i was a happy girl today until news about my aunty being sick came about. she has lung cancer, terminal stage, and she may go any time.
its sad, and we all got affected emotionally. we aren't close with her though she's my dad's eldest sister, and his closest sibling at that.
all her hair fell off because of chemotherapy.
then i thought of my grandmama too, who passed on due to colon cancer. that was about 5 years ago. i saw how she bravely fought with the disease but eventually succumbing to it.
life is cruel.
and slowly, one by one will leave me one day. then new life would come about, bringing balance to this planet.
the vicious cycle of life.
Wedding Ticker
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
| My Wishes |
looking at the changes around us, indeed we have grown.
but i still:
wish you were here with me.
wish you would pay more attention to me and my sore eyes.
wish you wouldn't be so into your blog.
you were just here in my house,
but i felt alone.
you were just here in my house,
but we felt distant.
something's always wrong.
you keep apologising, but what's the use?
you said you don't like me blogging about our problems,
but where else can i turn to?
this is MY online diary,
this is the only place i turn to,
this where i am entitled to MY freedom of speech.
you cannot stop me.
i would love to talk things out,
provided you would gimme some of your time.
i would love to talk things out,
provided its not on the phone.
i'm always on the phone with you,
i'm sick of that.
sometimes i just wish i could see you,
and talk to you face-to-face.
but we can't,
because of the army.
can't take leave,
can't attend c,
can't leave the country,
can't have a life.
*sighz
sometimes i just wish that...
but i still:
wish you were here with me.
wish you would pay more attention to me and my sore eyes.
wish you wouldn't be so into your blog.
you were just here in my house,
but i felt alone.
you were just here in my house,
but we felt distant.
something's always wrong.
you keep apologising, but what's the use?
you said you don't like me blogging about our problems,
but where else can i turn to?
this is MY online diary,
this is the only place i turn to,
this where i am entitled to MY freedom of speech.
you cannot stop me.
i would love to talk things out,
provided you would gimme some of your time.
i would love to talk things out,
provided its not on the phone.
i'm always on the phone with you,
i'm sick of that.
sometimes i just wish i could see you,
and talk to you face-to-face.
but we can't,
because of the army.
can't take leave,
can't attend c,
can't leave the country,
can't have a life.
*sighz
sometimes i just wish that...
Monday, August 29, 2005
| Friday, Saturday, Sunday |
friday:
had a quick catch-up with pat. her good friend came after that, and so did her date. *chucklez
remember what i said, take your time, take things slow, you'll be ok. *winkz
saturday:
on saturday night was dear's friend, Jingying's key-to-freedom day.
sunday:
we spent our day at the studios of Cover Looks where we had a couple makeover session. i practically had to drag dear there, but well, it turned out good. ha and now we're just waiting for our pics in about 2 weeks' time.
had a quick catch-up with pat. her good friend came after that, and so did her date. *chucklez
remember what i said, take your time, take things slow, you'll be ok. *winkz
saturday:
on saturday night was dear's friend, Jingying's key-to-freedom day.
sunday:
we spent our day at the studios of Cover Looks where we had a couple makeover session. i practically had to drag dear there, but well, it turned out good. ha and now we're just waiting for our pics in about 2 weeks' time.
| Conjunctivitis |
Conjunctivitis: Inflammation of the conjunctiva, characterized by redness and often accompanied by a discharge.
that is what's happening to my eyes right now.
i look like a hideous freak.
i have to wear shades whenever i step outta the house.
first it was my left eye, then it spreaded to my right eye, and now, both my eyes are infected.
i'm SO mad!
::look!!! SO gross!!!::
that is what's happening to my eyes right now.
i look like a hideous freak.
i have to wear shades whenever i step outta the house.
first it was my left eye, then it spreaded to my right eye, and now, both my eyes are infected.
i'm SO mad!
::look!!! SO gross!!!::
Friday, August 26, 2005
| Army |
i am seriously beginning to detest the army.
they're always taking my fiance away from me,
and even on weekends,
they dun give up!
