Pulau Ubin

| Exams...Again... |

::see how sianz we look::

anyway, i'm thinking of coming up with a list of to-do when i clear this semester, well to sorta motivate myself to studying hard.

wish me luck!

| New Favourite |

ok, my new favourite store now has got to be River Island

this lil brand came outta nowhere and took yours truly by storm. alright, maybe i'm exaggerating BUT while i was waiting for the boyfriend to turn up for our last class of the semester just now (he's always late btw), i went in to shop and saw like so many pretty clothes!

oh how i wish i could buy 'em all but its freaking expensive!

and despite it being the GSS now, this store is totally nett throughout. *argh

anywayz, so i bought one for work. hehehe and i'm gonna get the boyfriend to get another to redeem himself for being late. ha!

| Batam |

my long overdue batam trip post!

if my memory didn't fail me, this trip was suppose to be in celebration for V-day. and its already May now. hmmmm...

oh well, better late than never!


::@ the ferry terminal early early in the morning - check out the boyfriend's eyes::


::when it was finally time to board the ferry which took us less than an hour::


::when we first touched batam soil::


::the first sight of the hotel resort room::


::view from the top::


::this was the-most prestigious room, a stand-alone and the honours went to kor's parents *muahahaha::


::it's even got a lil balcony overlooking the sea::


::anything to do with nature and you'll see this handsign from the boyfriend::


::as for me, i'll just be enjoying the break from the urban life::


::but at the end of the day, i guess i'll have to agree with him - the handsign!::


::we went for a short go-kart session after exploring the resort::


::another shot, another view @ the go-kart::


::we wanted to try our hands at beach volleyball but flopped very badly because all 3 of us were just too dainty and afraid our hands will be sored =p::

and yes i know i'm fat, so what are you gonna do about it? *snorts


::so we decided a dip in the waters would be a better choice for princesses like us::


:: somewhere in the middle the boyfriend wanted to be romantic...::


::...and take pics of yours truly again!::


::finally, the night came and by this pic, we had already finished our very "romantic" dinner::


::the night came and left and we had to say goodbye and hello again to the real world =(::

it was a good short trip - too short if you ask me. but it was all the break we needed after struggling and rushing with the semesters.

after this semester is done in june, we'll take another break, definitely.

| Eye -Candy |

some eye-candy for you in the meanwhile! this was @ elicia and michael's wedding some time back.

i'm just bored now...can't wait to finish this final ASSignment and study for exams!!!


::the boyfriend & i @ elicia's wedding::


::the three of us who were her jie-meis and didn't quite enjoy it *pouts::

| Take Heart |

so much has been going on lately and my heart is almost dead. but thank the Lord for all the kind souls He's planted along the way in my life to lift me up when i feel so down.

loving the unlovable. that's something i've yet to learn.

i know how Jesus must be gently whispering in my ear telling me how to love, and in all my sanity, i know how i should forgive and love, but it isn't always easy.

again i get the blame for people's reluctances and inadequacies. even the people dearest to me chide me. my big brother told me that Jesus was a target-board for blame too and that cheered me up - to know that whatever i'm facing right now, Jesus has gone through it before too.

God sees, Jesus sees, how much i've to struggle coming back to this home everyday after work or school.

i wanna work things out but how can i when people cannot even hold decent conversations with you and start raising their voices?

and even though i shouldn't doubt the extent of their love for me, this incident, like all past incidents have gotten me to think, if they still love me as before? if they still love all of us equally? because i just can't seem to feel it anymore.

take heart, Jesus knows, and that's all that matters.

| Waived |

oh, blogger is finally up and running! its been having all those funny error message thingy all over the screen for quite some time now.

anyway, guess what?

my summon of $50.00 got waived off!!!

my letter of appeal got thru to them and i'm SO happy! *lalalala

| Dashed |

further to the boyfriend's post on "wonderful recovery surprise", i am totally stubbed by how the army works.

we had all these wonderful plans for the day @ vivo and i had been looking forward to it. we were gonna play our game, eat, shop, take pictures and stuff. and now its all dashed!

i hate the army. i really do!

BUT yes, i guess part of the recovery surprise was already in the room by the time i woke up from my afternoon nap.

| To-Do |

i've been craving for the loyang point fish bee hoon since forever!!! went there last night and it was already closed, i hope it'll be open when i go at approximately 10 minutes from this post.

i have so many things on my mind which i wanna do when i finish this semester.

