| Year of the Dog |

watched the news last night which had this report on the Impulse Buying of puppies this year because of the zodiac year of the dog come this lunar new year.

pet shops have seen a double hike of sales and SPCA warns of impluse buying.

i fear for these pups. they're innocent, cuddly and cute.
but they are also ALOT of work and if they were purchased on impulse, they are surely gonna suffer in the long run.

the report also stated how rabbits were abandoned after the year of the Rabbit in 1999 and they totalled to about 600 over rabbits.

humans are sick. they are so perverse in their ways. they think that just because they are of a greater being that they can buy animals and then throw them away to the SPCA or let them run loose on the streets so that they become strays.

animals are warm-blooded creatures. they have a heart like you and i have, and they also yearn for love and attention. when you buy pets, give them a home, love and treat them well, then all of a sudden because you find they are 'too much work' or you simply cannot find the time to take care of them anymore, you send them to the SPCA or worse, just leave them on the streets knowing just how limited their intellect are. cruel.

please, everyone reading this blog of mine, kindly THINK before you purchase a pet, any pet.

like what the SPCA always say,

A PET IS FOR LIFE

already their life on earth is shorter than any of us, still in their brief existence in this lifetime, humans hurt them.
please, have a heart and discourage any one you know is just buying a dog on impulse because of the lunar new year.

| Can i? |

i'm fighting the zzz monster this very instance. as i'm typing this entry, my eyes are inevitably closing and i'm frantically nodding away.

how much longer can i bear this? and i still have to bake more pineapple tarts when i get home. can i take leave? i'm real tired. *screams

still have to wash the toilet, kitchen and also bake more kuey.

i need to take the day off tomorrow.

me: boss, do you need me around tomorrow even though you have meetings for the entire morning and 2 scheduled interviewees in the afternoon? i was thinking of taking the day off.

boss: no, its too last minute already.

me: WHAT?! *makes face and walks away cursing and swearing

haha! will that happen? *lolx
i'm so paranoid and so worried this might happen. *tsk

| Baking |

what an incredibly boring day today at work. with no one to chat with me and not much work to be done, argh!

this feels so redundent. this feels so miserable and this feels so empty.

why why why???

i'm so sleepy and so tired despite the wonderful rest i had at dear's house last night.
how come?

my parents are coming to get me for dinner, yesh! i can't wait i can'twait!!!

oh and i'll be confined @ home tonight to bake pineapple tarts.
bake and bake and bake. sianz...

| Memoirs of a Geisha |

caught Memoirs of a Geisha last night, and because of that, i'm terribly interested in reading the book.

the movie was good though i've heard lousy critics about it.

a thick novel shortened into a 2-hour movie, how much can you expect? just like Pride and Prejudice, a world classic filmed into a movie, many details were missed, but just the gist of the story was enough to captivate the viewers. besides, it was brilliantly filmed, alot of details were lavished and exaggerated, and i like classic, olden movies like that.

but until now, its still a mystery to me. geisha. the art of becoming one. its like a top-class, expensive prostitute if you ask me. though you don't sleep with every men out there of course. your virginity is bidded in an auction where you'd have to sleep with the highest bidder. how primitive is that?
maybe its because of the sexual scenes in the movie that were particularly crude and i found it pretty gross which is the reason for my judgement. especially the part where 'Mother' tested if Hatsumomo was having sex by feeling her virgina and playing with the discharge on her hand, yew like major gross!!!

and no love. its like the most painful of all.
only half-wives, wives of the night.
well, but at least those really good ones manage to find themselves a 'danna' that they love or have feelings for and then, being their geisha ain't that bad.

ay, such was the life of a geisha, though i can understand and accept that its probably like their culture or tradition.

anyway, i do adore those eyes of hers, they're pretty!

| Cool |

Cool - Gwen Stefani

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know i'm cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown,
oh We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know i'm cool
I know i'm cool
Yeah, I know i'm cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know i'm cool
I know i'm cool