*argh
service to the nation.
make a man outta him.
country before self.
for the greater good.
what about me?
his sweet fiance?
its an endless wait.
*pouts
oh and guess what?
it just occured to me:
next month marks eprincessdiary's first year of blogging!
and also a year since dear served the nation!
*pops balloons
they're always taking my fiance away from me,
and even on weekends,
they dun give up!
*argh
service to the nation.
make a man outta him.
country before self.
for the greater good.
what about me?
his sweet fiance?
its an endless wait.
*pouts
oh and guess what?
it just occured to me:
next month marks eprincessdiary's first year of blogging!
and also a year since dear served the nation!
*pops balloons
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
| Quality Time |
i've been spending real quality time with my pup these days, and we've become alot closer too, a bit too close for comfort if i may add.
i helped bathe him last week. and any water activity being his most-hated activity, he naturally got agressive the whole time.
and i even got BITEN by him, and now my arm looks like this:
*pouts
i helped bathe him last week. and any water activity being his most-hated activity, he naturally got agressive the whole time.
and i even got BITEN by him, and now my arm looks like this:
*pouts
Monday, August 22, 2005
| My First Times |
1. Spa @ Rustic Nirvana
my first time @ spa, and it was indeed an eye-opener.
maybe i'm a mountain tortoise or what, but i never knew you had to strip naked and it didn't occur to me to ask my mommy dearest. i was rather awkward when i was told to do so and especially since i was just given a disposal panty and shower cap to put on. seeing that the room was very dimly lighted, i thought "oh what the heck" and just stripped. there as i laid barenaked on the bed, the masseuse worked her hands through my body.
total relaxation i must say. she mentioned something of detoxification and weight loss through regular spa sessions. *hmmm
after close to 45 minutes of massage, she coated my body with this indonesian herbal thing called Jamu (i think) and wrapped me up in cellophane paper and brought me for sandstone therapy exclusive only to Rustic Nirvana and is a personal favourite of Zoe Tay. basically its a tub filled with treated sand mixed together with aromatherapy oils and i was required to lie in there while she covered the rest of my body with sand. i was literally buried in that tub of sand for 30 minutes. and during those 30 minutes, i felt my entire body burning because of the Jamu thing.
then finally, i was done.
and i had to bathe to get rid of the sandy stuff all over my body.
nice experience and i would definitely follow my mommy dearest for more spa sessions!
2. Clubbing @ Dbl O
also my first time @ dbl o though i've heard many comments about that place before.
my mood wasn't right, the people were off, i didn't feel like dancing and i thought it was a bad idea to club on saturday.
BUT it turned out otherwise, and i was pleasantly greeted by a nice mix of retro hits that my body found it hard not to sway with it. we danced a whole 3 and a half hours non-stop, where at the end of it, the crowd started dispersing, and i felt my legs were gonna break any minute, so we left the dance floor close to 3am.
thought supper would be a fine idea but dear's friends didn't seem to wanna go anywhere because all 5 guys were trying to hook up one miserable pathetic girl and i thought that was bad taste. well, whatever.
so dear and i left for home and cooked ourselves some nice maggi mee before we finally hit the sack at five in the morning. we only got up at one in the afternoon. haha but it was good fun.
and honestly, where were you thinking? am STILL holding the V-card up high and proud alright? *tsk
my first time @ spa, and it was indeed an eye-opener.
maybe i'm a mountain tortoise or what, but i never knew you had to strip naked and it didn't occur to me to ask my mommy dearest. i was rather awkward when i was told to do so and especially since i was just given a disposal panty and shower cap to put on. seeing that the room was very dimly lighted, i thought "oh what the heck" and just stripped. there as i laid barenaked on the bed, the masseuse worked her hands through my body.
total relaxation i must say. she mentioned something of detoxification and weight loss through regular spa sessions. *hmmm
after close to 45 minutes of massage, she coated my body with this indonesian herbal thing called Jamu (i think) and wrapped me up in cellophane paper and brought me for sandstone therapy exclusive only to Rustic Nirvana and is a personal favourite of Zoe Tay. basically its a tub filled with treated sand mixed together with aromatherapy oils and i was required to lie in there while she covered the rest of my body with sand. i was literally buried in that tub of sand for 30 minutes. and during those 30 minutes, i felt my entire body burning because of the Jamu thing.
then finally, i was done.
and i had to bathe to get rid of the sandy stuff all over my body.
nice experience and i would definitely follow my mommy dearest for more spa sessions!
