::back at work::

i'm back at work after two days' leave. everything feels a little different. almost forgot the way to work. but i managed to get here nevertheless. was slightly late but i guess it's ok.
i'm still emotional, and a little teary-eyed. still not used to my deardear not here with me. but i'm learning independence, and learning to stand on my own. he's always pampering me, i'm utterly spoilt by him. like a prince to his princess, he always gives me the best. i miss him badly, and i still have 9 more days before i see him again. *yay*
he was late for his enlistment yesterday. it was scheduled at 2pm, and it was stated that transport would be provided from 1-1.30pm. i guess by some strange reason, we missed that sentence even after reading it for the hundredth time. so we got there at 1.45pm, and the nasty officer said it was too late, the bus left, and the ferry would have already left as well. we wanted to race down to the ferry terminal with a cab, but that horrible guy said it was no use. fine, so we had to wait with the 3pm batch. all in all, we were late for an hour. never mind. what i could not and cannot accept was that, robbie han, his group-mate in the final semester, the disgusting guy who tried to get into my boyfriend's group (because their group was almost the best), and who eventually did after buying over yang and zhongli, the guy who was also scheduled the same enlistment day and time with my boyfriend, didn't inform him when he didn't see my boyfriend there. ok, give him the benefit of doubt you say, fine. maybe its because the crowd was crazy, and somehow, he just didn't see my boyfriend, and couldn't find him even though he must be at least 1.75m? acceptable. but what about the innovation called mobile? it would have been impossible for my boyfriend to miss his call, that is, if he even did try in the first place. it would have also been impossible if his battery was flat because any sane guy would have fully charged his battery before entering the island where chargers aren't allowed for the first 3 weeks. amazing. i'm lost for words for that guy. he totally just cared for himself, and didn't bother about anyone else. how disgustingly selfish is that? but i'm glad my dear witnessed for himself, how much a 'friend' robbie is. and we understand now, why we were late. it was in God's plan. it was in His mighty plan to let us miss that sentence, just so we would be late and see how selfish that guy is, and warned us about the contempt this guy has in his selfish black heart. wicked.
if he had even bothered to give my boyfriend a call at 1.30pm when he was boarding the bus, we would have still made it to the ferry terminal on our own and got to the island and per planned. never mind.
lesson learnt: everything happens for a reason. you may not see the reason immediately, but as long as you meditate on God's mercy, you will realise how wise and sovereign our Father is in heaven! in my da-jie's email to my deardear, she specifically mentioned one sentence, which would teach the both of us a lesson we would remember for life, "everything happens for a reason". i thank God for His wisdom, and i thank God for using my big sister as an instrument. thanx big sis/bro, i owe you guys one! ;p

goodbye

i've decided to make some changes to my previous post, for the simple reason that i don't want anyone reading to misunderstand. anyway, that post is history. period.
it has been a long day today. now that i finally have the time to blog, i can't seem to relate the happenings. everything was moving too fast, all i remember was my heart breaking a few times, and finally, when i had to say goodbye. the pain was so unbearable, thinking back, it brings tears to my eyes again. with the sea breeze blowing in my face as i walked down alone with his parents and sister to the ferry, that was the first time he wasn't there to go home with me, the first time that he couldn't hold my hand. and i was just so so extremely sad. couldn't stop crying. he loves me so much, and i'm convinced nobody else in this world could love me this much. come to think of it, i'm a very fortunate girl. my first boyfriend, my first relationship, and it lasted this long. i believe in him, and i believe in our relationship, we will make it. right now, i just pray that he will be able to adapt to his military life, and that his BMT will go through smoothly. i pray my love will be enough to see him through his darkest times, and i pray he knows i'm here for him, in Jesus' name.

last 3 hours

all the planning, all the anticipation, all the wise advices, all comes down to this moment. in less than 3 hours' time, i will personally hand my boy over to the nation. i'm really proud of him. it's finally his time to serve the nation.
all the best, to the most important guy in my life.

last pic

my last few hours with my dear. this pic will probably be one of the last? it was taken with my new mobile. i guess to a certain extent, i've learnt to accept reality but i'm definitely not happy about it. i will try my very best to be strong though. cheerios people, i will be fine. promise.

