apart from my long weekend which ended almost close to perfection, something major had also happened in my life that fateful night now that i am another year older. i am engaged! *loud applause* 
now i am officially known as Daniel Lim's future wife-to-be, meaning fiancee, meaning we are betrothed. *PrincessWylyn bows* i am happy, excited and proud, i love him so much, and i dun care about what other people have to say. we may be young, but we've come a long way, in a longer relationship than most couples my age, and this engagement couldn't come any more timely. three and a half years into our relationship, and we're maturing into young adults, responsible and accountable to our families, and most importantly to one another. i received a message from him this morning which sent tears trickling down again. it read,
A promise of marriage i make to you.
To wed with you and live with you.
May our engagement be filled with love, happiness and trust.
Always will i love you dear. :)
according to ROM there is no legal provision for engagement. in the context of marriage, engagement is a promise to marry made between two individuals. and so the announcement was made, for all to witness, this promise which we will carry, until the day we say 'i do'.
my dog bit me last night when i tried to carry him home from the car. and now i have this huge bruise on my left hand, damn! his sharp teeth tore open my flesh and i bled. *mouth wide open* it swelled up too ya know?! *pouts* and i have a manicure session tonight after work, i'm doing it just for my birthday, to beautify myself, and now my hands are gonna be so ugly! *holding back tears* i'm so angry! *fuming* but i gave him a piece of my mind, and slapped his tiny face. he got me so mad i just had to teach him a lesson so that he'll know never to try to bite me again.
prior to that, my parents brought me to changi v for dinner last night to have my favourite ipoh kway teow, hee! *drooling* and i guess there's no such thing as free stuff anymore, because there was a hidden intention. make a guess, its not that hard. they practically compelled me to invite my horrible sister and her horrible boyfriend to my party! why should i? i was really fuming last night, i told my dad i hated him and i will never forgive what he has said to me. and at that very instance, my mind was greeted with this daily bread entry that i came across about a week ago. dated 11th november, it talked about the significance of the cross and the death that Jesus willingly accepted. the physical suffering was horrible beyond comprehension, and the worst aspect was the seperation from the Father. in his book, Dare to Believe, Dan Baumann wrote, "we have perhaps unwisely and sometimes unconsciously galmorized the cross. jewelry and steeples alike are often ornamental and attractive but carry nothing of the real story of crucifixtion. it was the most painful method of public death in the first century. the victim was placed on a wooden cross. nails...were driven into the hands and feet of the victim, and then the cross was lifted and jarred into the ground, tearing the flesh of the crucified and racking his body with excruciating pain. historians remind us that even the soldiers could not get used to the horrible sight, and often took strong drink to numb their senses." what amazing grace. my eyes were filled with tears when i read this. did you know Jesus still pleaded for the soldiers, chief priests and teachers of the law, for the forgiveness of their sins? at the very moment when nails were being driven into His hands and feet. Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they are doing." Luke 23:34 my heart is filled with awe once again, and once again i thank You. i knew what Jesus wanted me to do, i knew what my dad and mom wanted me to do. but being human, i was unable to let go of the bitterness. i prayed about it, i cried about it, i asked for forgiveness, and i asked Jesus to help me forgive them. even though they will think i'm being a hypocrite and that i'm just pretending, God will know my heart. so that's that.
and so now, they are invited to my party on saturday.
my birthday party's drawing closer and closer, and i feel excited, worried, paranoid, scared and sick about it. how shall i put it? basically just apprehensive i guess. i'm praying that my big sis and my bro-in-law would be able to get seats on the 19th so that they'll be back to attend my party on the 20th. i don't want her and her horrible boyfriend to attend. i'd mentioned before that she's fine, but definitely not him. i was already beginning to accept him before he started insulting me. honestly, what sort of future brother-in-law would bring himself to insult your future wife's sister?! *mouth wide open* yah i know, my point exactly. no matter how much wrong you think i've done to your precious girlfriend, the minute you start hurling abusive words at me, that's it. he's screwed his only chance of ever being accepted by me and my family. wait till my father and mother hears of what he's said about me, he'll be terribly sorrie, he'll wish he never set foot in my house. he had no right, he still doesn't have any right, and he will never have any right. *major eyeroll* enough about him.