2. Clubbing @ Dbl O
also my first time @ dbl o though i've heard many comments about that place before.
my mood wasn't right, the people were off, i didn't feel like dancing and i thought it was a bad idea to club on saturday.
BUT it turned out otherwise, and i was pleasantly greeted by a nice mix of retro hits that my body found it hard not to sway with it. we danced a whole 3 and a half hours non-stop, where at the end of it, the crowd started dispersing, and i felt my legs were gonna break any minute, so we left the dance floor close to 3am.
thought supper would be a fine idea but dear's friends didn't seem to wanna go anywhere because all 5 guys were trying to hook up one miserable pathetic girl and i thought that was bad taste. well, whatever.
so dear and i left for home and cooked ourselves some nice maggi mee before we finally hit the sack at five in the morning. we only got up at one in the afternoon. haha but it was good fun.
and honestly, where were you thinking? am STILL holding the V-card up high and proud alright? *tsk
| 10 Things You Should Never Give Up Hope On |
1. Losing those 5 kilos
2. True Love
3. Owning your own home
4. Bagging that promotion
5. Resolving differences with your family
6. A job you love
7. Your dream to start your own business
8. Finding inner peace
9. Getting your Driver's License
10.Hope itself.
and if i may add one last thing:
11. Your dream vacation.
2. True Love
3. Owning your own home
4. Bagging that promotion
5. Resolving differences with your family
6. A job you love
7. Your dream to start your own business
8. Finding inner peace
9. Getting your Driver's License
10.Hope itself.
and if i may add one last thing:
11. Your dream vacation.
| Importance of Mobile |
as you can see, my title for today's post is on the importance of your mobile phone. even as the name suggests, it is a mobile phone, and you should and always carry it wherever you go. communication is the paramount reason of owning a mobile where contacting people has been made easy, anytime, anywhere.
YET there are just some people who simply fail to realise that and whom just makes my blood boil.
one very fine example is my dear fiance.
he has 2 mobile, one for army, and the other, for civilian life.
both mobile are Nokia phones.
1. instead of keeping his mobile by his side just in case his dear fiance may need him in the case of emergency, he keeps it in his bag.
his reason:
"i'm having table-bbq food with my friends, and my pants is too tight for my handphone to fit in. i'll check it at intervals."
BUT, what is the point of checking it at intervals in the event that (of course choy lah!) something does happen to me and that was my only chance of making my last phonecall to him?
2. he listens to his discman (with that stupid Gigi Leung's greatest hits in it) when he's on the go and therefore he cannot hear, and cannot feel the phone vibrate.
his argument:
"i'll check it at intervals (AGAIN!)."
BUT i made 7 calls and yet he only heard the last one when its the end of disc one where there was a momentary silence, if not, i can keep calling him until kingdom comes and he wouldn't have known until he reaches camp and gets settled down.
lesson to learn:
1. ALWAYS carry your mobile phone, wherever you go.
2. if you HAVE to listen to gigi leung's cd or you can't fall asleep, just make sure i dun get hold of it or i promise, i will break it into two.
my conclusion:
this guy oughta be SHOT even if he's my husband-to-be!
YET there are just some people who simply fail to realise that and whom just makes my blood boil.
one very fine example is my dear fiance.
he has 2 mobile, one for army, and the other, for civilian life.
both mobile are Nokia phones.
1. instead of keeping his mobile by his side just in case his dear fiance may need him in the case of emergency, he keeps it in his bag.
his reason:
"i'm having table-bbq food with my friends, and my pants is too tight for my handphone to fit in. i'll check it at intervals."
BUT, what is the point of checking it at intervals in the event that (of course choy lah!) something does happen to me and that was my only chance of making my last phonecall to him?
