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skipped church today because I couldn’t find anyone to accompany me, and going alone would only make me cry and miss my baby even more. maybe next week, i'll try to find somebody.
so here I am, alone on a sunday (because everyone went out) with just my puppy who is sleeping, as usual. my dad was the last to leave the house, and before he left, he came into my room and told me he was gonna be out for awhile. I nodded my head. when he saw what I was doing, he said to me, “I know you miss daniel very much, but no choice, every boy has to do this. a while more and you’ll see him soon.” I burst when I heard those comforting words coming from my dad. but he didn’t see me cry, I couldn’t let him because I know my daddy’s heart would break. I was on the floor, looking at our photographs together. in that album had loads of pictures we took together, and I was trying to put in some more pictures which he had given me the day before he left.
I miss him so badly. its not that bad when I’m working, because I have things to do, and people to talk to. but now that I’m alone, the emotions are running high and getting so unbearable. I thank the Lord for my parents, for my family. they’ve been really sweet to me. knowing how much I miss my boyfriend, they let me use the phone when he calls, and they bring me to my favourite places for dinner. last thursday, the day after my boyfriend went into tekong, my parents brought me to boat quay, just to see the colorful dragon made of lantern, lining up the whole river, hoping that it’ll brighten me up. It did and I’m so thankful for them.
I don’t think there’ll ever be a day where I’ll be able to live my life without my boyfriend. he means the world to me. I’ll dry my tears now, and stop crying. If he ever knew how much I’ve been crying, his heart would break too. Because like my daddy, he loves me that much.