so as i was saying, my current strength for my party would be about 30 pax, more actually i think. i'm not that sure because i'm expecting at least 10 people to call me up on that day to tell me they can't make it due to whatever last-minute excuses they can come up with. but i do have a steady number of people confirm coming even if if osaman suddenly decides to bomb costa sands. *tongue sticking out* how crappy can i can? *lol* stress. anyway, for your info, there's not gonna be any games or shows or performances or anything with the likes. its just like an all-you-can-eat-buffet thingy, and a chill-out session, kinda like a catching up period. ok? biscuit and i just booked a manicure session with our tenant downstairs, hollywood secrets, we get a 10% discount! *yay* our lady boss will be joining us too, hee! so let's hope she'll let us off earlier tomorrow so that i can do a pedicure as well. *praying*
it has come to my attention that alot of people actually took my previous wishlist for real. it is not true. i repeat, that was not true. it was a prank intended to scare my deardear, it wasn't my intention for you guys to go to that expense. i will feel bad. so, here's a modified version of my wishlist, a more realistic one if you will.
1) honestly, i do like those stuff i mentioned earlier on from victoria secrets. hee!
2) i wouldn't mind CK's Eternity Moment perfume. note: if anyone's really gonna get this for me, make sure its the smallest bottle ok?
3) i've seen a couple of ladies carrying burberry's handbags and i actually think its quite nice? so yah, this will make number three.
4) Guess wallet. this has been reserved by biscuit (i think) so hands off!
5) think it'd be nice receiving gift vouchers from my favourite brands e.g. morgan, mango, swarovski, guess, SK jewellery etc.
6) one of my birthday wishes is for my baby to book out early this weekend, and that my big sis and my bro-in-law would be able to get back from aussie on time.
7) next wish would be for world peace, and i pray for a stop to animal abuse and animal cruelty of all forms.
8) i do like crystals and jewellery from swarovski but its way over the budget so forget it, besides, not everything from swarovski is nice, so unless you know me really well, or else its ok. but then again, their handphone strap is really sweet, the one with the swan, guess i wouldn't mind accepting that *tongue sticking out*
9) i welcome hugs and any form of hand-made stuff, i would appreciate them very much, really.
10) i've got a sudden fetish for watches, guess watches if you will. but then again, my wrist is really puny, so unless you've really got an eye for good stuff, or else, its really ok. i'd appreciate your thoughts. *smilez*
after all, gifts should come from the heart, not how much they cost. anything from anyone will touch my heart. God bless!
its amazing how someone can be such a poser who tries to steal your style and the way you write and yet pretend like as if it was her own creation?! *blah* oh god, what a poser?! *screaming* i'm going outta my mind! i'm damn sure she drops by my blog every now and then and conveniently adopts some of the use of my words and phrases. i know i wasn't the forefather of the invention of english words, but its the phrases. i'm talking about the use of phrases at the precise timing after i have posted my blog. *major eyeroll* 
in addition, she's has this major identity crisis, she's already 20 for crying out loud! she's lacking her own style and identity, pathetic. *shaking head* like what is she gonna do with her life at this age still mimicking others, she should have already gotten pass the idenitity-crisis-era, its really sad ya know? i really feel for her. my boyfriend knows her too, but he says to just leave her be, and hopefully one day she'll find her real self. *sigh* i hope she knows who she is, and when she reads this post, she'll know i'm directing it at her. like many girls, and i mean lotsa of girls are so envious of my natural dark tan color, note the word, natural. i was born with a dark skin pigmentation, and i tan very easily, and the best part? it stays. i don't have to be like some losers who have to tan twice weekly or more just to keep the color. like comon, if you have a lighter skin pigmentation, just accept it. no matter how hard you try to tan yourself darker, you're just never gonna get it. face it. we're different. *sigh*
last weekend was one of the happiest times of my life, because i had my deardear every step of the way with me! *foolish smile* i've got so much stuff to blog about *screaming* and i've got lotsa pictures of US together! hee *big smile*
::wednesday night, getting ready for a clubbing session which never happened::
::thursday, my birthday dinner at country manna (myself)::
::thursday, my birthday dinner at country manna (my handsome deardear)::
::friday, after work and shopping at levi's::
::deardear with his cute angry face::
::saturday, after work and chilling out session, while waiting for our movie, taxi, which by the way, was really good *lol* (dear's buddies)::
my all-time favourie season is christmas time! the lovely lightings at night along the whole of orchard road is spectacular! a week ago i took a walk down myself and all i felt was loneliness because my baby was confined, but when he was out, he made it a point to walk me down from my office building right down to centrepoint, hee! i love him so much!!!
