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Let me rave about how bad i'm feeling right now.

it's the decisive force again. Always taking my boy away, on weekends!!! Why can't they let him go? it's been so long already, and he's also almost ORD-ing, I just dun see why they can't let him off.

Duty after duty after duty. How much longer do I have to put up with this? I understand his position, I understand their position, i'm just frustrated i can't get to be with him this weekend again. i'll only get to see him on Sunday afternoon, late afternoon that is, like when my weekends are almost over. And then the next weekend is the same. This sux. i have nothing more to look forward too anymore.

*sigh

and now I have no more motivation to work or to do anything else because i'm feeling so down.

Jesus said to look to Him for anything. He's talking to me. I should, and stop leaning on men.