| So Exciting! |

i'm so excited for tonight's overnight camping cum bbq!!!

even though my boy is sick and he doesn't seem excited about it, i still am! *laughz

and even at work right now, i keep thinking of the nature, the bbq food that i'd prepared, and we're like gonna be in the wilderness, its practically my first time!

ooooo can't wait!

| Updates |

promise, this will be a whole chuck of updates.

1. my auntie's condition seems to be getting worse. dad thinks she may not make it through chinese new year. its so sad. chemotherapy has made her lose all her hair, and i haven't had the courage to go visit her since news broke out about her cancer.
i'm not strong enough. seeing her may just make me burst into tears and i'm not about to let that happen.
Father have mercy on her, like how You showed mercy on my grandmama. though cancer is painful, knowing You are always near will give them courage to face whatever that may come.

2. my boy turned 23 yesterday, and fell sick also at the same time. as a result of that, we skipped clubbing tonight. not sucha big deal because we'll be heading down mambo this wed @ good old Zouk since thursday is PH.

3. swimming today was disrupted, not by the weather, but by this unsound boy who was in the pool that kept giving me weird looks and the vibes. he may have turned violent so after barely 6 laps, we left. dear was so pissed and so mad because he felt my safety was jeopardized, and also because he knew how rare i would have a craving to exercise. well at least my body ain't aching so bad anymore, and besides, i did go for an express pedicure, so that should be consolation enough. =)

4. this coming week is gonna be so happening because we get 2 PH in the same week! and dear and i are also planning an overnight camping cum bbq by the beach, under the stars. monday night through tuesday morning, its our first outdoor stay so we're pretty excited about it. pitching the tent and all, which by the way, had been sucha long time ago.

5. i realised its been a long long time since i last posted pictures on my blog (apart from the levi's fashion show thingy). we used to take pictures of any and everything but these few months had been so d-e-a-d that my blog has become so filled with words and no colors!!!

6. again, i would like to clarify that i do NOT love louis vuitton, nor do i like them. i merely just like their very cute mini speedy bag. its sssssoooooo adorable you know!!!

7. and after i receive my bags, i am SO gonna cancel my account with ebay and never do auctions again. promise promise promise.

did i miss out anything else? hmmm...i dun remember except that i know i'm suppose to blog about last week's sermon but i left my notes at home, i'm @ dear's house now. so i guess i'll blog it together with tomorrow's sermon.

oh and is my new blog skin nice? dear chose it for me. *hee


::for keepsake::


::i'm a lil gal!::

| Happy HatchDay my Love |

this goes out to the dearest one in my life:

Happy Hatchday Dearie!!!
hope you like prezzies i got you!
*chuckles

not young anymore huh, better start making plans for the future liao hor...

| Migraine |

i'm having a terrible migraine on the left side of my head. this feels so horrible especially since its been throbbing my head since late morning.
i have approximately half an hour before i knock off and thank God my daddy is coming to pick me up. my toes are hurting too, because of darn Pretty Fits' heels, i'll NEVER buy from them again, ever!

i'm so whiny today because i dun have enough sleep, i just want to laze on my bed and sleep!

| Inspire Envy - New Princess Fit |

and so we were there, the Levi's Lady Style Fall 2005 Fashion Show @ Raffles City. failed to get someone to go with me, and in the end, i got my good old faithful best friend along - my fiance. *heh
at least, i know he never fails.

it was cool, pretty gala and glam, with all the ang moh models. pity i forgot my digi or there would have been more pictures than what i have to offer.


::before the start of the fashion show::


::still waiting for the start of the fashion show::


::this is what the stage looked like before the start of the show::


::only one final shot @ the end of the show::

the entire show took barely half an hour, and yet they'd showcased the latest princess fit(s) that they already have in stores, and those on the way to stores somewhere next month.
we got a nice lil charm bracelet from Elle (who was the sponsor) and also a lil notebook from Levi's as door gifts, nice.

hmmm which reminds me, my birthday is coming soon, and that means birthday discounts @ Levi's, Topshop, Mango and la-di-da-di-da...i'm going broke!

| I'm So Bored! |

i have nothing to do, why won't anyone gimme anything to do? how am i gonna pass the next 8 hours doing nothing? *cries

i just wanna have something to do so that time would pass faster, i'm sick of not doing anything anymore!

| Ebay |

you see, the problem after finding a stable job comes excessive spending on nonsensical stuff. stuff that i dun need, stuff that i simply want.

but before i carry on, i want to apologise to my dearest fiance.

baby, i'm sorrie about that post last night. i just needed an outlet to ease my emotions, it was hard for me to contain. i hope you understand that opening this blog, i intent to keep it until the day we grow old, so we can look back and laugh at the things we did, that happened, and all that made us love each other more.
you weren't all that bad. you've been good to me, and i could never have asked for anyone else, apart from you, to be the one in my life.
besides, if i were to open a blog and not write things that happen, then this blog would be like most others where people just boast and show off the things they do and all that, you know what i mean?
please forgive me. *kneeling, pulling my ear and begging for forgiveness

ok, now i can carry on.