tired

i'm feeling really tired at 4.54pm in the afternoon. i wanna sleep!!! *dreaming about my bed* anyway, the mooncake festival party thingy is gonna be starting in about an hours' time and the highlight of it: the FOOD! yesh!!! yah i know i'm a real glutton but i'm trying real hard to control my mouth. honest. so the decoration is more or less done, nicole and i did most of it, with a little of jeff's help lah. we're stoning and waiting for 6.30pm to come so that people will start coming in, so the food will come in as well *crafty expression*, and then we would get a little busy, so time will move faster.
oh yah, there's this huge boil on my back, and i'm trying real hard not to let it come into any contact with my clothes and bra strap coz its damn painful. note the italic. this means i've been too heaty, snacking on all the nonsense food, my body's all heated up and ta-da, a boil. *sigh* gotta find a way to stop my mouth. i seriously need to go on a diet.

new hp

in the midst of my "parting is such sweet sorrow", i am actually happy. make a guess?
1. issit because i finally bought my dream handphone, samsung E700A limited edition (red color)?
2. or issit because my daddy allows me to camp over at my boyfriend's house?
3. or issit because i am on 2 days leave and i can finally take a break from this office?
answer: YESH to all!!! heehee
bought my dream phone on saturday, its a limited edition color with only 30,000 pieces in singapore. when i called M1 on saturday morning, they were only left with 10 sets. i almost died when i heard it. needless to say, starhub and singtel is already sold out, which makes M1 the sole distributor left! so i asked how's their reservation system like, but they only allow reservation for the day. darn! how could this be? knowing how packed all these phone subscribers are on weekends, if i hadn't reserve one set, i'd probably won't stand a chance with that phone. so after work, we headed straight to taka's M1 and got it. hee *all smiles*
we got home after that, and waited for my boyfriend's cousin, who is a financial advisor, to explain certain policies which my dear was interested in. after an hour or so, it was decided. he signed the documents and is insured from now on. i know what you guys must be thinking about: that i forced him to sign the papers and named me as his sole beneficiary right? *feeling accused* no that wasn't true. he just thought it was time to get a policy for national service lah. clear those evil thoughts this instance!
and yesterday we went church. after a long break, we finally managed to attend the final church service before another 3 long weeks, to ask for the Father's blessings. and i know He will watch over my boy for me.

saturday

i hate the mornings on my way to work! i'm forced to have morning exercise because i have to run for the bus?! argh! *fuming with fangs showing* and i get all sweaty and sticky after that. this is why i try not to bathe in the mornings? *cheeky grin* but i don't smell, honest. *PrincessWylyn's angelic smile"
anywayz, as you can see on my blog, i did some changes to it. heehe, hope whoever's reading my blog would like it and drop me a line? tell me if i'm doing ok alright? nobody ever blesses me except for a few of my friends, who by the way, also stopped doing that a long time ago. *sob sob, starts tearing* well, hope you guys can take a hint. ;p
alright, coming back to reality, its my last 4 days with my baby, and frankly speaking, i dunno if i'll be able to hold back my tears when i have to part with him on that dreaded island. *crying big time* the thought of it brings tears to my eyes...he has told me to be strong for him, but i just can't help it...darn! see, now i can't blog anymore. later then pple...

before lunch

my mouth is busy munching on sunsweet's california pitted prunes as i'm typing. alot of things are going through this brain of mine, again i'm lost for words and i have no idea where to begin. i'm a thinking person, that's good of course, but i'm thinking so much, i have no way of letting it out except via blogging.
chatted with anqi on msn, and again there were new insights to life that i stumbled upon.
what is beauty? what does it mean when someone gives a comment like "you're a pretty girl"? i dunno. beauty cannot be measured, nor can it be counted. yet this word is used so sparingly and given so freely. don't be mistaken, i am not offended when i receive a compliment like that, its just that i start to think if that person sincerely meant it or was that just a superficial comment. and no this post is not aimed at anyone in particular, just that it aroused my thinking juices. but well, i guess beauty will always be in the eyes of the beholder.
another issue that i would like to discuss about is God's will, or fate in laymen's term. my devotion today talks about how God arranges everything in life, and nothing in this world is by chance. everything that happens in our daily lives, the people in our lives, and friends, are all arranged by Him and His gift to us. then it made me realise that what i have now, may not stay with me forever because it may be in His sovereign plan to take it away and give me something else. and this gives me the enlightenment that God controls everything. He decides if what we have now is the best for us because He's our Fatther, and whatever He decides will only make us happy.
*PrincessWylyn bows after her explicit and impressive discussion*

