| Batam |

my long overdue batam trip post!

if my memory didn't fail me, this trip was suppose to be in celebration for V-day. and its already May now. hmmmm...

oh well, better late than never!


::@ the ferry terminal early early in the morning - check out the boyfriend's eyes::


::when it was finally time to board the ferry which took us less than an hour::


::when we first touched batam soil::


::the first sight of the hotel resort room::


::view from the top::


::this was the-most prestigious room, a stand-alone and the honours went to kor's parents *muahahaha::


::it's even got a lil balcony overlooking the sea::


::anything to do with nature and you'll see this handsign from the boyfriend::


::as for me, i'll just be enjoying the break from the urban life::


::but at the end of the day, i guess i'll have to agree with him - the handsign!::


::we went for a short go-kart session after exploring the resort::


::another shot, another view @ the go-kart::


::we wanted to try our hands at beach volleyball but flopped very badly because all 3 of us were just too dainty and afraid our hands will be sored =p::

and yes i know i'm fat, so what are you gonna do about it? *snorts


::so we decided a dip in the waters would be a better choice for princesses like us::


:: somewhere in the middle the boyfriend wanted to be romantic...::


::...and take pics of yours truly again!::


::finally, the night came and by this pic, we had already finished our very "romantic" dinner::


::the night came and left and we had to say goodbye and hello again to the real world =(::

it was a good short trip - too short if you ask me. but it was all the break we needed after struggling and rushing with the semesters.

after this semester is done in june, we'll take another break, definitely.

| Eye -Candy |

some eye-candy for you in the meanwhile! this was @ elicia and michael's wedding some time back.

i'm just bored now...can't wait to finish this final ASSignment and study for exams!!!


::the boyfriend & i @ elicia's wedding::


::the three of us who were her jie-meis and didn't quite enjoy it *pouts::

| Take Heart |

so much has been going on lately and my heart is almost dead. but thank the Lord for all the kind souls He's planted along the way in my life to lift me up when i feel so down.

loving the unlovable. that's something i've yet to learn.

i know how Jesus must be gently whispering in my ear telling me how to love, and in all my sanity, i know how i should forgive and love, but it isn't always easy.

again i get the blame for people's reluctances and inadequacies. even the people dearest to me chide me. my big brother told me that Jesus was a target-board for blame too and that cheered me up - to know that whatever i'm facing right now, Jesus has gone through it before too.

God sees, Jesus sees, how much i've to struggle coming back to this home everyday after work or school.

i wanna work things out but how can i when people cannot even hold decent conversations with you and start raising their voices?

and even though i shouldn't doubt the extent of their love for me, this incident, like all past incidents have gotten me to think, if they still love me as before? if they still love all of us equally? because i just can't seem to feel it anymore.

take heart, Jesus knows, and that's all that matters.

| Waived |

oh, blogger is finally up and running! its been having all those funny error message thingy all over the screen for quite some time now.

anyway, guess what?

my summon of $50.00 got waived off!!!

my letter of appeal got thru to them and i'm SO happy! *lalalala

| Dashed |

further to the boyfriend's post on "wonderful recovery surprise", i am totally stubbed by how the army works.

we had all these wonderful plans for the day @ vivo and i had been looking forward to it. we were gonna play our game, eat, shop, take pictures and stuff. and now its all dashed!

i hate the army. i really do!

BUT yes, i guess part of the recovery surprise was already in the room by the time i woke up from my afternoon nap.

| To-Do |

i've been craving for the loyang point fish bee hoon since forever!!! went there last night and it was already closed, i hope it'll be open when i go at approximately 10 minutes from this post.

i have so many things on my mind which i wanna do when i finish this semester.

*sigh

i've really neglected my life.

its alright.

when i'm back from lunch or later today, i shall post it the list of to-do up here. at least it'll brighten my day and give me more motivation to finish up this ASSignment.

| Stuck |

i'm lost.

keep getting stuck at competitive advantage and i have no way and no idea how to move forward.

i've been at it the whole morning, come on girl, do me proud!

| Fined |

today is the third time this year that i've been fined for anything related to parking. i do not believe the luck i had in the last two rounds, i'd just quietly paid my fine. but i cannot stomach this one down. its downright unfair!

i just had a sudden craving for bak chor mee today and off we went to the 85 market.

apparently, that whole carpark there had been recently converted to a season parking one. we may have passed the sign but hey, it wasn't prominent enough, there was only that ONE sign in the entire carpark and the lots were all in WHITE. yes WHITE. it wasn't red like how season parking lots are supposed to be, they were all WHITE. and the one i parked in was definitely a WHITE one.