2. he listens to his discman (with that stupid Gigi Leung's greatest hits in it) when he's on the go and therefore he cannot hear, and cannot feel the phone vibrate.
his argument:
"i'll check it at intervals (AGAIN!)."
BUT i made 7 calls and yet he only heard the last one when its the end of disc one where there was a momentary silence, if not, i can keep calling him until kingdom comes and he wouldn't have known until he reaches camp and gets settled down.
lesson to learn:
1. ALWAYS carry your mobile phone, wherever you go.
2. if you HAVE to listen to gigi leung's cd or you can't fall asleep, just make sure i dun get hold of it or i promise, i will break it into two.
my conclusion:
this guy oughta be SHOT even if he's my husband-to-be!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
| Simple Junction Box |
one big announcement to make:
my dearest boy has finally set up his blog, and this time, it's gonna be his final resting place (or so he claims). so do take note under my links, my one and only L.T.Z. *hee
www.simplejunctionbox.blogspot.com
my dearest boy has finally set up his blog, and this time, it's gonna be his final resting place (or so he claims). so do take note under my links, my one and only L.T.Z. *hee
www.simplejunctionbox.blogspot.com
Thursday, August 18, 2005
| Driving in the Rain |
i drove in the rain today, it was my first time.
its pure torture to the eyes 'cause it was pouring BIG time and puddles and puddles of water were EVERYWHERE on the roads.
anywayz, so i accidentally went over this huge puddle of water and it SPLASHED over this girl who happened to be walking along the cemented pathway. she was thoroughly WET! *wild laughter
its like those tv shows you'd watch and see a car just go over this puddle of water, wetting whoever's just stupidly strolling along the pathway. *laughz even louder
honestly, it wasn't exactly my fault. *heh
and i got honked at a couple of times.
like HULLO, i am just an L-plate trainee, and besides, didn't YOU learn in your HIGHWAY CODES (by the way, it just means the basic and advanced theories) that you have to "take extra care while on the roads on bad weather conditions" as your vision is blurred, and the roads are slippery and thus friction is lesser???
*major eyeroll
besides, i dun usually drive this slow and delibrately hog the traffic. it pays to be careful when its raining.
its pure torture to the eyes 'cause it was pouring BIG time and puddles and puddles of water were EVERYWHERE on the roads.
anywayz, so i accidentally went over this huge puddle of water and it SPLASHED over this girl who happened to be walking along the cemented pathway. she was thoroughly WET! *wild laughter
its like those tv shows you'd watch and see a car just go over this puddle of water, wetting whoever's just stupidly strolling along the pathway. *laughz even louder
honestly, it wasn't exactly my fault. *heh
and i got honked at a couple of times.
like HULLO, i am just an L-plate trainee, and besides, didn't YOU learn in your HIGHWAY CODES (by the way, it just means the basic and advanced theories) that you have to "take extra care while on the roads on bad weather conditions" as your vision is blurred, and the roads are slippery and thus friction is lesser???
*major eyeroll
besides, i dun usually drive this slow and delibrately hog the traffic. it pays to be careful when its raining.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
| LIFE is GOOD |
missed Bewitched on cable in the evening because i was out with my parents for dinner. *pouts
can't wait for my spa treatment @ rustic nirvana on friday. *hee
looking foward to my swim this saturday.
i desperately need a hair cut, its getting too long and getting on my nerves.
might wanna give the dentist a visit soon.
finally bought the Guess watch i've been eyeing on for the longest time.
at last, dear played in the rain with me last sunday. *hee
we went for dim sum buffet with dear's friends last week too. *yumz
i wanna do a nice pedicure soon too.
oh and we just had hot fudge sundae last night. *hmmm
i've been sleeping in and spending real quality time with my pup,
realised how much i've neglected him since i worked in that old company.
my appetite has been good, and my health has never been better.
whilst blogging, i'm actually waiting for Charmed to start.
ooo and i'm gonna have supper with parents again @ geylang later in the night. *lolx
ah, such is LIFE!
