| Counting my Blessings... |

1) for my new computer @ the office though it still cannot read my flash drive for dunno-what reasons
2) for SO much work that i'm suddenly thrown at - it means that my boss think i'm capable enough
3) for only being late twice in the month of february
4) for the big sista's final departure to aussie - it means when she returns this july, it'll be for good
5) for the results of summer semester which we just got back: one high distinction and one credit

the results were totally unexpected, honest.

i got a mere pass for both my first assignments and i didn't think i would get anywhere near an overall pass. and whilst doing my second assignments, i felt so ill typing and researching and staying up late in the nights that i felt nauseous everytime i switched on my lappie - literally.

6) and my hairy friend who lent his support in every lil paw possible. his company was what cheered me on, without his company in the late nights where he sleeps, dreams and has nightmares, i dun think i would ever make it this far - my lil pup

7) lastly, the Man up there and the two men on earth; my Abba Father, the father and the boyfriend.

i love you guys!

| The Wedding Pictures |

the long awaited wedding pics are up!!! i've been too lazy to do 'em up so yah. there were about thousand-odd pics in all, but i only took 22 out. =p


::my lil boy part of the celebration - check out the 'xi zi' on his paw::


::three of us, sisters forever!::


::mom & dad putting the veil on for their eldest daughter - finally!::


::mom looks on the verge of tears *sobs::


::waiting for her man-to-be::


::yours truly preparing to 'zheng' big bro-in-law and the xiong-dis::


::the jie-meis::


::and the xiong-dis::


::see he finally made it in and got her nevertheless::


::family portrait with the first official son-in-law::


::my two favourite lil gals::


::@ the church::


::standing in line for the church wedding ceremony::


::before the Highest Place::


::another family portrait::


::with the other halves::


::@ night, before the dinner::


::pretty isn't she?::


::can you tell how shag the second sista and i look?::


::with our other halves' family @ the dinner::


::finally happily married - Mr. and Mrs. Kevin Tan::

The End.

| Adult |

yah i know its been ages. i had so much stuff goin' on and i was tied up to the brim, seriously.

after 3 fast-moving months, the summer semester is finally over. the lack of discipline, coupled with the late arrival of the textbooks, and the so-many-other-factors-including-the-sista's wedding contributed to the low grades we have gotten, and most probably am gonna get at the end of the month.

BUT what is over IS over. so learn from it. life itself is a learning process.

the new semester is gonna start at the end of the month, right about the time where we'll be receiving our results. life is so hectic and so busy ever since we started school. i seem to be getting lesser and lesser sleep everyday, and napping more and more during my lunch break.

thankfully my boss understands and is so forgiving. recently, i volunteered for this events planning committee that the company has. this group of people are the ones responsible for events like the annual functions - D&D, movie-screening and stuff. guess it would be quite fun. plus transport is reimbursed so i get to go to the headquarters for meetings (a.k.a to waste time) and also to look-see.

now CNY is round the corner and the spring-cleaning hasn't started yet. the shelves and the cupboards and the wardrobe and the drawers, the bed, the sheets, the table, the windows and the curtains. then there's also the pineapple tarts making, facial, mani/pedicure, AND the CNY dress-shopping, i'm going crazy!!!

last weekend we went for a short romantic batam getaway for V-day with the sistas and their respective other halves. the big sista's parents-in-law came along too and boy were they great! despite their age, they were super spontaneous in all the activities that we did including beach volleyball and soccer, ktv, swimming and water basketball. we also had a spa session out in the nature, and go-karting. haha! it was good fun though there wasn't much romance. pictures will be up soon!

been quarrelling with the boyfriend lately and i wonder if its got anything to do with my year being a Fire Pig. i don't deny how much i hate the amount of time his demanding job takes away from him. i don't deny how much i hate waiting all day long for him too. maybe there's more but i have no idea how to express it except to get angry and burst it out at him at one go.

and yesterday the father played a prank on me and i got so mad i quarrelled with him. he was the one who instigated the big sista to play that prank on me which i so did not appreciate because it was demeaning my abilities as a driver. like i always say, i may not be that good a driver, but i got my class 3 license almost a year ago. if the tester didn't think i was fit for a class 3, he would have kept failing me until he's almost certain that i'll be safe on the roads.
unlike my both sistas, i've never gotten myself into any accidents or crashed anything harder than a dent which i inflicted whilst reverse parking under medication. yes i have bad road directions, i can't recognise most of the roads i've driven on before and if i'm thrown alone on the roads, i'd be so lost until i find any expressway that will bring me back home. but that does not mean i'm incapable of driving to work!!! i really need to let my parents know that i've grown up. i'm no longer the lil girl i used to be. they have to let me go eventually. look, i'm gonna be 24 by the end of this year and they are still not letting me do so many things on my own. like holidaying on my own with the boyfriend and even driving on my own to pick my mom up from work. they have to constantly check on the car and how i am, if i'm hurt or injured or anything to the likes. i know you're concerned and everyone loves the baby of the family, but i'm not growing up in this way, instead i'm growing out and swaying further and further away. i just wanna be treated like my age, like a real adult.