*sigh

i've really neglected my life.

its alright.

when i'm back from lunch or later today, i shall post it the list of to-do up here. at least it'll brighten my day and give me more motivation to finish up this ASSignment.

| Stuck |

i'm lost.

keep getting stuck at competitive advantage and i have no way and no idea how to move forward.

i've been at it the whole morning, come on girl, do me proud!

| Fined |

today is the third time this year that i've been fined for anything related to parking. i do not believe the luck i had in the last two rounds, i'd just quietly paid my fine. but i cannot stomach this one down. its downright unfair!

i just had a sudden craving for bak chor mee today and off we went to the 85 market.

apparently, that whole carpark there had been recently converted to a season parking one. we may have passed the sign but hey, it wasn't prominent enough, there was only that ONE sign in the entire carpark and the lots were all in WHITE. yes WHITE. it wasn't red like how season parking lots are supposed to be, they were all WHITE. and the one i parked in was definitely a WHITE one.

now since when did that conversion take place and where is the reasonable notice that are supposed to be given motorists???

i've just submitted a letter of appeal and hopefully they'd waive off the $50 on the account that i'm inexperienced and am still a poor student. if not, i'd go to the MP. yes i am willing to Q for 3 hours just to see the MP and get the $50 waived off.

| Again... |

just when i thought i was free to slow down and take my time in life for a lil while, i was greeted with the realisation after class today that my second ASSignment is due next monday.

well done.

the sound of ASSignment just irks me now.

that day when i was finally done with all 3 ASSignments due on the same day, i hid my lappie away!!! because i now associate my lappie with the horrendous experience of rushing ASSignments.

sometimes i just feel so tired. i feel like i've aged so much over the last couple of months. we haven't had a decent break since we started school last july. when this semester ends, we are so gonna take a short vacation somewhere to R&R. oh which reminds me, my batam pics are still not up yet. you see what i mean?

| DnD |

-ASSignment mulling in process-

Do not Disturb.

after i'm done with these 3 ASSignments, i'm so going for an all-you-can-eat buffet and eat it out!!!

any takers??

| Empathy? |

my parents just called, i think i miss them. just got off msn with the big sista, and i think i miss her too.

this week has been a real challenge, so much so that i couldn't bear many things, my tears have been flowing so freely.

a home is not a home when you have inconsiderate people living together with you and they're not even family.

how come they just cannot stand in my position and try to empathise with me for just a lil while??

my boss hasn't been around all week and i've just been so stepped all over by so many departments. when i come home, i have to tolerate with them watching their korean drama marathon which is neverending. as it is, i already have no time to do my assignment at work even though my boss was on leave the entire week, and when i come home and try to get some work done, i have to bear with all the loud talking, dirty, smelly and oily kitchen because of the great chef, not to mention the massive tv. i practically have sounds coming from all directions!!! i have 3 assignments due next monday, and i'm barely even done for one!!! i have a stupid D&D tonight which i am so not gonna have fun with, and worse of all, i have to get there like at 3.30pm to prepare!!!

why can't they just understand???

most importantly, i am not comfortable being at home alone with a guy who is not related to me by blood and who happens to be my sista's boyfriend and screw him even if he is a police officer!!!

i am highly agitated and highly pmsing now.

so just go away.

| Lost in Emotion |

this was my favourite song back then when i was really lil. remember my dad had this mtv on tape and i'd always re-play it over and over again. ha!

| Kiss |

| Lau Pa Sat |

on the seventh day of chinese new year, the boyfriend's company had a family day @ Lau Pa Sat (LPS), and so there we were.


::myself getting all excited @ clarke quay or boat quay - what's the diff anyway??::



::just had to take a couple more shots of myself::


::then finally it was the boyfriend and i::


::our first time together on a trishaw heh =p::


:: the boyfriend absolutely hates my hand actions, muahahahaha!::



::and our very first caricature::

| Counting my Blessings... |

1) for my new computer @ the office though it still cannot read my flash drive for dunno-what reasons
2) for SO much work that i'm suddenly thrown at - it means that my boss think i'm capable enough
3) for only being late twice in the month of february
4) for the big sista's final departure to aussie - it means when she returns this july, it'll be for good
5) for the results of summer semester which we just got back: one high distinction and one credit

the results were totally unexpected, honest.

i got a mere pass for both my first assignments and i didn't think i would get anywhere near an overall pass. and whilst doing my second assignments, i felt so ill typing and researching and staying up late in the nights that i felt nauseous everytime i switched on my lappie - literally.

