| Emotional Baggage |

i was there for the first time after one year.

the place felt very strange and foreign though it had only been a year.

coincidentally it was their second anniversary, and i wondered what their plan was this year round.

i kept asking the boyfriend if i should just drop by to say hi. i was after all, just downstairs having dinner.

when i finally had the boyfriend and his friend's support, i chickened out when i reached the highest floor.

all the past feelings and emotions rushed back in the instance i stood in the hallway. i couldn't, i still didn't have the strength to go back to the past.

that's one emotional baggage i thought i had let go.

the other i realised, was when i left the youth ministry 6-7 years ago.

i have to relinquish these 2 emotional baggages before i can finally be free and find true happiness.

and that is something i have to work out on my own, with the help of the closest people around me.