| Organisations |

i feel so bullied at work and its making me so damn bloody pissed off i feel like killing someone.

i'm gonna buy a punching bag soon.

politics in the office again. it gets worse when you are in a bigger organisation.

true, there's nothing wrong with my present office computer except that its the super out-dated windows 98 version with no cd-rom or sound, cannot read my thumbdrive (no wait i think mine is a flashdrive but anyway...) and always hangs on me whenever i open too many applications at a time. what sort of lousy computer is that in the first place you tell me? and not to mention its 6 years old!

so my boss said i could request for a new one provided its approved by all the various channels of authority including my GM and CEO. i did exactly as told, told sucha sweet story of my justification as to why i needed a new one and it got approved.

but the IT guy, this super retarded idiert who's always had a problem with people requesting for new computers and getting it approved, pretended like he never saw my requisition form when i asked him last week. (i suspect he secretly throws away people's requisition forms or pretends it goes missing, because the people who's ever requested for it never ever get their new computers!)

strange isn't it?

but this time round, i still manged to get my new computer and it was delivered to my office today.

because he wasn't able to stop the purchase, he is delibrately stalling time in setting up the new PC. what a downright asshole! seriously.

and you know what his reply was when i asked when his next trip to my branch is?

"oh i'm very busy these few days. i have to set up for 2 other managers. because they are big shots, i have to do for them first. for you, have to wait lah."

oh the nerve of this guy!

i felt like grabbing him through the phone and plucking every single strand of his pathetic hair out!

how can anyone be so mean? how can anyone talk to somebody else like that?
its sssoooooo rude lor and i'm highly frustrated.

i may be a nobody now, but i won't be like this forever. wait till i get my degree and the sky will be the limits man. i may even be your boss someday. what goes up must come down, so dun ever belittle anyone.

there's something called karma.

i will definitely grow and move outta this hell, watch me.

"Be nice to people on your way up, you might just meet them on your way down."

| New Girlfriend |

the boyfriend has a new girlfriend. *screams her name is WORK.

he spends majority of his day with her you see, but he's only got to know her for only just awhile.

she takes up alot of his time, and doesn't let him go after office hours. even on alternate saturdays, he spends more than half the day with her. it makes me feel neglected and unwanted sometimes i hate her sssssoooooo much!!!

i will confront her one of these days and trash things out with her for always hounding the boyfriend. he's mine, so HANDS OFF!

| Dreaming |

*sigh

what channels of distribution?
what use of processes in the extended marketing mix?

i'm SSSSSOOOOOOOO tired of answering all these questions.

i'm so going for retail therapy on friday when i hand in my final assignment.

all the shopping malls out there, you better make way for yours truly!!!

*muahahahahahahahahahahahaha

now back to work please. *pui

| Solitude or Contradiction? |

before i embark on my ASSignment for the night, i just wanna say that this blog will always be my solitude.

and my wireless mouse is outta batteries again.

that's beside the point but, i just figured i can never really let my thoughts be known to people except through writing. writing seems to be my only outlet.

and yet when i have a 3,500 and 3,000 word assignment staring at my face, i'm lost for words.

indeed, i am a walking contradiction.

| Like it! |

i know this is kinda off to say in the middle of the night but i just like my current blogskin to bits because it was made by the boyfriend!!!

muahahahahaha! =p

*ASSignment mulling in process

| Studies |

should have known better that being in one of the group of eight universities meant a certain degree of standard. should have known better that the guy meant it when he said "the univerisity's standards will not be compromised" during our orientation.

now i truly understand and am beginning to wonder if my choice of university was a mistake.

after all, juggling work and studies meant lesser time for research and sadly, research forms the bulk of our assignment preparation.

just got back one of the two assignments handed up earlier, and the results sucked.

and right now, despite the low morale, i have to find ways to motivate myself in order to finish up the final assignments before deadline in the next 10 days.

i'm sssssooooo extremely tired.

3500 words + 3000 words = 7500 words.