can't wait for my spa treatment @ rustic nirvana on friday. *hee
looking foward to my swim this saturday.
i desperately need a hair cut, its getting too long and getting on my nerves.
might wanna give the dentist a visit soon.
finally bought the Guess watch i've been eyeing on for the longest time.
at last, dear played in the rain with me last sunday. *hee
we went for dim sum buffet with dear's friends last week too. *yumz
i wanna do a nice pedicure soon too.
oh and we just had hot fudge sundae last night. *hmmm
i've been sleeping in and spending real quality time with my pup,
realised how much i've neglected him since i worked in that old company.
my appetite has been good, and my health has never been better.
whilst blogging, i'm actually waiting for Charmed to start.
ooo and i'm gonna have supper with parents again @ geylang later in the night. *lolx
ah, such is LIFE!
| People Flood |
i'm highly agitated right now.
i dunno where all these people come from.
i just wanna finish up my remaining lessons.
every slot is taken up,
i can't even be on the waiting list!
what is wrong with these people?!
*argh
i dunno where all these people come from.
i just wanna finish up my remaining lessons.
every slot is taken up,
i can't even be on the waiting list!
what is wrong with these people?!
*argh
Monday, August 15, 2005
| *nothing |
just for remembrance sake...
caught Bewitched over the weekends and well, wasn't quite what i expected. would have preferred the old version tv series one alot alot more.
caught Bewitched over the weekends and well, wasn't quite what i expected. would have preferred the old version tv series one alot alot more.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
| Higher Calling |
all these while, i had been waiting for an absolution, and quite honestly, i thought i had relinquished it all already, until today's worship spoke right into my heart.
maybe i had been too focused on material gains previously that i had failed to see the beauty of thriftiness and saving for rainy days. "from dust we come, from dust we return" (genesis 3:19); this verse says it all.
there is no higher calling,
no greater honour
than to bow and kneel before Your throne
i'm amazed by Your glory,
embraced by Your mercy
oh Lord,
i live to worship You.
i had been seeking refuge and solace in myself instead of my Papa, i had been blinded by self-centeredness that i did not realise the higher calling of these all: the heart of worship.
i'm coming back to the heart of worship,
and its all about You,
its all about You Jesus.
i'm sorrie Lord for the thing i made it,
when it all about You,
its all about You Jesus.
and lastly, one question:
what are you willing to give up when God reveals your destiny?
maybe i had been too focused on material gains previously that i had failed to see the beauty of thriftiness and saving for rainy days. "from dust we come, from dust we return" (genesis 3:19); this verse says it all.
there is no higher calling,
no greater honour
than to bow and kneel before Your throne
i'm amazed by Your glory,
embraced by Your mercy
oh Lord,
i live to worship You.
i had been seeking refuge and solace in myself instead of my Papa, i had been blinded by self-centeredness that i did not realise the higher calling of these all: the heart of worship.
i'm coming back to the heart of worship,
and its all about You,
its all about You Jesus.
i'm sorrie Lord for the thing i made it,
when it all about You,
its all about You Jesus.
and lastly, one question:
what are you willing to give up when God reveals your destiny?
Friday, August 12, 2005
| Strays |
just brought some food for the poor strays downstairs my house, its a pack of 4 dogs. i'm always terrified of big dogs, so dear had to be the one bringing it close to them. poor things, must be starving while the stupid dog i have upstairs is full of pride and of the best things in the world. some of the best things that my pup has that he doesn't even appreciate most of the time:
1. our unconditional love for him - he bites us when we try to give him a hug
2. best food - his dinner everynight is rice with chicken/fish/pork/egg and yet he still needs to be hand-fed. yes literally. we have to put it on our hands before he decides he's gonna eat them
3. his own bed/basket/spongebed - you name it, he has it. and even gets to choose who's room he wants to sleep in!
4. car rides - basically he goes crazy whenever we wanna bring him out, be it his daily walk or car rides. BUT he has to negotiate a whole 20 minutes before he decides to let his best friend, my dad, carry his royal butt to the car. yes, unbelievable.