1st post

i finally have some time to myself after being screamed at for numbers that doesn't tally with the inventory report. i never had experience with stock-taking, what do you expect? *silent sob* my blog is also recovering from all the nudity it was exposed to due to yesterday's server problem on 1asphost. i have so many things to write about but i dunno where to start. *collecting my thoughts* i think i'd better do it in a list form (like how i always do) in case i get lost halfway and start blabbering nonsense.
1. work is definitely beginning to sux big time. i'm glad i have nicole with me, but its not all that nice in here. believe me, i might just quit by the end of this year, go to SIM as planned to do my bachelor and skip the all-expense-paid japan trip which i've been promised.
2. still deciding on which uni to further my studies. i'm caught between stability of the local institute versus the establishment of the overseas univeristy.
3. also haven't made up my mind if i wanna make big my birthday this year. key to the freedom they say, but what's holding me back is the unpredictable book-outs of my soon-to-be-soldier-boyfriend. all else will fail if he fails to turn up. adding on to my doubts, my big sis and bro-in-law wouldn't be around to celebrate with me coz they're like in aussie and won't be back till jan 2005. *sigh* but i still have about less than 2 months before i make up my mind.
4. my mobile is screwed up. it died on me 3 times this morning when i was on the phone with my dear. amazing right? i almost died! it felt as if someone or something was playing a fool with me. freaky. all the more reason for me to buy my dream phone? yesh! *jumping up and down delirious with joy*
5. haven't spoken to my dad regarding 'camping' over at my dear's house the nights before D-day. dunno if he'll allow, dunno if he'll yell at me, dunno if he'll ground me and lock me up in my room, dunno if he'll faint on the spot, dunno how he'll react but i pray for the best. wish me luck! ;p
6. there's this darn mooncake festival celebration that my office is gonna be organising on the 27th of this month. and because of this event, i couldn't go on leave consecutively from the 27-29th. so i just have to make do with the 28-29th. sianz.
7. back on the topic of my work again, my bosses keep making me do stupid stuff and do stuff that males do. man, i'm a fragile girl!
8. and they also keep buying food for me to eat, i thank my lucky stars for that, but i need to keep my figure?! and i would rather not eat it so i won't have to do those masculine job. *irks*
9. there's no more number 9 coz i can't think of anything anymore.
10. needless to say, number 10 doesn't exist. hahaha!! *evil laughter*

something wrong with my blog

well, as you can see, there's obviously something wrong with my blog because half my pictures are gone!! my 1asphost (where i host my pictures) says i've exceeded the given quota of 1000mb?! oh please, i hardly even used up 1mb, i feel so accused and maligned! *feeling hurt* my poor blog looks so ugly without pictures, and my poor mouse without the hearts, oh man, it looks so bare! argh! and they will only allow hosting after 12 hours?! bear with me ok people? :(

