::Premonition::

when two hearts beat as one, telepathy exists. yesterday's bad feeling proved to be accurate when i received my usual phonecall from my baby in the night. he sounded terrible, as if in alot of pain. when asked what's wrong, his answer was a soft "i fell". immediately my heart sank. i wanted so much to rush over to the dreaded island to be with him, but the only comfort he was to get from me was my voice.
with my body system breaking down as well, i couldn't offer much except a "i will be here for you anytime you need me". i prayed and i asked for God's blessing to be upon him. worried-stricken and with no news from him, i fretted until i finally saw a message this morning that he was on the way to the MO. after an x-ray confirming no bone fracture, he's been instructed to rest well and to avoid exercise for the next three days. moreover, a three-day outfield camp awaits him this friday, which explains why he'll be confined. how can i not worry? how can i remain calm? how can i not fret about his health? but no matter what happens, he'll still be the strongest guy i've ever known, and most importantly, he'll still be my hero.
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at work - today hasn't been exactly a good day.
1. got told off because i came in 5 minutes earlier, i was suppose to be 10 minutes earlier. why issit that my effort isn't appreciated?
2. i haven't been feeling well the past week but i have been struggling to come to work, trying not to absent myself because we have a seminar this coming saturday, and alot of preparation has to be done.
3. i greeted the members when i came in, acknowledged them with a smile and said a soft hi because i haven't been feeling well. but got told off because he didn't hear, he didn't know.
i feel so accused and so unappreciated. i should really consider sending in my resignation letter. i don't need this job.
only at 5 plus did they finally realise i'm very sick and asked if i wanna go home, sarcastically. why should i try so hard? why should i care so much? i should have just gone to the doc to asked for MC and get the company to reimburse as usual. look what i got in return? lousy treatment and i got told off. if this is the kind of treatment i have to bear in order for me to go to Japan, i would rather skip it. i can jolly well earn myself a trip there in the near future. even as i'm typing this, my body is feverish and my head is spinning real bad. i'm almost frozen because of the darn air-con and its still about 2 hours away from knock-off time. i'm so going to the doc straight after work. i hate this place! i need a break!