C-cool, I know we're cool
I know i'm cool

never knew the lyrics to this song until i heard it on radio that day which prompted me to search for it. its even my mobile ringtone and i dun even know the meaning to the song!

anyway, its a sad song.

how do pple do that? fall in love, start on a relationship, stay on it for a couple of months or years, and then because of some minor thing that they refuse to work it out together, they break up. and then find someone new.

in any kinda relationship, it ain't easy. you need time and patience to build and nurture it so it becomes stronger over time and then it'll be tough when it stands against any tests or trials.

back to the song.
then in a few years down the road, they finally marry and then are happy or unhappy and then they meet their old love and they have thoughts like these.

what's the point? its over. nothing to reminisce. nothing to remember, and nothing to feel sad or happy about "oh you found someone new!".

i dunno lah. young pple nowadays. now i'm starting to feel old.

| Footwear |

as part of the spring-cleaning fever, i have thrown away at least 20 pairs of footwear.

and within a span of 2 days, i bought another 4 more pairs of footwear.

thus i currently have about slightly more than 30 surviving pairs in the rack.

how's that for women's shoes?

and not to mention the amount of clothes and handbags i have in the wardrobe! *tsk

| Sleepy |

ok, about the final hour to go before knock-off time.

i've stoned, tried taking a lil nap, put toothpicks between my eyes, pinch myself, kept thinking of ways to keep myself awake but i just can't help it,

I WANNA SLEEP!!!

been surfing around and reading blogs, and i wonder to myself, why on earth am i writing an online diary and letting the entire world judge me?

sometimes it makes no sense and i dunno why i do it.

i think i'm crazy.

| *yawnz |

*yawnz

3.5 hours more to go before i end the day at work.

*yawnz

my boss came back for a lil while and gave me the shock of my life. i was so not expecting to see him here after he's been scheduled a whole lot of meetings for today.

that aside, i'm glad he's gone for the day, that means freedom!

*yawnz

i am so sleepy you have no idea. 3.5 more hours to go before i go home. you see, and all i can hear myself saying is the same old things.

i wanna go home and fall on my nice comfortable bed.

*yawnz

| Ramblings |

finally have time on my hands to blog everything i haven't been able to the last 2 days. work has been crazy and i feel increasingly tired of my job, what i do and how things are between my boss and i. not that its bad or anything like that, just that i feel after working with him for so long, i am still unable to grasp the sort of character he is and how he likes his stuff to be done. when i was still with my previous boss, we had good synery, if you will. and it was alot easier to do things for him than for this current one. maybe because this current one is alot younger, *sigh i dunno...we'll see how things go and hopefully things will turn out fine.

last night was crazy. met up with the girls and a guy and we danced the night away @ club momo. not exactly the most happening place if you've been there before. but it was ladies' night and it was free house pours so heck it, we still went. initially the r&b music started out fine, then it switched to house (i think) and it was horrible. then towards the end of the night they started spinning better r&b tracks, but still not my kinda standard. should have gone to zouk with their all-famous retro night instead. but only thing is, no free-flow of drinks, heh. =p slept at 4am and i had to get up 2 hours later and here i am at work now. i'm the world sleepiest thing and i dun care if there's no such word.

its a good thing my boss will be away the entire day, he's got 3 meetings and won't be back for the day. *yippie but there's gonna be a meeting tomorrow morning and i'm kinda dreading it. i mean, who likes attending meetings?

anyway, i'll be leaving earlier tomorrow, got time-off to claim, and yes the weekends are just around the corner, i can smell it. i really need to sleep and yes, spring-cleaning too. see that's about the only reason why i like chinese new year so much. it forces you to spring-clean the entire year of dirt and dust so that everything looks alot cleaner, neater and happier. but of cos, they only last for 2 weeks max and then its back to square one. beats nothing i guess.