now since when did that conversion take place and where is the reasonable notice that are supposed to be given motorists???

i've just submitted a letter of appeal and hopefully they'd waive off the $50 on the account that i'm inexperienced and am still a poor student. if not, i'd go to the MP. yes i am willing to Q for 3 hours just to see the MP and get the $50 waived off.

| Again... |

just when i thought i was free to slow down and take my time in life for a lil while, i was greeted with the realisation after class today that my second ASSignment is due next monday.

well done.

the sound of ASSignment just irks me now.

that day when i was finally done with all 3 ASSignments due on the same day, i hid my lappie away!!! because i now associate my lappie with the horrendous experience of rushing ASSignments.

sometimes i just feel so tired. i feel like i've aged so much over the last couple of months. we haven't had a decent break since we started school last july. when this semester ends, we are so gonna take a short vacation somewhere to R&R. oh which reminds me, my batam pics are still not up yet. you see what i mean?

| DnD |

-ASSignment mulling in process-

Do not Disturb.

after i'm done with these 3 ASSignments, i'm so going for an all-you-can-eat buffet and eat it out!!!

any takers??

| Empathy? |

my parents just called, i think i miss them. just got off msn with the big sista, and i think i miss her too.

this week has been a real challenge, so much so that i couldn't bear many things, my tears have been flowing so freely.

a home is not a home when you have inconsiderate people living together with you and they're not even family.

how come they just cannot stand in my position and try to empathise with me for just a lil while??

my boss hasn't been around all week and i've just been so stepped all over by so many departments. when i come home, i have to tolerate with them watching their korean drama marathon which is neverending. as it is, i already have no time to do my assignment at work even though my boss was on leave the entire week, and when i come home and try to get some work done, i have to bear with all the loud talking, dirty, smelly and oily kitchen because of the great chef, not to mention the massive tv. i practically have sounds coming from all directions!!! i have 3 assignments due next monday, and i'm barely even done for one!!! i have a stupid D&D tonight which i am so not gonna have fun with, and worse of all, i have to get there like at 3.30pm to prepare!!!

why can't they just understand???

most importantly, i am not comfortable being at home alone with a guy who is not related to me by blood and who happens to be my sista's boyfriend and screw him even if he is a police officer!!!

i am highly agitated and highly pmsing now.

so just go away.

| Lost in Emotion |

this was my favourite song back then when i was really lil. remember my dad had this mtv on tape and i'd always re-play it over and over again. ha!

| Kiss |

| Lau Pa Sat |

on the seventh day of chinese new year, the boyfriend's company had a family day @ Lau Pa Sat (LPS), and so there we were.


::myself getting all excited @ clarke quay or boat quay - what's the diff anyway??::



::just had to take a couple more shots of myself::


::then finally it was the boyfriend and i::


::our first time together on a trishaw heh =p::


:: the boyfriend absolutely hates my hand actions, muahahahaha!::



::and our very first caricature::

| Counting my Blessings... |

1) for my new computer @ the office though it still cannot read my flash drive for dunno-what reasons
2) for SO much work that i'm suddenly thrown at - it means that my boss think i'm capable enough
3) for only being late twice in the month of february
4) for the big sista's final departure to aussie - it means when she returns this july, it'll be for good
5) for the results of summer semester which we just got back: one high distinction and one credit

the results were totally unexpected, honest.

i got a mere pass for both my first assignments and i didn't think i would get anywhere near an overall pass. and whilst doing my second assignments, i felt so ill typing and researching and staying up late in the nights that i felt nauseous everytime i switched on my lappie - literally.

6) and my hairy friend who lent his support in every lil paw possible. his company was what cheered me on, without his company in the late nights where he sleeps, dreams and has nightmares, i dun think i would ever make it this far - my lil pup

7) lastly, the Man up there and the two men on earth; my Abba Father, the father and the boyfriend.

i love you guys!

| The Wedding Pictures |

the long awaited wedding pics are up!!! i've been too lazy to do 'em up so yah. there were about thousand-odd pics in all, but i only took 22 out. =p


::my lil boy part of the celebration - check out the 'xi zi' on his paw::


::three of us, sisters forever!::


::mom & dad putting the veil on for their eldest daughter - finally!::


::mom looks on the verge of tears *sobs::


::waiting for her man-to-be::


::yours truly preparing to 'zheng' big bro-in-law and the xiong-dis::


::the jie-meis::


::and the xiong-dis::


