| Organisations |

i feel so bullied at work and its making me so damn bloody pissed off i feel like killing someone.

i'm gonna buy a punching bag soon.

politics in the office again. it gets worse when you are in a bigger organisation.

true, there's nothing wrong with my present office computer except that its the super out-dated windows 98 version with no cd-rom or sound, cannot read my thumbdrive (no wait i think mine is a flashdrive but anyway...) and always hangs on me whenever i open too many applications at a time. what sort of lousy computer is that in the first place you tell me? and not to mention its 6 years old!

so my boss said i could request for a new one provided its approved by all the various channels of authority including my GM and CEO. i did exactly as told, told sucha sweet story of my justification as to why i needed a new one and it got approved.

but the IT guy, this super retarded idiert who's always had a problem with people requesting for new computers and getting it approved, pretended like he never saw my requisition form when i asked him last week. (i suspect he secretly throws away people's requisition forms or pretends it goes missing, because the people who's ever requested for it never ever get their new computers!)

strange isn't it?

but this time round, i still manged to get my new computer and it was delivered to my office today.

because he wasn't able to stop the purchase, he is delibrately stalling time in setting up the new PC. what a downright asshole! seriously.

and you know what his reply was when i asked when his next trip to my branch is?

"oh i'm very busy these few days. i have to set up for 2 other managers. because they are big shots, i have to do for them first. for you, have to wait lah."

oh the nerve of this guy!

i felt like grabbing him through the phone and plucking every single strand of his pathetic hair out!

how can anyone be so mean? how can anyone talk to somebody else like that?
its sssoooooo rude lor and i'm highly frustrated.

i may be a nobody now, but i won't be like this forever. wait till i get my degree and the sky will be the limits man. i may even be your boss someday. what goes up must come down, so dun ever belittle anyone.

there's something called karma.

i will definitely grow and move outta this hell, watch me.

"Be nice to people on your way up, you might just meet them on your way down."

| New Girlfriend |

the boyfriend has a new girlfriend. *screams her name is WORK.

he spends majority of his day with her you see, but he's only got to know her for only just awhile.

she takes up alot of his time, and doesn't let him go after office hours. even on alternate saturdays, he spends more than half the day with her. it makes me feel neglected and unwanted sometimes i hate her sssssoooooo much!!!

i will confront her one of these days and trash things out with her for always hounding the boyfriend. he's mine, so HANDS OFF!

| Dreaming |

*sigh

what channels of distribution?
what use of processes in the extended marketing mix?

i'm SSSSSOOOOOOOO tired of answering all these questions.

i'm so going for retail therapy on friday when i hand in my final assignment.

all the shopping malls out there, you better make way for yours truly!!!

*muahahahahahahahahahahahaha

now back to work please. *pui

| Solitude or Contradiction? |

before i embark on my ASSignment for the night, i just wanna say that this blog will always be my solitude.

and my wireless mouse is outta batteries again.

that's beside the point but, i just figured i can never really let my thoughts be known to people except through writing. writing seems to be my only outlet.

and yet when i have a 3,500 and 3,000 word assignment staring at my face, i'm lost for words.

indeed, i am a walking contradiction.

| Like it! |

i know this is kinda off to say in the middle of the night but i just like my current blogskin to bits because it was made by the boyfriend!!!

muahahahahaha! =p

*ASSignment mulling in process

| Studies |

should have known better that being in one of the group of eight universities meant a certain degree of standard. should have known better that the guy meant it when he said "the univerisity's standards will not be compromised" during our orientation.

now i truly understand and am beginning to wonder if my choice of university was a mistake.

after all, juggling work and studies meant lesser time for research and sadly, research forms the bulk of our assignment preparation.

just got back one of the two assignments handed up earlier, and the results sucked.

and right now, despite the low morale, i have to find ways to motivate myself in order to finish up the final assignments before deadline in the next 10 days.

i'm sssssooooo extremely tired.

3500 words + 3000 words = 7500 words.

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" - Phillipians 4:13

Father give me strength.

| Finally...Some Pics |

::the couple::


::my family in the act of spreading some love hee=p::


::us with the lil ones @ the church::

| Weddings |

weddings aren't easy.

i totally peng san after the big sista's wedding.

being part of the bridal shower (jie mei) making fun of the groom, being her real sister, following her wherever she went, being the receptionist at church and at dinner (but i skipped the dinner one because i had to race back to sengkang to find the groom's missing dinner suit but turned out it was at our house?!), being her bridesmaid (yah and we were like real maids lor) taking care of her needs like touching up for her and making sure she's well hydrated etc, the second sista even had to dress her up every time she had to change her gown, walking down the aisle in that freaking tight gown which i couldn't breathe in and not being able to eat much for the first half of the day because given the tight gown, my tummy would definitely show. *phew

by the time we finally made it to the night dinner, my hair was in a total mess. and the camera's batt all went flat, thus explains most of the pics at tea ceremony and the church wedding.

the photographer has the entire collection by the way, but for him to develop the hundreds of photos taken would take him awhile. so i guess i can only show you whatever we have first. =)

was totally blur like sotong before the big day, but now that i've been through it, anyone who wants me part of their jie mei team, you just have to ask. =)

speaking of which i have another friend's wedding at the end of this year. and maybe my second sista is gonna get married too, if she gets her house of course.

me? nah, not yet.

| My Only Christmas Picture |

...last year in 2006 *lalalala....

| @ the wedding |

didn't manage to get a pic of the wedded couple, but here's us for you! hee =p

| Sale |

today was mango sale preview for members and i didn't make it there because of the darn ASSignments weighing me down.

i even totally forgotten to let both the sistas know about it.

am feeling extremely frustrated that i am unable to take advantage of all these bargains. not that mango clothes are fantastic but all the other sales are also just shouting "BUY me!" at such affordable price!

