| Stay Home |

my third parallel parking since i got my class 3. its cool, i think. haha!

my parents are leaving for aussie, and are gonna be gone for the next half a month. i'm doomed with the pup. he's gonna miss my dad like BIG time. i cannot even begin to imagine.

its gonna be more walks with the pup, home dvds and more stay-home activities for the next two and a half weeks.

the boyfriend says its good for the pocket, i can't agree more.

| Larvae |

received a mail at work today that totally freaked me out - a breast with larvae living in self-made homes - holes. even the nipple was eaten up. just white worms, living in black holes made outta the breast.

*shivers

its sick. you should see the picture and your hair will stand everytime you think about it.

pity its stuck in a word file and i can't save the pic. besides the boyfriend said i shouldn't post it online, it will gross me out further, which is so true.

forget about the picture....forget...

| Broke |

i declare, i'm officially broke.

turned out not just $103.00, but plus a few more other hundreds.

no more retail therapy for the next month, the following month and the following following month...

the boyfriend got called back for duty again, on my weekend.

and the boyfriend also murdered a baby lizard. that's so mean can?!

which is why dear all, please keep the lil lizard in prayer.

| Result of Preview |

outcome of yesterday's exclusive mango sale preview: fantastic
amount of time spent in there: 45mins
no. of pple disturbing me: none
no. of shoppers in the arena: approximately 20
no. of tops bought: 3
no. of bottoms bought: 1
total amount spent: $103.00
after-feelings: i'm still a mango girl. =p

in addition to my already-bursting wardrobe, the amount was harmless, but i need to stop spending and start saving all over again.

the darn lappie, my one biggest investment ever - $2,500.

| Mango Sale |

Just for being a MANGO VIP Card holder, you are invited to our exclusive sale preview.

Wednesday 21st June from 12pm - 8pm*

*Event is exclusive to MANGO VIP card holders and invitation card must be presented on entry. Invitation valid for one entry only.

so that's where yours truly will be heading down after work today. not that i'm still a mango addict like a few years ago, but i'm just curious how the turn out would be.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed that my pockets would be spared from being burnt.

and the sale opens to public tomorrow! so girls, prepare your credit cards!

| Mentality |

person 1: hi wylyn! long time no see, go where?
me (with obvious change in voice) : on MC
person 1: for 2 days?
me: *nodding head
person 1: dun bluff lah
me: yah yah, i'm actually not sick, i begged the doc to gimme 2 days mc
person 1: really ar?
me: *major eyeroll and walks away

person 2: so long never see you, on leave ar?
me: no, on MC
person 2: oh issit?
me: oh i bluff one. i actually begged the doc to gimme 2 days mc
person 2: HUH?! *in shock
me: *major major eyeroll and walks away

what is wrong with all these pple? i dun get it. they have such strange mentality thinking i delibrately skipped work or something. i'm sick and dying, HULLO which part of my body language tells you i'm bubbly and healthy?!

and i have this auntie who gets upset whenever i'm on leave or on MC and i dun inform her. HULLO, you're not my boss! the way we work here, i'm accountable only to my boss, and if he's not around, the sickening goldfish. you're not even in my "List of People to Inform During Absence From Work". i could be nice and let you know, but why should i when you dun even bother letting me know of your whereabouts? and honestly i dun care either if you dun come or not. its really none of my business, my work does not evolve you.

crazy.

then everytime gimme attitude, what is there to be angry about?

respect you say? my ASS.

| KL trip |

ok the post that is long awaited. ahaha! 2 months overdue, but hey, better late than never!

so on april 22 we left on a morning coach via the second link into malaysia. first trip without my parents, first independent trip.


::all smiles in the coach::


::our home for the next 2 nights, but dun be fooled by its appearance, its really not that fantastic::


::headed straight for this on the first night - my favoruite portugese grill, oh its amazing!::

we also went for the frog porridge the same night which was equally good, but difficult to eat. i can't seem to find the picture anywhere though. oh well, never mind.


::day 2 - rise and shine! our couple wear for the trp ahaha::


::headed for KL's chinatown early in the morning to find that they only open at 11am, BUT i managed to get a slipper @ RM8 and 3 pairs of earrings @ RM5. its a steal i tell you!::


::then on our way to the train station where it'd take us to KLCC, we passed by a pet shop and i just got magically attracted into it, the pups were so adorable, they made me miss my pup so much!::


::see?::


::in the train station::

before i go on, i just have to pause and tell you what happened at the train station.

so it was our first time there in malaysia's train station, but it was very much like our local train stations before the ez-link card came along where we had to put the flimsy card into the machine and then it'd pop right back up.

