| Filling In |

i finally feel the urge to write and update.

biz stats - my most feared module. anything to do with numbers/figures/graphs/charts etc and i squirm at the very thought of it. but biz stats is a core module and we had no choice but to take it last semester. results will be out midday, this friday. i'm not exactly looking forward to it but i honestly hope for a pass, just a simple borderline pass for all 3 modules.

a week after the exams ended and summer sem started, this time we are taking only one subject - it indeed feels more relaxed.

in the midst of my peak at work, i came across a weird email in my boss' mailbox from the HR dept that titled "Exit Interview". a simple one sentence that read, "Pls fill out the attached form and return to me, thank you." i got hot and red and it all felt strange, i turned to my colleague behind and asked if my boss threw in the white towel and she nodded sadly.

i cried.

my boss was at a meeting that morning and i was very thankful for the time i had alone to think about what his resignation could mean to me. but i was highly emotional and i couldn't stop crying even when he got back in the afternoon. the whole time for 2 days, we barely spoke, and even if we did, it was in the presence of other people because i was afraid i would get emotional. this piece of news came at a wrong time - i was so busy at work and at the same time i had to mull for exams; the whole thing was just too much.

but life still had to go on. tried my best to focus on exams and even when the last paper ended, it wasn't over for me. there was more to come in fact. despite all that, during those 2 weeks, i calmed down alot. i also stopped crying so much and slowly accepted the truth. my boss talked to me like how he always did - like a brother - and i came to understand his reason for leaving.

it was necessary.

all along, my boss had been my shield at work. because of his status, most revered him and didn't dare hurt me though they had very strong vibes for me, i can feel it, trust me. i had been mostly happy the last 2 years here because he had been very understanding particularly towards my part-time studies. i appreciated him as my boss very much and thanked the Lord for that priceless gift. but what has a beginning must have an ending. we talked about it before but never once had i thought the end was so close. farewell dinners, farewell gifts, photo-taking, tons of clearance work and a 3-hour long chat with him the day before he left.

i'm proud to say i was able to hold back the tears on his last day. =)

and that closed another chapter in my life.

the following week, i was down with flu and gastric flu and was on MC for most days of the week. the big boss came looking for me the minute he heard that i came back. we had a talk. what he told me irked me but work is workand i will tolerate for as long as i can, hopefully till the day i get my degree and get the hell outta here. this company is a goner.

this week has seen many trials and obstacles so far. there'll be more to come i believe. but whether it was intentional or not, i finally see how my boss had protected me from evil people in the past and how my big boss just happily threw me into the lions' dens the minute i became boss-less.

well done.

i will still try. i will continue to persevere not by my will, but by the Father's will. however if all these prove too much to bear, i will leave.

but right now, i'm living each day at a time, taking things slowly. i've almost become a pessimist but take heart, when the clock strikes 5.30pm on mondays to fridays, i become alive again. is this what real urban working life feels like? maybe this is the side i haven't tasted in the 3 years since i came into the society. now it gets harsher and worser.

thank God i still have some very good colleagues/friends to fall back on here. and the boyfriend most importantly, for ever being so supportive in whatever i do. i'm so blessed, i really am.

| Hong Kong, Day Two - DisneyLand |

thank God for the exceptional fine weather that day. though we got burnt by the sun, reckoned it's better than getting drenched. and bear with me, this has got more than 50 pics.


::as promised, our couple shoes from kappa. we wore this for the rest of our journey in hongkong =) ::


::@ the entrance of disneyland::


::so happy!::


::hmmm..that's donald::


::our tickets - we're keeping it to build up our mountain of memories together::


::the train station. we took this while queueing for a pic with mickey and minnie::


::also took this while in the queue; the tram ride which i never got the chance to sit in =( ::


::us in the queue for barely 2 minutes with Mickey and Minnie. did you know we still got sunburnt despite the brolly?::


::thankfully, there were many performances along the streets that entertained us::


::finally, the priceless picture which wasted our time for more than an hour::


::then we moved along the streets which had many cutie shops and fake houses::


::another one of those fake houses. the boyfriend made me pose like this::


::but this castle here is so full of bling bling and yes its real (i think)::


::the boyfriend and pocahontas' dad!::


::our first stop and first ride - the Cinderella's Carousel::


::the boyfriend trying his very best to open the doorway - action only::


::snow white, the seven dwarfs and yours truly::


::"i wish for eternal happiness with my prince..."::


::there were so many pretty scenes like this, who can just walk by without capturing a shot or two?::


::the boyfriend working so hard again::


::the second ride we took, i think::


::so fun!::


::"i'm a lil teapot, short and stout" but in this case, its a teacup *lolx and can you see that the boyfriend delibrately cut off my hand in this pic - he hates the handsign that i do::


::tired..so we took a break and had a light meal which didn't come cheap. sorrie about the color of the left pic - it was too dark and this was the only way so our faces can be seen, heh =p::


::and the toilet! it may not be the prettiest looking but its air-conditioned, with lotsa room and its equipped with disposable toilet seat covers where you can use to protect that lil throne of yours, i like!::


::one of the kiddy rides we took::


::poisoned his good friend??::


::no wonder. i couldn't agree more *lolx::


::then we moved off to Tarzan's treehouse..::


::which had a good view from the top::


::reading...::


::the boyfriend always make me do stupid pose..and you still say i dun listen enough to you? *pouts::


::then in the afternoon, all rides were temporarily suspended just to cater for this parade, it was good wet fun though::


::dancing and performances throughout, it was very well choreographed and coordinated::


::that's donald again::


::goof::


::minnie::


::mickey::


::the three lil pigs::


::after all the spraying and super soakers, the rides and shows were all put back on and we headed for the 3-D show; it was very good i must say, one of the best in fact::


::another one of those shows, this one is about the Lion King - Simba::


::after that we headed for Tomorrowland...::


::where the boyfriend had lotsa fun..but when will it be real?::


::one of those rides @ Tomorrowland::


::we also stopped by to get directions. actually the boyfriend is just pretending, he enjoys being a tourist holding a map in his hand but i must say, he's real good at it. he guided and led me throughout the way, except for that horrible experience we had in ShenZhen which yours truly took the lead and left for HongKong on our own - will tell ya more of that in the next post::


::decided to drop by the history and making of mickey and friends::


::shhhh....mickey @ work::


::then we headed to the stores for some air-con::


::i also took pics with the pple there...there all have very pretty uniforms::


::by now, we had finished almost everything there was to disneyland, so we took the train back to where we could find some food::


::when we reached our destination, we found a note that goof wrote..::


::@ one of the restaurants::


::but we chose the chinese restaurant instead. hmmmm what to eat? i'm SO hungry!::


::and all the boyfriend could do was smile at the camera because he said he liked the drawing on the teapot *faints::


::then after dinner, we headed out to the castle to wait for the fireworks::

no amount of words could do the fireworks justice, not even pictures of it. we tried recording it down but the effects weren't as great as the real thing. will try to put what we have up to youtube though. so...in conclusion, HongKong Disneyland is the place to go if you are on a budget (as compared to Tokyo or the Americas), however be very careful of you-know-who next door whom are all running into HongKong. at our current age, being able to afford coming here was a blessing from the Father, and we are very thankful for that. =)