::dear's blog::

just been to my dear's blog, and realised that i'm not as great as he made me out to be. "her language and layout could really put my blog down" nonsense. i think my dear's site is a fantastic one, i really do. it has all his priceless moments, whether its about his work, friends, or me. i dropped a tear when i saw his last entry, just days before his enlistment. yah i'm missing him again..every minute of my waking hours. and all along, i've been so caught up with missing him, i forgot he's been missing me as well. it was only last night that i realised that he does too, even more if i may add. he asked me to take a self-portrait on my mobile and send it to him last night. and he was so excited when he received it. i asked him why and he said, for the first time in the past week, that it was because he missed me. warmth just gushed into my body even as i was in the freezing train. and tears almost filled my eyes again. a sense of guilt at that moment. i've been too selfish. everything's always been about me, never him. how could i, his dearest, neglect how he's been feeling? guilty as charged.
so i've decided, to be more selfless now. to be more understanding, more patient and more accomodating, and most of all, show him all the love my little heart can give.