BUT the boyfriend was so innocently silly, he saw the words on the machine saying "Tap and Go", and he did exactly that, thinking its like our ez-link card system here. coincidentally, the machine's door he "Tapped and Went" was open because it was spoilt or something and he happily went through thinking what he did was correct.

when it came to my turn, i was on another machine, and i followed what the boyfriend did. but my machine, which was working fine, refused to barge. we created quite a commotion until one of the officer saw and shooed the boyfriend back into the gantry and showed us that the card must go into the machine, then the door will open, then we'll take the card back.

*rofl

i couldn't stop laughing after that because the boyfriend was really so "clever"!! ahahahahahaha


::the boyfriend in the train smiling so happily after his blunder::


::then it was finally KLCC::


::my super-duper lok-kok dressing. according to my parents, i had to dress as down as possible so that i wouldn't attract any unneccessary attention::


::the boyfriend acting silly and spas again::


::all the way from singapore, we just had to take the twin tower::


::one normal shot of the boyfriend::


::another spastic shot of the boyfriend - but this i have to say, is pretty creative::


::myself outside the KLCC::


::and this was what we had for lunch - Fish in Manhattan::


::my prawns on fire =p::

at KLCC, i bought 2 pairs of heels, 1 mambo top and pouch, and ate alot alot. hee =p

then the 3rd and final morning before we headed back home with our afternoon coach, we had breakfast at 3 different places. first was at our own hotel.


::this was the second place::


::and finally, this was the 3rd and best place for breakfast::

and with that, it ended our 3 day adventure. we got home safe and sound in one piece thank you very much, but i fell sick the day after i got home and was on mc for 2 days. like how i am on mc again.

*sniff

| Done |

and i'm done with the DVC book!!! it was last night though.

i was and still am on medication, thus wasn't well enough to blog.

*sniff

| DVC - Book |

currently at chapter 45 of the DaVinci Code, i still have 60 chapters more and an epilogue before i finish the 592 593 pages thick book.

i haven't had the time like i had for Memoirs of a Geisha, (i finished that in 5 days whilst working), except for today - my boss is on MC. just 2 days ago, i was on MC, and now its his turn. i feel bad. could it be my virus? because technically, i'm still recuperating and virus then are the most active.

that aside.

had borrowed the DVC from a friend who has a wide collection of books. its been in my possession for close to 2 weeks and i'm nowhere near half. what a shame. and now this friend has left for nepal for some mission work, i'm gonna force myself to finish this book within the 10 days that he'll be away, and return it when he comes back.

in this way, it will not look bad on me.

so slow.

| Can you Spot the Difference? |

hahahahahaha! can you guys tell? come on, its SO obvious! =p

the boyfriend is looking at neither of the two cameras!!!

*rofl

| Sorrie |

a whiff of the salty sea air in the night...

i'm sorrie.

let's not quarrel again?

i get scared sometimes, i just want assurance. dun wanna waste time anymore, dun wanna waste anymore of my life.

| Life Goes On... |

if you'd just admit it, this would not have happened.

i wasted 5 years.

i will be so strong, you wouldn't even recognise me. my life will go on without you.

| Go There With You |

my favourite song, the ultimate love song.

Go There With You
by Steven Curtis Chapman

I know you've heard me say these words before
But every time I say "I love you"
The words mean something more
I spoke them as a promise
Right from the start
I said death would be the only thing that could tear us apart
And now that you are standing on the edge of the unknown
"I Love you" means I抣l be with you
Wherever you must go

CHORUS
And I will take a heart who's nature
Is to beat for me alone
And fill it up with you, make all your joy and pain my own
No matter how deep a valley you go through
I will Go there with you
And I will give myself to love the way Love gave itself for me
And climb with you to mountian tops
Or swim a raging sea
To the place where one heart is made of two
I will go there with you

I see it in your tears, you wonder where you are
The wind is growing colder and the sky is growing dark
Though it's something neither of us understands
We can walk through this together if we hold each other's hand
I said for better of for worse I'd be with you
So no matter where you're going
I will go there too...

CHORUS

I know sometimes I let you down
But I won't let you go
We'll always be together

| My Journey |

3 nights ago, a friend sent me a testimony of how he got to know Christ. it talked about the 10 years journey it took him to finally find God. it was most touching, and indeed, i teared after reading it.

we're actually quite similar, the friend and me. and immediately i felt a connection.

i guess in all my 489 posts in this blog, i'd never once written about my early years as a christian in depth. well perhaps its time i start penning it down.

i realised the existence of Jesus when i was as lil as 6. despite my parents being both buddhists, they sent the 3 of us to a catholic school. all 3 of us did our primary and secondary education in the same school, and that was when it all started.