wanna know what i've been busy with the last couple of days? i was into auctioning @ ebay. i've mentioned briefly in my previous post, but now, i'm going a lil further.

honestly, they do have a WIDE and HUGE variety of stuff, branded, non-branded, designer, non-designer. you name it, they have it. but the real problem with them i guess, is their sub-company, PayPal. its easy, its fast, its also furiously dangerous.

no. of times i almost got cheated: 2x
no. of emails i'd sent to harrass PayPal to get my money back: 30

yet despite of these all, i just couldn't stop trying to win the bid!
(like what was wrong with me??)

no. of bids i'd won: 4
no. of items on its way: none

you see what i mean? after you've made payment, they might not send the items to you after all. or perchance, they send the wrong items, or not like the ones they claimed on ebay, then the hussle of returning and getting a refund and blah blah blah, just gets on your nerves.

in short, i'd learn my lesson. and now i'll just keep my fingers, toes, hands and legs crossed that i'll receive the items soon, and then it'll be the last you'll see of me ever on ebay shopping. EVER.

we're heading out to jalan kayu for supper in approximately 20 minutes.

| Materialistic? |

i often ask myself that question, am i materialistic? am i like how most girls are, materialistic? girls who'd go for rich guys, or just normal guys and who'd squeeze every single cent outta their pathetic state?

i dare to say no.

at least i buy most things myself, i buy my own branded goods, i pamper myself with all those expensive gifts, gifts that your partner is suppose to get for you by default. i'm not proud, but at the very least, its my own money that i'm spending on.
i dun ask for anything expensive. anything i set my eyes on, i get it myself.

i've been with my fiance for 4 years, close to 4 and a half years, and the only times i'd received expensive gifts from him was when he saved real hard, or when he was working. now that he's serving the nation, i dun expect anything from him. i am, after all, working and feeding myself.

i just want to say that i'm an independent woman. i earn my own money, i spend my own money. unlike most girls who'd be designer-brand-crazy right now, i am not because i am highly selective.

that aside, i just want to express my frustration.

i didn't change. i am not being materialistic. i'm only a girl, who'd want to be pampered after looking at all those couples around us. maybe i shouldn't be comparing but i'm envious, definitely i am. the way their guys treat them, give them wonderful surprises, bring them on holidays, buy them expensive gifts. what have you done for me? i'm not complaining, but the least you can do is STOP thinking i'm materialistic. i am NOT!

you can't even confirm the dates for our year-end bangkok trip. we're reaching the end of october, and tickets run out exceptionally fast during the last quarter of the year.
i won't be surprised if we dun get to go eventually.
my birthday is coming but i honestly dun wanna hope or expect.

please do this for youself, if not for me, SAVE up!!!

i'm going to bed. goodnight.

| @ work |

i'm @ work now. its a boring day but at least boss ain't gonna be around because he's on leave. he's always on leave. that's good for me. BUT this time round, he's given me work to do, and i'm in the midst of it. some profit & loss forecast thingy for the next 3 years. i have no idea how to do it at all man. well, shall just stone until i feel like doing.

i was on ebay last night, bidded for an LV bag just for fun, and man i actually got it? i dun really like it and yet i got it? *damn

guess i dun have a choice, maybe i'll sell it off or something. whatever, or give it to my mom for christmas present? yeah i'll work something out.

but honestly, auctions are surprisingly fun. but i hope i dun get addicted like how i got addicted to VS.

alright, enough of crapping. gotta get back to work. later then.

| Long TIme |

yeah, its been a long while...

didn't get to ice-skate as planned last saturday. feeling: sucky
didn't get to buy my foundation. feeling: ugly
didn't get to buy my red brolly. feeling: wet

(by the way, which is better, esprit or mango?)

didn't get to do anything memorable last weekend. feeling: unaccomplished

i guess what i'm really trying to say is that, last weekend sucked big time because of poor planning, poor coordination and serious lack of integrity. i mean like comon, you gave your word, you dun just forsake your friends for girls?! its sick.

and not to mention i was and still am pmsing BIG time and i could explode any minute. my head spins in huge circles, i get super tired and drowsy at all times of the day. i'm trying to abstain from cold drinks but try telling that to the not-so-cooperative weather.

i've got tons of stuff i need to get but am hanging on till i get my pay, hopefully next week. and loads of bills to clear, my credit card bills, handphone bills and erm, actually that's it. BUT they add up to hundreds ok? living in singapore ain't cheap.

ohoh, but guess what? the only thing that really made my day was getting Anna Sui's Secret Wish perfume. well, i dun adore it but since dear's best friend was like so helpful, i thought why not? so am just waiting to meet up with him to get it. heard he got a lil handbag, minature, body lotion and bath gel for me too. *hee all for the price of one bottle.

and can i just add that i do NOT like LV, i dun, honest. it just doesn't appeal to me except for that cute lil mini handbag. *aaawwww
christian dior and burberry appeals more to me. yup, just wanted to clarify that.

alright enough said. gonna get some food.

| New Place |

this is my first post from my new office. hmmm this feels weird because i used to blog in my old office, guess it just reminds me of the times i'd spent there.

time flies, its been about 3 months odd since i left. sometimes i wonder how things are going in there, miss the aunties, miss the place where i used to sit and all that stuff.