5. clothes, mostly shirts - he has the prettiest shirts, but he hates wearing them. he bites the ends where he can reach and make indents outta it, the naughty lil bugger.
6. toys - countless of them and yet when he sees anything that is furry or looks like him, he just can't wait to get his lil paw on them and make it his new toy. man, ain't he satisfied with all the toys that he already has? my guess is no.
i know i've deviated once again, but tell me, is he just pampered or pampered? *shakes head in dismay
::my pampered lil pup::
1. our unconditional love for him - he bites us when we try to give him a hug
2. best food - his dinner everynight is rice with chicken/fish/pork/egg and yet he still needs to be hand-fed. yes literally. we have to put it on our hands before he decides he's gonna eat them
3. his own bed/basket/spongebed - you name it, he has it. and even gets to choose who's room he wants to sleep in!
4. car rides - basically he goes crazy whenever we wanna bring him out, be it his daily walk or car rides. BUT he has to negotiate a whole 20 minutes before he decides to let his best friend, my dad, carry his royal butt to the car. yes, unbelievable.
5. clothes, mostly shirts - he has the prettiest shirts, but he hates wearing them. he bites the ends where he can reach and make indents outta it, the naughty lil bugger.
6. toys - countless of them and yet when he sees anything that is furry or looks like him, he just can't wait to get his lil paw on them and make it his new toy. man, ain't he satisfied with all the toys that he already has? my guess is no.
i know i've deviated once again, but tell me, is he just pampered or pampered? *shakes head in dismay
::my pampered lil pup::
Thursday, August 11, 2005
| Happy Birthday Russ |
my pup turned 4 last weekend, and he even had a lil cake tailored just for dogs! and just in case you're wondering, its human-safe too!
after gobbling down two slices of cake (its banana-flavoured by the way), he's been suffering from indigestion ever since. i guess that's why they say too much of something is bad, moderation is the key word. *hmmm*
oh and also,
Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!
Thursday, August 04, 2005
| Paranoia |
you've changed,
from a boy to a man.
you've changed,
from giving me attention to becoming aloof.
you've changed,
from number one to number two.
you've changed,
and please don't deny it.
am i fortune's fool?
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how can you say as such? how can you say that i'm giving you less attention? i'm telling you now that you are still my number one. and besides i don't play with numbers. i have nothing for me as number two.
army is something i did not volunteer for. it is against my will to forgo my two years here. so while i am here, i am trying to do some good and learn new things. i have my own responsibility now, people look up to me. my 'change' is probably due to the lesser time i can keep you company. but it does not mean that i've changed. so please understand.
you said the reason for your change was because of the wrong i did.
i know i hurt you,i know i disappointed you.
but i thought we agreed to put the past behind when you took me back.
guilt, i can never erase it if you don't let it go.
there's only so much i can do.
can you guarantee you won't bring it up again?
at least i can guarantee i won't let you down again.
just like before, maybe its time we re-evaluate this relationship
and see if you are able to live with my mistake in the future.
or else, its best we end it now.
----------------------------------------------------
i can guarantee i wont bring this up again. do you think i enjoy this? but can u also promise me that you'll understand that i have my own responsibility here in camp? i need time here to myself, to my friends and to my men. i wont talk about those stupid and hurting things you have done. so can we put it behind us? as i have said, i dont want to live with the past, i want to learn from it and move on. so can we not harp over this and move on? i guarantee i will try not to bring it up again.
whatever the case, i know you are hurt. but can i reassure you nothing really much have changed except that i probably need more time in camp. so dont go imagining things. dont let imaginery thoughts cloud your mind. dont let it forsake our relationship.
lastly i just want to say, i still love you.
i love you yesterday. today. and tomorrow. and the coming of time..
*princess melts*
fine, so i was being paranoid, but its nice once in a while to receive love declaration from the one you love. *laughz*
from a boy to a man.
you've changed,
from giving me attention to becoming aloof.
you've changed,
from number one to number two.
you've changed,
and please don't deny it.
am i fortune's fool?