in school, they had regular masses, and we always said grace before and after meals. there were also weekly catechism classes for catholics and for those who were interested in knowing more about God. all those had shaped my thoughts and beliefs and slowly, i found myself distancing from buddhism.
whenever i asked my parents about how buddhism came about, they weren't able to explain their faith to me, couldn't tell me the origin and how their god and worship came about. i thought it strange, but never questioned more than i was already told.
as the years went by, i'd learnt more and more about God and Jesus, and even Mother Mary. i was even more determined to know more about Them. i stopped going to the temples with my mother, and started going to church, occasionally with my grandmother, who was a devout Catholic, and most of the time with my big sister, whom was more into the Christian faith, and whom i also became very much like.

we started with Faith Community Baptist Church (FCBC). i was 12, and it was after my PSLE. it was a very charasmatic church and i felt uncomfortable with all of them jumping to the music in worship to the Lord. and worse of all, i couldn't understand how Christians actually do not pray to the Virgin Mary! in all my 12 years then, all i remember ever being taught was that Mother Mary would intercede to God and Jesus for us whenever we prayed, for she was after all, Jesus' mother. furthermore, i also thought after Jesus was raised, Mother Mary followed suit. but when my sister told me to check against the Bible, i couldn't find any record and i knew then, that all i had ever been taught in primary school weren't the whole truth. i struggled with this fact for a long long time, i finally decided to join my sister in bible study lessons because i wanted to know more about God, Jesus and if possible, Mother Mary.

we attended FCBC for awhile, until one day, my sister said there was a prophet who was coming to town and invited my entire family there. is prophet the right term? he did, after all, lay hands on me and prophesized about how i would be, if i had been a faithful disciple of Christ.
i've been searching for that tape that recorded down his exact words, and my sister even wrote it out for me. i haven't been successful though.
amidst the words i could vaguely remember, "Thank you Lord, that her studies are well, that she will do her parents proud. things that her mother never thought she'd be capable of. thank you Lord that she will soar on eagles' wings, she's gonna do great things."

and i thought i would really do great things. i guess that was not to be. not now at least.

after FCBC, my sister decided she wanted to change churches, being young and ignorant, i tagged along. her piano teacher was an Adventist, and she was the one who brought my sister to the Seventh-Day Adventist (SDA) Church everyone claimed was a cult.
things weren't so bad when we got there, in fact, things were even better and i enjoyed the quiet service they had, which was very much like the average Catholic Church. that was where my Bible knowledge grew, and that was also where i'd learnt the most. i was 13 going on 14, a blooming teenage girl where crushes and infatuation were the norm.

somewhere in the midst when i was 15, i decided it was time to get baptised. my parents didn't agree of course, because although they gave us the freedom to choose whatever religion we might like, they weren't ready for their baby girl to get baptised. i pleaded and i begged, and finally my dad gave me the green light, i was delighted! but my focus on the Lord would sadly be short-lived.

a filipino guy, whose name i won't mention, was my crush. he was 22 when i was 15. that was a good whole 7 years of difference in age and race, but crushes and infatuations knew no boundaries. he drew me further away from God, i became distracted. slowly, my attendance for any events were whether he was there or not, rather than for God. it was bad, but the feelings during pyberty were strong, it consumed the rational side of me. not long after, he and his family had to leave for the States. they were missionaries, and hadn't a stable home. their 3 years stay in singapore was up and had to move to another place where they were needed more. i was so upset when he left, and so upset i would never see him again. but it was good in a way, i
could now go back to being the christian i had always wanted to be.
at that time, my sister left yet again, to my present church, an Anglican church. but i stayed on for another year or so. only when i felt my growth in the Lord had turned stagnant, i left too. i didn't stay on because i wanted to wait for that guy, i knew it was impossible even if he came back. and i thank God we haven't crossed paths after so many years. his deep blue eyes were the loveliest i had ever seen, and i'm sure if i saw those eyes again, i might just be swept off my feet.

*lolx i'm just kidding. i'm sure he's old and happily married with a child or so now.

eventually, i left the SDA community with a heavy heart, and i decided henceforth, that i would take a break from going to church, until i was ready. i was 16 then.

after a few months, i joined my sister in my present Anglican church now and stayed on ever since, though she now attends another anglican church with her husband-to-be.

i joined the youth and became very active in many areas. camp, retreats, street evangelism, outings, crusade etc. met yet another bunch of guys whom i became pretty close with, but like i mentioned before, not intimate enough to become an item. the youth pastor didn't quite like the fact i was always the centre of attraction and tried to 'banish' my friendship with many of them. they picked on the silliest things like my dressing. naturally i became angry and decided to drop it off once and for all. i went back to the main adult service.

