::bimbo::

i was just told that i actually look and sound like a bimbo? that, of course is a superficial comment. but it's pretty disturbing to hear that from a friend. alright, maybe she doesn't know me well enough. people who don't know me personally would think so i guess. like my sisters, they think i'm such a bimbo as well, needless to say, i'm furious but what can i do? its perception.
maybe i should explain where i got my accent from. i am an IJ girl from katong convent. my primary and secondary education were from there. they have quite high standards with regards to english language, and i was taught, from young, to speak and to articulate each word with a certain degree of accuracy. maybe also when i was a little girl, i love imitating people on television and i would learn to speak like them. over time, my speech has become somewhat better than an average singaporean. yes i admit i have an accent, i can't help it? i try to maintain my singlish, but when i'm with my old-time friends, family, and even with my dear, i still tend to have an accent? another reason would probably be my past churches. people there speak really well, and with an accent of course. somehow i just got influenced. its not intentional, and its definitely not because i'm a bimbo, its also not because i'm a poser and a wanna-be, its just the way i am since i was a little girl. if you guys can't take it, too bad.
anywayz, decided to post a picture of nicole and myself. this was taken in taka, about a week back, when my dear was still with me. he was the photographer by the way, which explains my wide, happy and contented smile. i really miss him, i miss him so much i could hardly breathe. but i'm trying, learning and living each day at a time, and counting the days till i can see him again. :)