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how can you say as such? how can you say that i'm giving you less attention? i'm telling you now that you are still my number one. and besides i don't play with numbers. i have nothing for me as number two.
army is something i did not volunteer for. it is against my will to forgo my two years here. so while i am here, i am trying to do some good and learn new things. i have my own responsibility now, people look up to me. my 'change' is probably due to the lesser time i can keep you company. but it does not mean that i've changed. so please understand.
you said the reason for your change was because of the wrong i did.
i know i hurt you,i know i disappointed you.
but i thought we agreed to put the past behind when you took me back.
guilt, i can never erase it if you don't let it go.
there's only so much i can do.
can you guarantee you won't bring it up again?
at least i can guarantee i won't let you down again.
just like before, maybe its time we re-evaluate this relationship
and see if you are able to live with my mistake in the future.
or else, its best we end it now.
----------------------------------------------------
i can guarantee i wont bring this up again. do you think i enjoy this? but can u also promise me that you'll understand that i have my own responsibility here in camp? i need time here to myself, to my friends and to my men. i wont talk about those stupid and hurting things you have done. so can we put it behind us? as i have said, i dont want to live with the past, i want to learn from it and move on. so can we not harp over this and move on? i guarantee i will try not to bring it up again.
whatever the case, i know you are hurt. but can i reassure you nothing really much have changed except that i probably need more time in camp. so dont go imagining things. dont let imaginery thoughts cloud your mind. dont let it forsake our relationship.
lastly i just want to say, i still love you.
i love you yesterday. today. and tomorrow. and the coming of time..
*princess melts*
fine, so i was being paranoid, but its nice once in a while to receive love declaration from the one you love. *laughz*
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
| Happiest Day in Aussie |
that day would have to be the happiest day while i was on holiday because for the very first time of my life, i carried a koala bear, and fed free-roaming kangaroos. it was SO fun because every one of those animals were SO adorable, and i meant every single one of them!
::consolidated the kangaroo pictures::
they had a show on how the dog would round the sheeps up at the shepherd's command. then one sheep, the leader we would think, actually had a confrontation with the dog which gave the poor doggie a lil scare. ha! animal instinct!
::the sheeps and the sheepdog::
my sis' and mine most precious picture with the koala bearbear which was so quiet and so tame!
::our most precious pictures::
towards the end of our holiday, we didn't quite take any pictures because we were all sad mom and i were gonna go home and dajie and kor still had another 4 more months before it would be their time on a home-bound plane.
::that's my big sis being a cry-baby::
hey and if you ever see this big sis, its just another 4 more months! be back on my birthday for me yah? and dun forget the scarf you promised. *hee*
i had a wonderful time while i was in australia. sure i missed home and missed my dear fiance especially, but i was really happy there. life there was carefree and relaxing. i suppose it was because i was on holiday, but definitely, i would like to study there one day, and perhaps even move there for good? we'll see.
::consolidated the kangaroo pictures::
they had a show on how the dog would round the sheeps up at the shepherd's command. then one sheep, the leader we would think, actually had a confrontation with the dog which gave the poor doggie a lil scare. ha! animal instinct!
::the sheeps and the sheepdog::
my sis' and mine most precious picture with the koala bearbear which was so quiet and so tame!
::our most precious pictures::
towards the end of our holiday, we didn't quite take any pictures because we were all sad mom and i were gonna go home and dajie and kor still had another 4 more months before it would be their time on a home-bound plane.
::that's my big sis being a cry-baby::
hey and if you ever see this big sis, its just another 4 more months! be back on my birthday for me yah? and dun forget the scarf you promised. *hee*
i had a wonderful time while i was in australia. sure i missed home and missed my dear fiance especially, but i was really happy there. life there was carefree and relaxing. i suppose it was because i was on holiday, but definitely, i would like to study there one day, and perhaps even move there for good? we'll see.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
| Day Three & Four in Aussie |
the third day while we were in australia was my kor's convocation. he was graduating with a Masters in Education and we were all proud of him when he wore the square hat for the second time.