in the end, the Reverend at that time thought the youth was growing in a wrong way, they looked up to their youth pastor more than they would to Jesus and decided unanimously to break up the youth community. they objected and left to set up their own church. their charasmatic worship and manner also found it hard for the church elders to accept.

things became peaceful once again, until after my 'o' levels, where i had to find a temp job to fill my time. that was when i met my fiance. i was 18.

he was the reason why i distanced away from God too. and to be completely honest, he's still one of the many reasons why i haven't been able to get my relationship with the Lord back on track. my disappointment in people through out those early years of my young faith also left a scar, i'd been afraid to go back.

so now, 5 years later, i'm still with him. he's now attending church with me, but we haven't found a cell yet. when we do, will i be able to burn for the Lord once again, just like old times?

| Fathom |

its hard to fathom one's heart. even i dunno what goes through my head anymore.

further studies. overseas or local?

i've always wanted to go aussie for my degree, but i guess being in the country that we are in, unless our family has loads of spare cash, that idea simply wouldn't work out.

but money isn't the issue here.

we've talked about it. i guess i could, but i often ask myself if i'd be strong enough to do so. leaving my family, my pup, and even the boyfriend behind. and if i had a nice bunch of friends, would i be able to leave them all behind?

i can't.

i mean, how many are willing to step outta their comfort zone, to experience something totally alien?

which is why i still chose to do my studies here eventually.

received my offer letter today, 5 exemptions. double major. mid-july.

i'm finally gonna be a student again after close to 2 years.

thank you. =)

| My Space |

there was a fight. i raised my voice.

because of your f**ked up friends, i have give up my date with my friends?!

you can't keep doing this to me.

you need to give me a life and my own space.

forgot how bad things turned 2 weeks back?
their idea of a midnight movie and supper @ geylang?

.CMI.

| ORD Lo |

i guess it must be the happiest day of their lives when the PINK IC is returned to them. Welcome Back to Civilian Life!


::the whole bunch of 'em::


::can you see what the ORD boy is holding in his hands? 11B & Pink IC?!::


::the happiest of 'em all::



::the stupid russian hat which captivated all::


::lastly the couples::

| Island Life |

i know this pic is bursting outta my blogskin, but i'll be changing to a new skin tomorrow, so just bear with it ok? nitez everyone! *yawnz

| The Terror |

the terror is here again.

the boyfriend says i'm not myself.

but why should i be when they always do the behnd-closed-doors act?

*pui

gotta go, i'm rushing for some ORD celebration. *lolx

| Da Vinci Code |

am finally able to blog on my new lappie.

anyway about the movie on tuesday night. it was after a long wait and massive negotiations with the boyfriend's army-mates on the day and time.

*sigh

boys.

so prior to watching the movie, i've heard what the story was all about and that many Christians' faith around the world have been so shaken that many religious groups in the world, including singapore, tried dissuading the authorities to ban this movie from screening here.

that aside.

in all honesty, my goose bumps kept rising, and my hair standing in most parts of the movie.

the author tried to used actual events and characters in history, to support his claims and absurd imagination. it was brillant of him in this aspect, but he certainly not have enough facts to pull off this stunt.

they talked about some power that will only be released when a man and woman unite (e.g. sex), with the whole
congregation watching. that's orgy as far as i'm concerned, and obviously associated with the occult, satanism and the Devil worship.
so then tell me, how righteous is this group of people indulging in some secret sexual rituals as such?!

blasphemy. indeed.

and fyi, there is no gospel of Philip. there is also no gospel of Mary Magdelene, or Thomas, or Mary for that matter. there is also no Holy Grail and no "royal bloodline". and even if there were, there must be a reason why at the final compilation of the different books, the Bible only has 66 books, not more, not less. remember, in all that we were taught, everything happens for a reason. and you would think God had no involvement in this matter?

NO.

there is only one God the Father, together with God the Son and God the Holy Spirit in the Holy Trinity. when God the Son was on earth as a mortal man just like every one else, He had God the Father's divinity in Him which was why He was able to perform so many miracles. He was not a mere man. He was God.

i've read about Gnosticism, about the Knights' Templers, Priory of Sion and even the Essene Scrolls and each of what i've read have their own versions of "truth".

i admit whilst reading those, i've been rather disillusioned. but the more i read, the more i knew if those were the "facts" they claimed were true, then where is the consistency???

one book says Jesus and Mary had a daughter, the other book claimed they bore a son. worst still, there were some who claimed they had 3 children in fact and that Jesus did not die physically when crucified, but only a 'spiritual death'?!

these pple completely have no idea what they're talking about.

utter rubbish.

there can be a million and one claims and none of us will ever know if its true or not, unless we ourselves believe in that truth.

so i guess this is where romans 10:17 comes in.

"so then, faith comes by hearing, and hearing from the word of God"