6) and my hairy friend who lent his support in every lil paw possible. his company was what cheered me on, without his company in the late nights where he sleeps, dreams and has nightmares, i dun think i would ever make it this far - my lil pup

7) lastly, the Man up there and the two men on earth; my Abba Father, the father and the boyfriend.

i love you guys!

| The Wedding Pictures |

the long awaited wedding pics are up!!! i've been too lazy to do 'em up so yah. there were about thousand-odd pics in all, but i only took 22 out. =p


::my lil boy part of the celebration - check out the 'xi zi' on his paw::


::three of us, sisters forever!::


::mom & dad putting the veil on for their eldest daughter - finally!::


::mom looks on the verge of tears *sobs::


::waiting for her man-to-be::


::yours truly preparing to 'zheng' big bro-in-law and the xiong-dis::


::the jie-meis::


::and the xiong-dis::


::see he finally made it in and got her nevertheless::


::family portrait with the first official son-in-law::


::my two favourite lil gals::


::@ the church::


::standing in line for the church wedding ceremony::


::before the Highest Place::


::another family portrait::


::with the other halves::


::@ night, before the dinner::


::pretty isn't she?::


::can you tell how shag the second sista and i look?::


::with our other halves' family @ the dinner::


::finally happily married - Mr. and Mrs. Kevin Tan::

The End.

| Adult |

yah i know its been ages. i had so much stuff goin' on and i was tied up to the brim, seriously.

after 3 fast-moving months, the summer semester is finally over. the lack of discipline, coupled with the late arrival of the textbooks, and the so-many-other-factors-including-the-sista's wedding contributed to the low grades we have gotten, and most probably am gonna get at the end of the month.

BUT what is over IS over. so learn from it. life itself is a learning process.

the new semester is gonna start at the end of the month, right about the time where we'll be receiving our results. life is so hectic and so busy ever since we started school. i seem to be getting lesser and lesser sleep everyday, and napping more and more during my lunch break.

thankfully my boss understands and is so forgiving. recently, i volunteered for this events planning committee that the company has. this group of people are the ones responsible for events like the annual functions - D&D, movie-screening and stuff. guess it would be quite fun. plus transport is reimbursed so i get to go to the headquarters for meetings (a.k.a to waste time) and also to look-see.

now CNY is round the corner and the spring-cleaning hasn't started yet. the shelves and the cupboards and the wardrobe and the drawers, the bed, the sheets, the table, the windows and the curtains. then there's also the pineapple tarts making, facial, mani/pedicure, AND the CNY dress-shopping, i'm going crazy!!!

last weekend we went for a short romantic batam getaway for V-day with the sistas and their respective other halves. the big sista's parents-in-law came along too and boy were they great! despite their age, they were super spontaneous in all the activities that we did including beach volleyball and soccer, ktv, swimming and water basketball. we also had a spa session out in the nature, and go-karting. haha! it was good fun though there wasn't much romance. pictures will be up soon!

been quarrelling with the boyfriend lately and i wonder if its got anything to do with my year being a Fire Pig. i don't deny how much i hate the amount of time his demanding job takes away from him. i don't deny how much i hate waiting all day long for him too. maybe there's more but i have no idea how to express it except to get angry and burst it out at him at one go.

and yesterday the father played a prank on me and i got so mad i quarrelled with him. he was the one who instigated the big sista to play that prank on me which i so did not appreciate because it was demeaning my abilities as a driver. like i always say, i may not be that good a driver, but i got my class 3 license almost a year ago. if the tester didn't think i was fit for a class 3, he would have kept failing me until he's almost certain that i'll be safe on the roads.
unlike my both sistas, i've never gotten myself into any accidents or crashed anything harder than a dent which i inflicted whilst reverse parking under medication. yes i have bad road directions, i can't recognise most of the roads i've driven on before and if i'm thrown alone on the roads, i'd be so lost until i find any expressway that will bring me back home. but that does not mean i'm incapable of driving to work!!! i really need to let my parents know that i've grown up. i'm no longer the lil girl i used to be. they have to let me go eventually. look, i'm gonna be 24 by the end of this year and they are still not letting me do so many things on my own. like holidaying on my own with the boyfriend and even driving on my own to pick my mom up from work. they have to constantly check on the car and how i am, if i'm hurt or injured or anything to the likes. i know you're concerned and everyone loves the baby of the family, but i'm not growing up in this way, instead i'm growing out and swaying further and further away. i just wanna be treated like my age, like a real adult.