::see he finally made it in and got her nevertheless::


::family portrait with the first official son-in-law::


::my two favourite lil gals::


::@ the church::


::standing in line for the church wedding ceremony::


::before the Highest Place::


::another family portrait::


::with the other halves::


::@ night, before the dinner::


::pretty isn't she?::


::can you tell how shag the second sista and i look?::


::with our other halves' family @ the dinner::


::finally happily married - Mr. and Mrs. Kevin Tan::

The End.

| Adult |

yah i know its been ages. i had so much stuff goin' on and i was tied up to the brim, seriously.

after 3 fast-moving months, the summer semester is finally over. the lack of discipline, coupled with the late arrival of the textbooks, and the so-many-other-factors-including-the-sista's wedding contributed to the low grades we have gotten, and most probably am gonna get at the end of the month.

BUT what is over IS over. so learn from it. life itself is a learning process.

the new semester is gonna start at the end of the month, right about the time where we'll be receiving our results. life is so hectic and so busy ever since we started school. i seem to be getting lesser and lesser sleep everyday, and napping more and more during my lunch break.

thankfully my boss understands and is so forgiving. recently, i volunteered for this events planning committee that the company has. this group of people are the ones responsible for events like the annual functions - D&D, movie-screening and stuff. guess it would be quite fun. plus transport is reimbursed so i get to go to the headquarters for meetings (a.k.a to waste time) and also to look-see.

now CNY is round the corner and the spring-cleaning hasn't started yet. the shelves and the cupboards and the wardrobe and the drawers, the bed, the sheets, the table, the windows and the curtains. then there's also the pineapple tarts making, facial, mani/pedicure, AND the CNY dress-shopping, i'm going crazy!!!

last weekend we went for a short romantic batam getaway for V-day with the sistas and their respective other halves. the big sista's parents-in-law came along too and boy were they great! despite their age, they were super spontaneous in all the activities that we did including beach volleyball and soccer, ktv, swimming and water basketball. we also had a spa session out in the nature, and go-karting. haha! it was good fun though there wasn't much romance. pictures will be up soon!

been quarrelling with the boyfriend lately and i wonder if its got anything to do with my year being a Fire Pig. i don't deny how much i hate the amount of time his demanding job takes away from him. i don't deny how much i hate waiting all day long for him too. maybe there's more but i have no idea how to express it except to get angry and burst it out at him at one go.

and yesterday the father played a prank on me and i got so mad i quarrelled with him. he was the one who instigated the big sista to play that prank on me which i so did not appreciate because it was demeaning my abilities as a driver. like i always say, i may not be that good a driver, but i got my class 3 license almost a year ago. if the tester didn't think i was fit for a class 3, he would have kept failing me until he's almost certain that i'll be safe on the roads.
unlike my both sistas, i've never gotten myself into any accidents or crashed anything harder than a dent which i inflicted whilst reverse parking under medication. yes i have bad road directions, i can't recognise most of the roads i've driven on before and if i'm thrown alone on the roads, i'd be so lost until i find any expressway that will bring me back home. but that does not mean i'm incapable of driving to work!!! i really need to let my parents know that i've grown up. i'm no longer the lil girl i used to be. they have to let me go eventually. look, i'm gonna be 24 by the end of this year and they are still not letting me do so many things on my own. like holidaying on my own with the boyfriend and even driving on my own to pick my mom up from work. they have to constantly check on the car and how i am, if i'm hurt or injured or anything to the likes. i know you're concerned and everyone loves the baby of the family, but i'm not growing up in this way, instead i'm growing out and swaying further and further away. i just wanna be treated like my age, like a real adult.

| Organisations |

i feel so bullied at work and its making me so damn bloody pissed off i feel like killing someone.

i'm gonna buy a punching bag soon.

politics in the office again. it gets worse when you are in a bigger organisation.

true, there's nothing wrong with my present office computer except that its the super out-dated windows 98 version with no cd-rom or sound, cannot read my thumbdrive (no wait i think mine is a flashdrive but anyway...) and always hangs on me whenever i open too many applications at a time. what sort of lousy computer is that in the first place you tell me? and not to mention its 6 years old!

so my boss said i could request for a new one provided its approved by all the various channels of authority including my GM and CEO. i did exactly as told, told sucha sweet story of my justification as to why i needed a new one and it got approved.

but the IT guy, this super retarded idiert who's always had a problem with people requesting for new computers and getting it approved, pretended like he never saw my requisition form when i asked him last week. (i suspect he secretly throws away people's requisition forms or pretends it goes missing, because the people who's ever requested for it never ever get their new computers!)

strange isn't it?

but this time round, i still manged to get my new computer and it was delivered to my office today.

because he wasn't able to stop the purchase, he is delibrately stalling time in setting up the new PC. what a downright asshole! seriously.

and you know what his reply was when i asked when his next trip to my branch is?

