| I Wonder |

questions after questions fill my mind,
about how you could become so void.
did i care too much or too lil?
i wonder.

waiting, i've wasted one and a half years waiting,
in return, all i got was "dun press me any further".
sometimes a lil encouragement is all it takes,
issit too hard for you?
i wonder.

did i make the wrong choice?
did i make the wrong decision in waiting?
will i regret in time to come?
i wonder.

feels like Heaven is making a spot of me.
feels like i've been the clown in this story.
am i drowning myself in self-pity?
i wonder.

5 years and its become dry, monotonous and boring.
or maybe i have just forgotten how to blog about the happy times.
in the next 5 years,
will this still be my fairy tale?