hmmm something the girls said last night started me thinking about why some guys are incredibly nice to me. ok, no names here. but remember the old chap back then where he was the reason for my fiance's and mine rocky relationship? and also this guy friend of mine who came along last night. for the latter, i can't say he was the nicest to me, but for the former, he definitely was and always went out of his way to help me do stuff and made me feel special. you know the kind that makes you feel and think "OMG he's trying to hit on me!"?
yeah so you get the picture. i dunno, but there must be something about me that makes these guys do stuff like that. not because they're attracted to me, but rather, they're more obliged or so to take such good care of me. why? am i, to these guys, or guys in general, a damsel in distress and therefore need "men" like them to support me to be the girl or woman that i originally was? again i dunno. but sometimes i wonder and i think, why? and to be completely honest, i haven't been the nicest to them for them to be this nice to me, it kinda makes me feel bad sometimes. so the point i'm trying to make it, i dun deserve such princess-like treatments from guy friends except of cos my own fiance.

so hear this, GUYS out there, its ok to be nice to girls, but its NOT ok to be overly nice. because you are, unfortunately, sending out the wrong signals. and girls being girls, would, inevitably start imagining nonsense in their heads which is not very healthy especially if the girl is already attached, you see? lucky for me, i know my friend pretty well and know that he's just being nice because my fiance isn't around, and somehow its like his duty to take care of me. but think about it, if i were unattached or am another girl, how would she feel?

its no wonder sometimes my fiance can't help but feel jealous and i dun blame him. i would be too if i were in his shoes.

and the bottomline is, though the temptation is great out there, you know you're still my number one and i love you still dear!

| Lousy |

i'm feeling really lousy right now.

screwed up a couple of times at work today and i dunno why. *sigh

well but i'm glad its all over and tomorrow will be a better day.

| Accomplished Weekend |

last weekend was the most fulfilling, especially on saturday. done so much stuff on that day that when we got home at the end of the day, both the heels of my feet were aching big time!

1. first, had lunch @ sizzler with my girlfriends and it was good catch-up. looking back, it had already been 5-6 years. how time flies, and we're all doing different things, am studying or are going to pursue different courses @ different universities. stuffed ourselves silly with the free-flow salad bar, ice-cream, soup and since then, i'd been having tummy upset. =p

2. dear came to meet me and we started our massive shopping. walked around for my wall clock and finally found one really cute one from Happy House, my favourite shop. the color matches my room and i love it!


::see?::

3. also managed to get for a new wallet because my old Mango one gave way.

4. got a new eyebrow powder thingy instead of a pencil from Body Shop. pretty cool i think, though i'm still trying to get used to the color and the brush.

5. then some miscallaneous neccessities here and there.

no clothes though, just stuff that i needed to get.

level of satisfaction: high
because no clothes and no wants were spent on!

| Studies |

i just got to work and i don't feel good, physically and emotionally.

studying. its what's been keeping me going for the last one year plus since dear went into army and had to serve 2 years. and all these while i've been waiting for him, just so we could go study together, whether locally or overseas.

the idea of course came from my father who has 2 rules before we can be married off:
1. finish your degree
2. and get our car license

we're not exactly pursuing our studies because his rules, but rather, we want to do it for ourselves and for our future.

at first we were looking at local unis and also institutions that carry recognised overseas degrees, we've even decided on a few.

but all of a sudden, dad insisted that i must go to aussie itself to experience life and study there. ok, perhaps not all of a sudden, he's always had the intention for the 3 of us to all go abroad for our studies, but his intention became alot stronger and it was hard. we've had our reservations and doubts, we worried and fretted about it, and after a long while, finally came to terms with the fact that yeah, going abroad may not be a bad idea after all.

so we're all settled, more or less, on a university.
and now suddenly, she tells me because i haven't been saving, and i haven't changed from my spendful nature at all, therefore it is unwise of me to want to go aussie to study.

a whole lot of the reason why we were able to accept studying overseas was her encouragement, her persuasion and her telling us how wonderful, how this and how that studying there was.

