| Love, Redefined |

the fiancé finally called at 12.30am.

his excuse? his new N8 hung and died on him several times.

HAHA

and somehow it didn't occur to him to find another way to contact me.

*Ouch

ladies and gentlemen, may I present love, redefined - a fiancé's love
for his fiancée. guess that's how important i am to him.

so now I am trying to come to terms with love that had been redefined
by today's display.

it's hard but I'm going to have to try or I'll probably never find
love again.

why cry over spilled milk?
why hurt over something u chose to give up?
why grumble when u could have had it all but you lost focus halfway?

another chance?

nah.

| Contact-less |

the fiancé is away on a company retreat in KL. the last i heard of him was this morning at 9 odd.

his mobile is off, i can't find a number to call the hotel he's staying in, he's basically contactless and its not making me feel secure at all.

what would it take for him to just leave his mobile on while he is out shopping the whole day away?

empty promises again. i should have known.

| BALI Photography |

we had so much fun in Bali that i dunno where to begin! when i have the time, i will slowly blog about it. in the meantime, here are just 3 outta the 200 over pictures we took in 2 hours. enjoy!

♥ nah, this wasn't the actual proposal; we were just fooling around


♥ innocence


♥ you and i

| BALI - The Proposal |

Our Lil Secret

albeit 9.5 years together,
my heart unknowingly skipped a beat when he got down on one knee.

admist the Balinese night sky litted with the stars and the moon,
and frogs, cats and insects nearby serenading us,
dipped in our warm private pool - only him and me,
he looked at me with such tenderness,
one hand on my face and said "baby, baby";
i melted.

my heart thumped harder and louder,
i wonder if he could hear.
my face was flushed with redness,
at that time i only wanted to hide in his embrace.

and then he professed his love,
spontaneous, unscripted, unrehearsed.
"i love you so much" and

"i want to spend the rest of my life with you and God",
"will you be my wife?"

no fancy photograpers, no help from anyone,
just him and his down-to-earth sincerity -
the same reason why i first fell for him.

and just like that, i said yes.

there was no room for rejection;
he staged a perfectly romantic ambience;
it was simply overwhelming.

he did it; he made me fall in love with him all over again.
and though i am still a lil girl in many ways,
i promise to work hard to be his missus.

no longer a princess,
now i want to be the Queen of his heart.

| BALI - our couple time |

following the popular movie - Eat Pray Love, and the promotion by Garuda Indonesia for those in the travel industry - we are going to Bali this sunday for a 3D2N getaway cum birthday celebration for yours truly!

the fiancé said to leave everything to him; i just need to avail myself and get ready to enjoy quality time with him. :)

we'll be staying here

looks pretty good plus raving reviews on tripadvisor so they definitely up my expectations to a notch higher. hope i won't be terribly disappointed.

fun aside.

the coincidences couldn't have come at a better time. we really needed this break. so much have happened in the last 2 months that had us thinking very seriously on how to put our relationship back on track.

especially since our marriage prep course (MPC) which ended with a grand finale at a retreat in Pulai Springs Resort, JB; we've had the most heart-to-heart experience and talk with each other. we had to face our impending issues one-by-one, trashed 'em out so that from now till the big day, we would not be carrying too much "excess baggages" into our new life together. the class may have ended, but there's still alot to be done and we're working on it. albeit 9.5 years together, i suspect we had/have more problems than any of our couple-classmates in all of MPC's terms. after all, we're almost a decade old. ;p

so its just purely couple time for us this weekend.

BALI - let me fall in love with you all over again :)