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" - Phillipians 4:13

Father give me strength.

| Finally...Some Pics |

::the couple::


::my family in the act of spreading some love hee=p::


::us with the lil ones @ the church::

| Weddings |

weddings aren't easy.

i totally peng san after the big sista's wedding.

being part of the bridal shower (jie mei) making fun of the groom, being her real sister, following her wherever she went, being the receptionist at church and at dinner (but i skipped the dinner one because i had to race back to sengkang to find the groom's missing dinner suit but turned out it was at our house?!), being her bridesmaid (yah and we were like real maids lor) taking care of her needs like touching up for her and making sure she's well hydrated etc, the second sista even had to dress her up every time she had to change her gown, walking down the aisle in that freaking tight gown which i couldn't breathe in and not being able to eat much for the first half of the day because given the tight gown, my tummy would definitely show. *phew

by the time we finally made it to the night dinner, my hair was in a total mess. and the camera's batt all went flat, thus explains most of the pics at tea ceremony and the church wedding.

the photographer has the entire collection by the way, but for him to develop the hundreds of photos taken would take him awhile. so i guess i can only show you whatever we have first. =)

was totally blur like sotong before the big day, but now that i've been through it, anyone who wants me part of their jie mei team, you just have to ask. =)

speaking of which i have another friend's wedding at the end of this year. and maybe my second sista is gonna get married too, if she gets her house of course.

me? nah, not yet.

| My Only Christmas Picture |

...last year in 2006 *lalalala....

| @ the wedding |

didn't manage to get a pic of the wedded couple, but here's us for you! hee =p

| Sale |

today was mango sale preview for members and i didn't make it there because of the darn ASSignments weighing me down.

i even totally forgotten to let both the sistas know about it.

am feeling extremely frustrated that i am unable to take advantage of all these bargains. not that mango clothes are fantastic but all the other sales are also just shouting "BUY me!" at such affordable price!

*sighz

drowning in the pool of ASSignments...

| ASSignments |

the last week of class before a short break for christmas.

ASSignments are due the end of this week and the next, and we're nowhere near done.

no head nor tail.

this lecturer or whatever she's suppose to be really C.M.I.

for a subject so easy and something we've done before, she ended up confusing us and making us even more unsure every week.

it'd be a miracle if we make a distinction for this module.

i give up!

| Retrench |

many changes in the company lately, alot of rebranding going on under the corporate name.

so much re-shuffling going on everywhere, its so scary..and suddenly reality just hit me in the face: people got demoted, people got transferred to far away places and stuff, and these are people whom i know.

i thought i understood how the business world worked, but i guess i'm still not quite up there yet, in terms of maturity i mean.

the office suddenly became so cold, so dry, so heartless...

my boss told me not to worrie and said i'm still safe from now till i get my degree. that was definiely assuring but i can't help but still feel uneasy.

and there's the big sista's wedding and the second sista getting all cranky and stuff...

PLUS the ASSignments and work and politics and relationships....i'm SO breaking down, so tired, so fed up!
because just by doing the ASSignments means i can't do any shopping until the 22nd!!!

enough said, goodnight.

| Great Expectations |

time and time again i tell myself not to have any expectations of the boyfriend, but again and again i failed.

could it be the length of us being together is getting way too abnormal?

this job of his is killing me.

seriously.

his job evolves around him so much so that studies has become secondary, and myself, not even anywhere close!

i got stood up for the umpteen times because of his work. and because i am so pms-ing and unusually hungry, i blew up.

like how he always says when it comes to work, "i can't help it", i'll say it back to you now: blowing my top was something i couldn't help it either.

seriously, think about doing different subjects next semester.

| Block |

think i left school for too long, can't seem to be able to clearly write what is expected of me anymore.

i'm so drowning in both my ASSignments...

have already been there and done most of these stuff before, but i just dun see what is wrong!

they call it writer's block.

| Yours Truly |

| Why |

dear all, you know why i haven't been blogging so actively as before?? here's why:

received this mail late last week and it totally made everyone super sianz...

Users of XxxxxxxXxxXxx systems are reminded that under our Corporate Information Protection Policy, IT User Security Guidelines, access to the Internet is for official purposes only and access to web-based email services is prohibited.

Action has been recently taken against employees for the download of files for personal use and for visiting web-based email sites.

Corporate IT monitors and logs all Internet activities and will be stepping up our efforts to ensure policy compliance.

These steps are necessary in preventing the unauthorised use of web-based email services. It also aims to ensure that our Internet connectivity remains available for official purposes.

Thank you and regards
Paul Lim
Information Security Administrator
DID +65 6383 xxxx

i mean, what sort of company does this sort of restriction? come on lah, some more you are world number 2 leh...wah piangz~!

C.M.I

anyway, so its been a long time. yeah i've been busy with the hatchday, start of a new sem, new mobile, PMS-ing, the big sista's wedding, the boyfriend's family going abroad and and stuff...

i had a very lovely surprise from the boyfriend for my hatchday. it was simple, sweet and i liked it. most importantly, i had surprises!!!

pics will be up soon!