i feel so horrible now, i feel so lost. i feel so cheated and betrayed, like i just got stabbed in the back or something.

what's wrong with pampering oneself after every 6 months? if she was referring to our lil getaway to sentosa, it was also because my parents refused to let us go for a short trip to the neighbouring countries, and we halved it, it wasn't much to begin with.

how much i earn now, as compared to her while she was still teaching is alot lesser. she was drawing a 2K figure and me? she had more than 3 years to save up for her studies, while me? just graduated and settling down, then resigned, bummed around for awhile before finding another job. i need to settle down first too, how can you expect me to save x amount of money in sucha short time?! its ridiculous!

anyhow, with determination, we'll still get ourselves a legitimate degree from a recognised university.

| Our LiL Getaway @ Rasa Sentosa |

finally, the long-awaited rasa sentosa pictures are out!

ok, let's just type this down for memory sake.

this lil getaway happened only outta frustration that my parents refused, after a series of begs and pleas, to let their baby girl outta the country with her only love. so, we figured, the furthest we could have gotten was to the neighbouring islands, hence the prime choice of sentosa.

we probably could have gotten a cheaper alternative at the costa sands chalets there, but since we were gonna be there, we decided to give ourselves a lil treat as a reward and encouragement of the previous year.


::in the bus on the way to sentosa; got a lil pissed at my dear for something i can't even remember anymore =p::


::our lil house for the next 2 days::


::ooo the nice BIG bed::


::another view of the BIG bed::


::my turn ON the BIG bed *laughz::


::the balcony where we would have sat and watched the stars if not for the rainy season::


::our view from the balcony::


::the nice and "open" toilet::


::around the beach by the hotel::


::i like this picture, its sweet =)::


::i like this picture even more cos its sweeter::


::@ the lobby of the 11th storey where we stayed::


::posing by our balcony; i decided to still put this picture up after all even though my love would frown upon seeing it. dear i wanna be able to admire myself 20 years down the road ok? =p::


::just before going for a dip in the blue blue beach and pool::


::and after we got outta the cold cold waters *shivers::

we headed down to the Luge where we had this incredibly fast downhill ride ever! it was cool and fun, trust me.
but if you have problems sitting on 3 pieces of metal with nothing supporting your feet but yourself hanging 50 feet in the air, DUN try this ride!


::just started out and all smiles::

p.s you won't find any pictures of an unglam yours truly being caught on camera. hmmm but try my love' s blog and you might find it. *tsk


::still telling myself to be brave, can you see what's behind or around us?::

anyway, it was one hell of a ride. well worth the $8.


::after a not-so-good night's rest but still giving my sunshine smile::


::and this fre-roaming peacock that just wouldn't leave me alone! he came real close to me and started pecking around, for a moment, i almost thought he was gonna peck me to death!::

then the last few shots before we headed back to mainland...


::the children's pool and slide where i really regretted not trying out *pouts::


::by the fountain that was outside of the hotel's main lobby::


::and a pic for keep-sake that we were @ siloso beach::


::and lastly, it was goodbye sentosa!::

we'll definitely head back, say a few years down the road? heh =p

| Service |

just read some stuff which made me realise so many things which i have so blatantly forgotten - my purpose as a Christian.

to serve, to love, to witness.

serve the Lord with all the talents He has so generously bestowed upon us.
i used to think God never gave me talents, but as i grew older, i realised it was more that i hadn't discovered them yet. and so now i realise, i must do something about it or i wouldn't be accountable to God when i see Him.

love thy neighbour, love thy enemies, love those who hate you. the very essence of love = forgiveness.

salt and light of the world to always stand out of the crowd, not conforming to the world but to only to the ways of the Lord.

and to always be in His service...

| The Sun Refuse to Shine |

it's late again! i don't understand why.

so cold, its been raining and raining non stop, why won't the sun shine anymore?
i miss the sun!!!

because the sun refuse to shine, my clothes STINK big time! and we've got no dryer.