*sighz

drowning in the pool of ASSignments...

| ASSignments |

the last week of class before a short break for christmas.

ASSignments are due the end of this week and the next, and we're nowhere near done.

no head nor tail.

this lecturer or whatever she's suppose to be really C.M.I.

for a subject so easy and something we've done before, she ended up confusing us and making us even more unsure every week.

it'd be a miracle if we make a distinction for this module.

i give up!

| Retrench |

many changes in the company lately, alot of rebranding going on under the corporate name.

so much re-shuffling going on everywhere, its so scary..and suddenly reality just hit me in the face: people got demoted, people got transferred to far away places and stuff, and these are people whom i know.

i thought i understood how the business world worked, but i guess i'm still not quite up there yet, in terms of maturity i mean.

the office suddenly became so cold, so dry, so heartless...

my boss told me not to worrie and said i'm still safe from now till i get my degree. that was definiely assuring but i can't help but still feel uneasy.

and there's the big sista's wedding and the second sista getting all cranky and stuff...

PLUS the ASSignments and work and politics and relationships....i'm SO breaking down, so tired, so fed up!
because just by doing the ASSignments means i can't do any shopping until the 22nd!!!

enough said, goodnight.

| Great Expectations |

time and time again i tell myself not to have any expectations of the boyfriend, but again and again i failed.

could it be the length of us being together is getting way too abnormal?

this job of his is killing me.

seriously.

his job evolves around him so much so that studies has become secondary, and myself, not even anywhere close!

i got stood up for the umpteen times because of his work. and because i am so pms-ing and unusually hungry, i blew up.

like how he always says when it comes to work, "i can't help it", i'll say it back to you now: blowing my top was something i couldn't help it either.

seriously, think about doing different subjects next semester.

| Block |

think i left school for too long, can't seem to be able to clearly write what is expected of me anymore.

i'm so drowning in both my ASSignments...

have already been there and done most of these stuff before, but i just dun see what is wrong!

they call it writer's block.

| Yours Truly |

| Why |

dear all, you know why i haven't been blogging so actively as before?? here's why:

received this mail late last week and it totally made everyone super sianz...

Users of XxxxxxxXxxXxx systems are reminded that under our Corporate Information Protection Policy, IT User Security Guidelines, access to the Internet is for official purposes only and access to web-based email services is prohibited.

Action has been recently taken against employees for the download of files for personal use and for visiting web-based email sites.

Corporate IT monitors and logs all Internet activities and will be stepping up our efforts to ensure policy compliance.

These steps are necessary in preventing the unauthorised use of web-based email services. It also aims to ensure that our Internet connectivity remains available for official purposes.

Thank you and regards
Paul Lim
Information Security Administrator
DID +65 6383 xxxx

i mean, what sort of company does this sort of restriction? come on lah, some more you are world number 2 leh...wah piangz~!

C.M.I

anyway, so its been a long time. yeah i've been busy with the hatchday, start of a new sem, new mobile, PMS-ing, the big sista's wedding, the boyfriend's family going abroad and and stuff...

i had a very lovely surprise from the boyfriend for my hatchday. it was simple, sweet and i liked it. most importantly, i had surprises!!!

pics will be up soon!

| Vivo City |

| Summer Semester |

haven't had the mood to blog lately, been incredibly busy, and so lack of sleep ever since the big sista came back last saturday. haven't even had the time to clear my room of all the traces of biz law since the exam was over last week.

news check:

summer sem is starting next week!!!

how hectic. but i can't say i hate it since i have absolutely nothing to do at work now.

i'm back to the time where i have nothing to do at work.

maybe i'm a fast worker or maybe there was never much work to begin with.

*tsk

and the boyfriend seems to have a serious problem. i can't figure what is wrong with him.

ever since he started on this new job of his, like it takes main priority over everything else and i can't stand it!!!

he sarcastically tells me how free i am at work and if ever there's retrenchment, i'll be the first to go.

what rubbish?!

i was just ranting and telling him how very bored i was and still am, and that was the kinda response i got.

totally unnecessary.

with this kind of treatment, this sort of attitude, seems like my future with him is slowly fading away...of course there are so much more differences, i just can't possibly pen everything down.

takes time perhaps....time again.

| Over |

all the past year exam papers...all the late nights, arguements, reading and lessons came down to this:

it is over.

finally i can kiss the textbook goodbye and all that is related to law.

though it was interesting, there were much concepts to be learnt and understood, and just like that, its over.

now we shall patiently wait for the results at the end of the month before we heave the final sigh of relief.