third post

my third post of the day, i'm doing nothing at work and time seems to be crawling today. maybe the blues are part of the reason but whatever it is, i'm blogging for the 3rd time, which is a record on its own.
chatted with anqi on msn just now. she's my very good friend, we can really click and all, not to mention she stuck with me through 2 years of poly life, which by the way, has been the best years of my life. it was about boyfriend problem and all. not that i'm not comfortable blogging about it, but i think i should respect her privacy and not shout it out to the world. *shhh..keeping secret*
anyway, i just think that love can be so irrational, and sometimes it can even go to the extent of blinding you. its amazing what love can do, of course in some cases, it would be lust. but the essence of it is that i feel sorrie for those who cannot think with their heads yet feel with their hearts, its sad. in my opinion, everyone deserves to love and be loved, but sometimes people (especially the female species) love too deeply that they sometimes forget they need to be loved as well. they end up getting hurt because over time, their partners are so used to being loved, they are unable to love you back with the same capacity. maybe that's why there are so many sappy chinese songs about i-love-you-that's-why-i-have-to -let-you-go kinda thing? never used to understand those stupid love songs, but guess i do now.
and yet there are others who would love truly madly deeply (for those of you who don't already know this, i hate that song! *fuming*), who would get emotional if there's gonna be a seperation, or is already seperated and would cry when their overseas-training dear calls?
ah..the paradox of life.