after lunch

its after lunch, and i'm getting bored, and sleepy, and tired and i wanna just stone and shut down. i'm still hungry *tongue sticking out*, and i dunno why *shrugs*. it was a 6-inch long honey oat bread with turkey breast and ham sandwich from subway, and needless to say, it was good, but doesn't look like its enough for a petite gal like me huh? *pouts*
well since i'm still on the topic of food, i'll just give you a rundown on my top 10 best food places in singapore? heh heh (its in random order), so here goes:
1. as mentioned, country manna is good for their country-style pastry chicken soup and aloe vera lime juice
2. kenny rogers' cheesy macaroni and their country-style baked chicken
3. pasta cafe's calamari and their various pasta. they're basically real good with their pasta, so any one you pick off the menu is good
4. marche's soft-shell crabs. not bad, nice coating, but the reason why i like it is because they're thoroughly deep-fried so its alot easier to just eat the whole thing down
5. no signboard's chilli crabs and cereal prawns. good stuff! huge and fresh! *starts drooling again*
6. chinatown (people's park) hawker center is good for their fish head bee hoon, raw fish, and the 3 sisters' claypot chicken rice
7. bedok north block 85 market. they have the best minced meat noodles and bbq chicken wings, but you'll have to know which is the best stall coz there are simply too many posers out there.
8. changi village is famous for its nasi lemak, ipoh kway teow and lastly their pineapple water where there are grated pineapple bits in them. ah, love it!
9. geylang lor 25 is good for its mushroom noodles or wantan mee. the malay stall next to it is also good for its longtong. but this stall only starts operation at 10pm all the way till the morning, so make sure your timing is right.
10. changi airport food court has very good food like beef ball noodles (its hainanese), roti john, duck rice, handmade noodles and also the nasi padang/malay rice.
actually there's more, but if i go on, i might just bore you, so maybe the next time, i'll let you in on good food around southeast asia? heehee. ;p

lunch

i'm waiting for my lunch to come back, i'm starving man! *oinks like a pig* yah we usually have our lunch in the office because firstly i can save money on drinks, and secondly, i don't have to snatch for seats and look like an 'obasang' (it means auntie in japanese).
so i'll be having subway for lunch *yummy* and the filling that i have finally decided on (after being spoilt for so many choice) would be turkey breast and ham *starts drooling*. oh i just can't wait for my food!
you know, i have often wondered how i can still maintain my petite size and figure ("what figure?" some of you may ask, oh well, ask my dear?) after stuffing myself like a full-grown pig at every meal. *sigh* i wonder too. for instance, there was once i was out with my dear at tampines mall (we met after breakfast). and as soon as we got there, we went to country manna and had their country style baked pastry chicken soup *more drooling and salivating big time*, buffalo wings and the lime juice with aloe vera pulp (by the way, the pulps are like huge and very juicy - highly recommended! i'll give 4 outta 5 stars for that). i prefer country manna's sides more than their main course because if you're talking about roasted country style chicken, i think kenny rogers would taste better. oh man, i better stop talking about food before i faint due to excessive salivating. shall have my lunch now (my lunch is here by the way! *yippy*) and continue later. don't worrie, i will definitely let you guys in on how good my food is gonna be. *cleaning up my drool*

to dajie/kevin

this post is specially dedicated to dajie and kevin kor dearest who are in aussie studying and enjoying life together. ;p enjoy! (p.s, pls leave me a comment or two hor)

this is my russ russ boy (yes he's a boy, so girlie right?), look at his sad face *aaawww*. he's been waiting for his dinner since eons but his chef, my dad, always makes sure his rice, meat and especially carrots, are thoroughly boiled and softens before serving it to him. the lucky dog!

this is him, after dinner, in his sponge bed, getting ready to nu-nu (it means sleep in his lingo), but his ever watchful bright eyes are brimming, always ready for action (play).

his curious little nose, trying to figure out what is behind my door.

letting curiosity take control, he got out of his bed, and tried even harder to see what's behind my door.

knowing it was my hand, he let out a handsome smile. :) (credit goes to my deardear who was the photographer of the day)

final post

final post of the day before i end work, i'm snacking on soft-shell crab as i'm blogging *feeling bloated, full and like a fat pig*. my boss gave me money, told me to go downstairs to isetan to get some nice soft-shell crab, prawns and fish coz the supermarket is having some kind of japanese food fair. and its really good. *thumbs up*
i'm looking forward for my movie which is in about 2 hours' time, and i'm wondering what we should have for dinner, hmmmm...*stressing over dinner again*
anywayz, i think i'm starting to have second thoughts about this job. because:
1. i have no job satisfaction. i mean, how satisfied can i be by just sitting here all day long and pretending to be busy when i'm actually freaking free and like blogging all day long?! but looking on the bright side, i'm getting paid for surfing the net. *evil laughter*
2. my bosses are nice people, but they are also quite afraid to let me do certain things like learning how to do certain reports from the database and everything has to be gone through by the lady boss. i'm a fast learner you know? if you're willing to teach me stuff, i can actually be of value to the company?
3. the marketing director from indonesia is a nice lady. but i guess she's a little old and takes some things for granted, but she's ok, really. but the bosses don't think so and they kinda like told us off for doing things for her? i mean like comon man, as the bosses, you guys should be the ones talking to her, and not telling us off. we are only puny staff in the company and you want us to be the ones to tell the marketing director off?! unbelievable! they always put me on the spot, just like the case with nicole. if you're unhappy with her performance, go tell her what you expect of her, why go through me? like as if i'm somebody big like that. and they made nicole misunderstand and think i'm some kind of bossy freak who throws her weight around?! madness. totally ruin my reputation and nearly caused a friendship.*sighz*