*sigh

say, should we invest in a dryer especially for seasons like these when the monsoon comes?

BUT the sun is FREE!!!

and i will upload the pictures of Rasa Sentosa soon.

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Your favorite colors are pastels, especially pink and baby blue. You are in love with anything and everything sweet and feminine: flowy dresses, floral prints, bohemian skirts and everything reminiscent of your girly childhood.

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| Complaints |

ok i have many things to complain about today.

went for my teacher's wake on monday night @ st joseph's church and the turnout was awesome. it was like some kinda gathering cum meet-up session than a funeral prayer service. and some were even dressed to the nines, with colorful clothes at that, and with thick load of make-up.

then of course it was most unfortunate that i had to meet some of my classmates back then who were real nasty and who are still, after 5-6 years, nasty.

these bunch of girls, are not the typical KC gals you'd find along the streets of orchard road or along any famous clubs/pubs. rather, they are the studious kind and who think they know best about everything and everyone. its amazing the way the gaze at you and the next just turn around and gossip right in your face, softly of course and still pretend to be nice and go like "hi!". these gals have no balls.

and they looked so much older now, alot more haggard than any of us even though they were in casual jeans and tops. even we had light make-up on, most of us still looked better than any of them anytime.

you see, its called karma. its what goes around that comes back around. you gossip, criticise and talk bad about pple non-stop all day long and this is the kinda result you get.
they were seriously cao lau.

so they spoiled the nice catch-up i was having with my favourite biology teacher. she's a real nice teacher who really made the human body interesting in her way special way. and because of her, i scored an A2 for my 'o' levels. nah, it ain't my intention to hao lian, but see i just want to make a point that she's a real inspiration.

that aside.

i wanna complain about the engineer in my company too. have i talked about him before on my blog? i have no recollection at all. anyway, like me, he juz joined the company last year and had been here barely a year. like me, he and i report to the same boss.

but he's always coming up to look for my boss for i dunno what reasons, and its amazing how he comes up every single day without fail to ask my boss some supposedly "brillant" questions or to have some "intelligent"discussion with him.

*argh

and initially when i was here, he tried making me do stuff for him even though i only take orders from my boss. and when i mentioned my boss' name, his balls would strink. i mean like come on, wait till you promote to a more senior rank with your degree from NTU, i don't see why i should help or do things for you when you can jolly well do it yourself. and like please, i'm not gonna be here forever, i'm not even gonna be here for 2 years. its max a year and i'll be off to becoming a student again.

ok, so what i was trying to get at was, i need to get some reports from my boss' office and he's in there AGAIN!!! which is why i'm so frustrated, and here typing my anger away.

everything aside. will be posting up our lil rendevous @ rase sentosa soon yah. =)

| End of Another Life |

one of my KC teacher passed away.

we're attending the church prayer sevice @ st joseph's tonight.

the whole bunch of us from KC whom she used to teach are going.

even my mother knew her. she's taught my mother before too. that's how far the KC culture dates back.

she was the school's discipline mistress at the time i was still in school.

she used to teach me literature, and was the reason why i flopped pretty badly when she took over from the other teacher.

but still she was nice. she had her own way of teaching, her own method and i guess i just couldn't quite follow.

again what's the use of saying all these? men still has to die. and who's going to remember you for the contributions you've made while you were alive?

i sound so cynical i know.

but am just wondering, how will the outcome of my funeral be when its my turn to go?

| New Year |

its a new year with a good and bad start.

spent the new year in church with dear, big sis and kor, sending the old year away silently.

it was a renewed covenant with God, and i pray we'll fulfill what we set out to do.

resolution for 2006 (though i'm a lil late):
1) curb my temper
2) spend MORE time with my family
3) spend LESS
4) read once through the Bible
5) service to the Lord
6) involvement in cell
7) find new ways to romance with my love

and my parents are finally back!