i fell sick on that day, and if you'd noticed, i looked ghastly in the pictures. despite that, we had fish and chips at this place called A Salt and Battery, innovative name i must say. and for dinner, we went to Chinatown, Fortitude Valley for some chinese food, and it was suspiciously good. ha!
we didn't really do much on the fourth day, just that i remembered a very long drive down to Sunshine Coast or aka Noosa Heads. its something like Gold Coast, but with coarser sand.
in this collage were mostly pics i had taken in the place where we stayed at called City Backpackers. it was alright, with a huge kitchen for backpackers like us to cook some of our native food.
dinner on the fourth night was steamboat at my sis' house, since in chinese culture, steamboat always meant a reunion of sort. we were at the supermarket earlier on to buy groceries, and can you imagine having steamboat on a cold winter night? its heaven! *yumz*
| The Reason |
you said the reason for your change was because of the wrong i did.
i know i hurt you,
i know i disappointed you.
but i thought we agreed to put the past behind when you took me back.
guilt, i can never erase it if you don't let it go.
there's only so much i can do.
can you guarantee you won't bring it up again?
at least i can guarantee i won't let you down again.
just like before,
maybe its time we re-evaluate this relationship
and see if you are able to live with my mistake in the future.
or else, its best we end it now.
i know i hurt you,
i know i disappointed you.
but i thought we agreed to put the past behind when you took me back.
guilt, i can never erase it if you don't let it go.
there's only so much i can do.
can you guarantee you won't bring it up again?
at least i can guarantee i won't let you down again.
just like before,
maybe its time we re-evaluate this relationship
and see if you are able to live with my mistake in the future.
or else, its best we end it now.
Monday, August 01, 2005
| Changed |
you've changed,
from a boy to a man.
you've changed,
from giving me attention to becoming aloof.
you've changed,
from number one to number two.
you've changed,
and please don't deny it.
am i fortune's fool?
from a boy to a man.
you've changed,
from giving me attention to becoming aloof.
you've changed,
from number one to number two.
you've changed,
and please don't deny it.
am i fortune's fool?
| Day Two in Australia |
::the sight was breath-taking, the place was exhilarating, and the winds before the sun rose, was freezing!::
on the second day we were in gold coast, we woke up at 3am in the morning and got ready for slightly more than an hour's drive down to Byron Bay to catch the breath-taking view and scenery at sunrise. it was still dark when we got there at 5am and the winds were so cold so cold! fortunately, i bought a beanie the night before and it helped keep my ears and heads warm, well, at least it kept the winds from piercing into my head and eyes.
while trying to stay warm and wait for the sun to rise, the night sky was filled with pretty pretty lil twinkling stars. and in that sky was this one particular star that was moving. dunno if it was a shooting star or a meteor, but that one star was moving on its own and we all watched it make its way into nothingness and made a silent wish in our hearts.
*i wished for happiness, and i wished to always be with [you], because only [you] can give me the happiness i'd always wanted.
then slowly, the first ray of light in the sky. beautiful.
when the sun rose, it became warmer and as we left our hibernating areas and headed for the beach and the Most Easterly Point in Australia, we saw schools of dolphins riding with the waves. what freedom they must enjoy, oh how i envy them!
our mothers couldn't take anymore of the cold, and while kor walked them back to the car, dajie and i left for the nature trail, just us, and nobody else. it was pretty and cool, lovely.
::domino's pizza was for lunch and by the beach, it was more like picnic if you ask me *hee*::
i wanna be as carefree as the dolphins were
i wanna be that lil gal i was again
i wanna breathe the fresh cold winter air
i wanna laugh out loud and be hApPy!!!
| Day One in Australia |
:: first day in aussie, enroute to Gold Coast, Surfer's Paradise::
the beautiful golden beaches in winter just makes you fall in love with australia, and just makes you want to stay there for good and never come back. ha! at least that what i felt, and now reminiscing makes me miss australia SO SO much!!!
finally, my pictures are up, or are gonna be up soon! *hee* and just FYI, you may click on the pictures for a larger view yah? this applies for the rest of the pictures that will be up real soon.
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