| Apprehension |

its official - 6th of June will be my last day at my current workplace. with effect from 9th of June, i will be transferred internally to another department at a different location.

i made this request some time in april. at that time, i was extremely determined that my decision to leave my current workplace and job scope and be transferred to the HQ was a right choice. i was excited at the bountiful knowledge that awaited me, i didn't give a second or third thought at how my close colleagues would feel, afterall, i had been with them for 2.5 years and the only closest person back there - my ex-boss - had already left. there was nothing, absolutely nothing holding me back.

today i received the official letter of transfer, handed personally to me by my big boss whom i had worked with since last november.

in all honesty, he wasn't how all those people along the grapevine pictured him to be. on the contrary, he was a big man who commanded respect and authority whenever he went, and i respected him for who he is. we had a chat after work since he's hardly ever around, and we talked about many things, one of which was my further studies. he was also surprisingly, very supportive of further education and had been the most understanding person, supporting me in secret, since my ex-boss. i was very touched, i even almost teared. he wished me all the best for my new career and my studies and instructed how i must do well, or i would be letting him down. he said letting go of someone as capable as me was something he struggled with. i thanked him for his unwavering support be it in my change of career or studies. he was truly a man worth my respect.

now that this chapter of my life is ending and another will be starting soon, i wonder how my journey in the real world would be like. if i may be honest, i had been very protected for the past 2.5 years. this decision to step outta my comfort zone and confront the realities of life is one of my bravest - though apprehension is slowly but surely threatening me, i must stay focus and be strong. i will not let the people who care so much for me down. i will show them that my thirst for knowledge was a right decision.

the same verse which i repeatedly meditated in my heart during my last driving test - and which i see alot of truth in it - will continue to be the guiding verse in my life:

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding.
But in all your ways, trust in Him
and He will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6

| BEST Love |

i just want to say that i have the BEST boyfriend in this whole wide world who loves me dearly, and who hand-makes stuff for me~!

i'm blessed, truly i am. =)

Taylor Swift - Teardrops on My Guitar

my current favourite..

| Work Work |

we are the unfortunate,

led by the unworthy,

doing the unnecessary for the ungrateful.

how apt in my current situation @ work now. argh~!