third post

my third post of the day, i'm doing nothing at work and time seems to be crawling today. maybe the blues are part of the reason but whatever it is, i'm blogging for the 3rd time, which is a record on its own.
chatted with anqi on msn just now. she's my very good friend, we can really click and all, not to mention she stuck with me through 2 years of poly life, which by the way, has been the best years of my life. it was about boyfriend problem and all. not that i'm not comfortable blogging about it, but i think i should respect her privacy and not shout it out to the world. *shhh..keeping secret*
anyway, i just think that love can be so irrational, and sometimes it can even go to the extent of blinding you. its amazing what love can do, of course in some cases, it would be lust. but the essence of it is that i feel sorrie for those who cannot think with their heads yet feel with their hearts, its sad. in my opinion, everyone deserves to love and be loved, but sometimes people (especially the female species) love too deeply that they sometimes forget they need to be loved as well. they end up getting hurt because over time, their partners are so used to being loved, they are unable to love you back with the same capacity. maybe that's why there are so many sappy chinese songs about i-love-you-that's-why-i-have-to -let-you-go kinda thing? never used to understand those stupid love songs, but guess i do now.
and yet there are others who would love truly madly deeply (for those of you who don't already know this, i hate that song! *fuming*), who would get emotional if there's gonna be a seperation, or is already seperated and would cry when their overseas-training dear calls?
ah..the paradox of life.

dear and me

just thought of uploading a picture of dear and myself. this picture was taken on jianyi's birthday, at the esplanade, after a heavy lunch at Ichiban. 9 days more, and i'll have to say goodbye to him on tekong. *starts tearing*

updates on the weekends

i was punctual today! not that wow lah but at least i made an effort. *crowd applauding for effort made*
well, i'm having the blues, which explains why i feel quite expressionless. some new changes to my blog: if you'd noticed, i have the archiving thingy on the right column. *yay* my dear did it for me yesterday, hopefully its auto or i would have to "write scripts" again (if you know what i mean).

oh yah, finally remember what i was suppose to post today. updates of the weekends. here goes:
1. we went to chinablack as per planned, with dear's friends. wasn't as happening as i would have liked it to be. part of the reason was because my friends weren't around? so yah, i guess that's the result you'll get when you plus one gal to 3 guys, and the gal is already taken. *evil laughter*
2. the music wasn't as great as the first time we were there, it kinda had trance fusion with r&b and retro, weird combi but turned out fine in the end.
3. i got a bit tipsy after one glass of vodka ribena?! should really train up and learn how to hold my liquor well in case dirty old men wanna try to be funny. but i guess the best bet in the club is still to go with your dear, and try not to touch too much alcohol. but the vodka content was way too strong lorz! *protesting*
4. after countless powerful scans in the club, dear's friends had their radar fixed on certain gals, but they didn't make their move. hmmm, i wonder why? (jianyi, you're welcome to comment on my blog, heh heh!).
5. and finally, the night ended when we decided to have supper at jackson's kopi-tiam. *yay! pigging session again*

and on sunday, did my laundry for the week, went over to deardear's house to spend some quality time with him, where he did the archiving for my blog, hee!
sunday night, mommy dearest whipped up a sumptuous dinner for everyone. and so did my dad when he prepared dinner for russ russ boy (pics should be coming up soon on that, especially for da-jie and kevin kor dearest who are in aussie), love you guys!