"oh i'm very busy these few days. i have to set up for 2 other managers. because they are big shots, i have to do for them first. for you, have to wait lah."

oh the nerve of this guy!

i felt like grabbing him through the phone and plucking every single strand of his pathetic hair out!

how can anyone be so mean? how can anyone talk to somebody else like that?
its sssoooooo rude lor and i'm highly frustrated.

i may be a nobody now, but i won't be like this forever. wait till i get my degree and the sky will be the limits man. i may even be your boss someday. what goes up must come down, so dun ever belittle anyone.

there's something called karma.

i will definitely grow and move outta this hell, watch me.

"Be nice to people on your way up, you might just meet them on your way down."

| New Girlfriend |

the boyfriend has a new girlfriend. *screams her name is WORK.

he spends majority of his day with her you see, but he's only got to know her for only just awhile.

she takes up alot of his time, and doesn't let him go after office hours. even on alternate saturdays, he spends more than half the day with her. it makes me feel neglected and unwanted sometimes i hate her sssssoooooo much!!!

i will confront her one of these days and trash things out with her for always hounding the boyfriend. he's mine, so HANDS OFF!

| Dreaming |

*sigh

what channels of distribution?
what use of processes in the extended marketing mix?

i'm SSSSSOOOOOOOO tired of answering all these questions.

i'm so going for retail therapy on friday when i hand in my final assignment.

all the shopping malls out there, you better make way for yours truly!!!

*muahahahahahahahahahahahaha

now back to work please. *pui

| Solitude or Contradiction? |

before i embark on my ASSignment for the night, i just wanna say that this blog will always be my solitude.

and my wireless mouse is outta batteries again.

that's beside the point but, i just figured i can never really let my thoughts be known to people except through writing. writing seems to be my only outlet.

and yet when i have a 3,500 and 3,000 word assignment staring at my face, i'm lost for words.

indeed, i am a walking contradiction.

| Like it! |

i know this is kinda off to say in the middle of the night but i just like my current blogskin to bits because it was made by the boyfriend!!!

muahahahahaha! =p

*ASSignment mulling in process

| Studies |

should have known better that being in one of the group of eight universities meant a certain degree of standard. should have known better that the guy meant it when he said "the univerisity's standards will not be compromised" during our orientation.

now i truly understand and am beginning to wonder if my choice of university was a mistake.

after all, juggling work and studies meant lesser time for research and sadly, research forms the bulk of our assignment preparation.

just got back one of the two assignments handed up earlier, and the results sucked.

and right now, despite the low morale, i have to find ways to motivate myself in order to finish up the final assignments before deadline in the next 10 days.

i'm sssssooooo extremely tired.

3500 words + 3000 words = 7500 words.

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" - Phillipians 4:13

Father give me strength.

| Finally...Some Pics |

::the couple::


::my family in the act of spreading some love hee=p::


::us with the lil ones @ the church::

| Weddings |

weddings aren't easy.

i totally peng san after the big sista's wedding.

being part of the bridal shower (jie mei) making fun of the groom, being her real sister, following her wherever she went, being the receptionist at church and at dinner (but i skipped the dinner one because i had to race back to sengkang to find the groom's missing dinner suit but turned out it was at our house?!), being her bridesmaid (yah and we were like real maids lor) taking care of her needs like touching up for her and making sure she's well hydrated etc, the second sista even had to dress her up every time she had to change her gown, walking down the aisle in that freaking tight gown which i couldn't breathe in and not being able to eat much for the first half of the day because given the tight gown, my tummy would definitely show. *phew

by the time we finally made it to the night dinner, my hair was in a total mess. and the camera's batt all went flat, thus explains most of the pics at tea ceremony and the church wedding.

the photographer has the entire collection by the way, but for him to develop the hundreds of photos taken would take him awhile. so i guess i can only show you whatever we have first. =)

was totally blur like sotong before the big day, but now that i've been through it, anyone who wants me part of their jie mei team, you just have to ask. =)

speaking of which i have another friend's wedding at the end of this year. and maybe my second sista is gonna get married too, if she gets her house of course.

me? nah, not yet.

| My Only Christmas Picture |

...last year in 2006 *lalalala....