommy dearest a hand because she ain't young anymore, and as her daughter, i ought to do my part for always making a mess outta the kitchen. *tsk* that ain't true by the way, i'm just blabbering today again as usual. its good to be away from work once in a while, it gives me back my sanity and reminds me i still have a life.
and now as i'm typing, i'm thinking to myself, why on earth am i still up at this ungodly hour, not bathed and smiling cynically to myself in front of the com? nothing's up really. just that i'm bored and real bored and miss my boy too much...my desktop has this huge wallpaper of the both of us you see, and it has this realistic feel that if i look at it any further, he may just come to life and touch me. ok now i'm really blabbering. hah!
anyway, so its range day again and in less than 2 hours' time, at 4am, in the wee hours of the morning, he'll have to be up and running, on his way for a 24-hour range.
madness.
well, i have news for you pal, its SAF. *major eyeroll*
oh and i think i forgot to mention that my mom, both sisters and i were at Charles and Keith earlier on just now, trying to qualify for their privilege card. i had to buy 2 pairs in the end because mommy couldn't find anything she fancied, and both my sisters got one pair each. its pretty i guess, just that i own at least 20 pairs of footwear and my occupancy rate in my family rack, which my dad personally made, is almost half. *tongue sticking out* well, what can i say? that i'm a fashionable young lass? *grinz*
okok, its late, i'm getting cranky and i should give this poor com a break. nitey and sweet dreams! *hugz*

::Finished::

haven't had time to actually update my blog until now, been busy the whole day with meetings and with our product license application with HSA, which by the way, is finally finished. after 2 whole weeks of non-stop trying, i have finally accomplished the task i was given to, that i set out to do. i'm pleased with the end result. *smilez* right now, i'm just waiting for HSA to call us up and tell me that "X file cannot be read, please re-do the entire application again" and so on and so forth, whatever. *blah*
i'll be on leave tomorrow, just need some time to myself to finish up the remnants of my spring-cleaning. hair-trimming is on tomorrow, as well as alteration at the tailor.
but its terrible, i feel horrible. i miss my boy too much i'm at a lost for words. this confinement has felt like eternity and 3 more days seems like forever. this made me realised something: i may have some of the best things in life, but if i have no one special to share it with, my life is nothing. which is why, without him, i am incomplete. baby, only you complete me...when are you coming back to me???
my old com is unable to detect my digicam, and i can't download the software into this new com because i need the damn administrator's password! i feel so pathetic and maybe i am. i have no pics to post and no pics to play around with in photoshop, everything's just not right. and i won't be surprised if tomorrow's haircut turns out to be a disaster, and that the tailor doesn't do my blouse and my pants properly because everything seems to be going all wrong! *freaking out* fine, its paranoia. i shall just try to calm down and breathe. *taking a deep breath* see, i feel better already. anyway, let's see what pics i have to post and then i will post it which will then not only make myself feel better, but also add more colors to my blog? (like as if its not already that colorful?)
for the last time, i just wanna SHOUT IT OUT alright?!!!

::our very own collection of family tree *grinz*::

::Overtime::

scheduled a retail therapy session with biscuit, but it may be no-show again due to some inconsiderate aunties who are just simply disturbing. i hate work sometimes! *screaming*
and i miss my dear so so so much!!!

::something i did for my previous blog; check out the amount of fun we have together::

::FYI::

its only tuesday. not counting today, its 4 more days to bookout day, 4 more days to seeing my prince. i'm glad, but it seemed like a thousand years since i last saw him, i'm just tired of an almost endless wait. *sigh*
anyway, here's a couple of stuff FYI:
1. made an appointment with Toni and Guy for a haircut this thursday.
2. made an appointment with biscuit for eyebrow shaping this saturday.
3. my phone strap arrived yesterday! its so pretty, i had taken a pic of it, will show it soon. *grinz*
4. i'm taking leave this thursday to help mommy wash the kitchen for chinese new year (cny). she's not young anymore, so i thought i should help her out. used to be dear and i helping her, but since dear can't come out as and when he pleases, i should still carry on the tradition.
5. my own spring-cleaning is almost done, except for the windows and the bed which i can only do after the windows are washed. still waiting for my deardear to wash the window for me. *pouts*
6. going to the tailor to alter 2 of my blouses and my victoria secrets' pants with daddy on thursday as well.
7. after my haircut and the tailor on thursday, i'm gonna be shopping for a pair of diamond earrings for CNY.
8. the credit card bills came, and i got the shock of my life! shan't disclose the figure here just in case some of you faint. *lolz* but yah, a considerable amount. *tsk*
9. i have a new com but it sux because its been divided into different users and a computer-illiterate is the administrator? no offence but its actually her boyfriend who's really in charge of the com? i'm trying my best to be peaceful with those two but it just seems like its complete dominance ain't it? *shaking head*
10. i'm still waiting patiently for my prince to return to me......*heartache in process*