::early::

*...ahem...proudly annoucing* i was early today! *lotsa of cheers and claps* and there are a couple of reasons why i was 10 minutes early today:
1. my dear woke up early today, came over and started pressurizing me to 'hurry up!' walked me to the bus-stop, and waited for the bus with me. how sweet right? *aaawww*
2. the coast was cleared of 'ah-pin kors' (wonder where all of them went, maybe all kena confinement, heh heh!)
3. i woke up extra early like how i said i would, i did but i decided to skip morning shower (no i do not smell or stink), just so i could give my puppy his favourite biscuits and also belly-rub him, heh heh! :P

you know, being early feels good because you can happily stroll from the mrt station to your office building and yet not flinch an inch when people around you are rushing for their lives! a big laugh at them, HAHAHA!!!
another happy thing is that i'll be clubbing tonight at chinablack with dear and his friends. wonder if any of them are gonna make their moves on any gals they set their eye on..hmmm *cheeky grin* i'll update you on that! wish us fun!

another bad day at work

another bad day at work. i got told off because i've been late this whole week. well, though i hate to admit it, i guess somehow i deserve that. it wasn't harsh but i felt that maybe they could have given me another chance? but yah yah, i know, they've been giving me lotsa chances when they turned a blind eye to my late-coming for the past couple of weeks. just that i guess the feeling of being told off isn't nice and i definitely don't enjoy it?! *sigh*
so tomorrow, i will strive harder to be on time *yesh i will make it*, but i'm freaking slow motion in the mornings!!! argh!!! and tomorrow is saturday, its where all the 'ah-pin kors' from tekong get to book out for the weekends, and they all freaking walk in one bunch after another, like a herd of cows, with their big green haversack oblivious to their surroundings, and my tiny voice screaming out "excuse me" still wouldn't get their attention! oh man, i have a bad feeling about this, maybe i'll get a warning letter soon, maybe my boss will yell at me again?! *getting paranoid and freaking out* alright, calm down *after slapping myself silly*. i'll be ok. i will be punctual, i will leave the house earlier, i will wake up earlier, and i will not bother to play with my puppy, nor will i give him his favourite biscuits even though he looks at me so lovingly, like the world's cutest puppy, oh man, yes i will make it. believe me.

on the bus

its finally thursday, but the weekends are still crawling, i can barely see it coming. this week has been long, i'm so tired because its that time of the month and all, i haven't really been getting my well-deserve rest. *pouts*
and yesterday's ktv session with dear and his colleagues wasn't exactly the most happening event because most of them were like aunties and they were just pure loud, and rude if i may add (i better hope none of them knows that i blog and comes to my site to read? *wishing real hard*). alright, i take back what i just said. they are actually quite nice people, but maybe because i was super tired last night, everything felt wrong. i hardly even know them, but dear kept asking me to sing. i'm real uncomfortable with strangers, or people i don't know well, and to even make me sing in front of them, was a big no-no. i did eventually, because i didn't want to make my baby upset (he thinks i can really sing, and he wanted me to wow his colleagues, but my nerves got the better of me, and i didn't do a good job *tongue sticking out*). guess that's the way i am. but they left soon after, cleared the bill and left us to sing until about midnight. and as usual, i could sing better with just my dear, and yes i'm aware he's my only ardent fan, haha! isn't he just adorable? *adoring my baby*

so because of last night and all the events that had happened along the week, i was so tired that i was napping on the train this morning on my way to work, and i was suddenly awakened by a series of mobile phone conversations.
this thai man, and this lady obviously from mainland china (not that i despise them, but sometimes their actions are just too eye or ear-catching, its hard to miss it), both on their mobile talking.
you know its funny how you can just see the big contrast between those two people who are from two ends of the world (alright, maybe not that far away, but still a huge difference), their culture and lifestyle, its amusing.
the thailander was as polite as ever (thailanders are really polite people, almost like japanese, even the way thai men speak, its with the utmost gentleness), and the chinese was just screaming and yelling on the phone in the train?! *mouth wide open* i couldn't believe my eyes and my ears when i saw and heard her like yelling just because her lousy mobile had bad reception (i was so ashamed to be a chinese at that point in time i just looked away and tried to hide so that i would not be identified together with the rest of the people on the train who are also chinese). amazing! *mouth still wide open* unbelievable! thankfully after that episode, it was my stop to transfer to the north-south line. some people...*shaking head*