BUT we must move on.

i'm learning alot in this new place. a big organisation, gives me a feel of how things are run differently. i'm thankful for this opportunity.

i'm heading to town after work to collect my ring, get some necessities and maybe go up and visit my old office? we'll see.

hours to go before knock off: 1 hour
hours to go before ice-skating tomorrow: less than 24 hours

ha, i LOVE fridays!

| Congrats to you, Bim! |

oh man, i just have to blog this down, for memory sake. *evil laughter

my deardear has this friend, from primary school all the way till now, but they kinda stopped contacting each other because the girl that he always brought along to our outings had this serious problem with staring at girls, especially at yours truly. she was kinda like a scanner, scanning every detail of the clothes i wear, my shoes and the bags that i carry, what color pedicure i did and all that bimbotic stuff.

*argh

and i'd always get real frustrated and stare right back at her issuing her with somewhat like a challenge cum warning. ha and she'd always become like a timid mouse and look away.

i'm aware i've deferred once again.

back to my story.

so, they always came out together as 'friends'.

BUT now, they are finally together.

*disgusted

so gross right? like after her years of tagging along does she finally get a name, GIRLFRIEND. what a poor thing.

oh well, i must congratulate them nevertheless, especially to that bimbo.

*sniggers

man, am i just mean or mean?

i know, i'm sucha baddie. *evil laugher

| Tired Tired Tired |

i want to complain.

my eyes are going blind from the multitudes of figures i have to face everyday at work, which explains why i am blogging less and less.

plus, my office com is still not linked up to the internet yet! its been ages!!!

*argh

BUT the good thing is, my boss is going on leave, so this week no government. *yay

and i'm so sleepy and so tired, i have to put toothpicks between my eyes or i'll miss my favourite korean drama!!!

| Pissed |

i just have to blog this down even though my eyes can barely open, and every bit of my muscle and cell are breaking down and telling me i have to sleep if not they will degenerate.

there's this instructor of mine whom i absolutely detest. he's a skinny man who is seriously health-conscious and is freaking strict and fierce when it comes to driving. i honestly think he's got problems with female drivers coz he shouts at me, gets pissed at me, ignores me and sometimes even gives me attitude when i ignore him! what rubbish?!
first of all, its not like as if i had a choice in who i want my instructors to be, although i could but i dun see a point in spending an additional 8 bucks on that.
right, and i'm deferring again.
so i've been, unfortunately, getting him for the past couple of lessons and i tell you, sitting with him in the car just makes me ill. i totally have no mood whatsoever to drive. so i delibrately make the car jerk like nobody's business just to annoy him, and he'll be shouting like "clutch it! clutch it!". like come on, dun i know that? it was on purpose, STUPID!!! *laughz and i also mount the kerbs just so he'd get frustrated and go like "your turning is too wide". duh i know that! i just want to annoy every cell in your body so that you will automatically opt not to teach yours truly, ever again!

*argh

and last of all, he also never fails to make me feel lousy of myself. i know i ain't sucha fantastic driver, and perhaps i'm a lil slow when it comes to parallel parking, yeah by the way, i kinda suck big time at that, but i'm cool with the rest. honest.
all i need is some patience.

| Unwell |

skipped work today, coz i fell ill.
slept the entire day, no kidding.
and i still feel horrible.

anywayz, its gonna be friday tomorrow.
TGIF!
am gonna enjoy it even though i'm sick.

oh and we might be gonna catch 40 year-old virgin.
ha! the title alone sounds hilarious. *laughz

alright, gonna get back to my rest.

| Morning |

yesterday's morning reminded me of the time when i was in kuching, sarawak for a youth camp. that was a long time ago, about 6-7 years back. the mornings there were cool with the sun still shining, it was a pretty place because the camp site was somewhat in the middle of the forest.

i thought of the kind of passion i had then, for the Lord. i was alot younger then. and thinking about it brought guilt.

i long to find the lost fire.
i want to burn for Him like i did before.

why issit that when one is younger, doing things are alot easier?
no stress, no consequences.
the temptation of the world, this secular world.

| Ages |

yes, its been a long time since i really blogged. haven't had the time since i started work at this new place. all is well and i thank God for the locality, the people and even the pay. i pray this will be my final stop before i embark on my degree come year 2007.

it ain't long and it ain't short, but i'm going and that's that. i've waited and wasted my time while i see my peers almost completing their own degree, i feel a sense of envy at times. but to each its own, no use rushing when the time isn't up.

oh and i've booked my driving test. finally. seemed like it was never gonna happen, and i'm rather amazed at myself for being this brave to do it when i said i was going to. guess i didn't wanna disapppoint my parents.
so it will be somewhere early next month, and if i'm lucky enough, i'll be driving before my birthday? we'll see.

alright, enough said. its monday blues.