::at takashimaya, we look SO good together, that's what everyone says!::
::still at taka, outside rather::
::me opposite paragon::
::at tangs, my favourite christmas decor of the year, simplicity is beauty::
::HMV, a.k.a the heeren shops, the view from the top of the shopping centre::
::the christmas tree outside borders, they move and change color!::
::opposite borders, they had this huge christmas tree which was SO beautifully done up::
::finally, another sweet pic of US together::
christmas also reminds us of the death of Christ "for He so loved the world, He gave His only begotton Son, so that we may not perish, but have eternal life" John 3:16 christmas is about the gift of life and we should celebrate it!
::sunday after church, heading for a tim sum buffet hee!::
::my present church, St. Peter's Church, where we have resided for the past one and a half years. we will be shifting back to potong pasir, our new compound at the St. Andrew's Village come january 2005::
::monday after our swim at safra tampines. the swimming complex at tampines central is under renovation until september 2005?! *mouth wide open* anyway, we headed to the airport for lunch after our swim, my favourite ban mian and beef ball noodles! we had swensons banana split and celebrity brownie for dessert, what a pigging session!::
all in all, we had a great, fantastic time with each other. but as all good things must come to an end, so did our long weekend. and now i'm back to missing him again. but its ok, its alright, its gonna be 4 more days to bookout day, bookout day bookout day, yeah! *tongue sticking out*
right now, at this very moment, i am craving for this from haagan daz:
*screaming* i'm so hungry!!! *pouts* am i gonna get it? yes, because deardear said so! hee, so happy!
today i received my first birthday present from my colleague, well sorta. the IT programmer from jarkarta, uncle mu! he got me this really sweet (pink) light peach mini butterfly pendent from swarovski! *screaming* i must have blushed when he gave it to me. he said he wouldn't be able to attend my party, so he got me this gift. i was so touched! and i felt bad too, i mean, he didn't need to get me anything, but the fact that he got me this pendant because he saw me wearing my other swarovski pendant, made me quite speechless. shows that guys can be observant too? *crowd nods in unison* hee, nevertheless, i'm real happy, more to touched i guess. so one down from my wish list. by the way, i spent about 3 hours surfing through the various websites for the things i want/like/would like to own. here goes:
from Victoria Secrets:
1) shearling bootie (pink)
2) halter bra top (black)
3) sheer pajama (black)
from Swarovski:
1) Four-Leaf Clover Pendant (silver)
2) Jet Cross Pendant (black)
3) Clear Crystal Pavé Bracelet
4) Giovanna Bracelet
5) Pavé Bracelet
6) Waves Bracelet
7) Ginger Drop Pierced Earrings
8) Princess Drop Pierced Earrings
9) Meteorite Y-Necklace
10) Pink Pearl Drop Pierced Earrings
11) Double Band Ring (S)
12) Clear Crystal Pavé Ring (S)
13) Rhodium Stackable Ring (S)
14) Brilliant Cut Ring (S)
15) Mobile Phone Heart Charm
16) Mobile Phone Swan Charm
from Guess:
1) Pink Heart Hoops
2) Jet Cascade Earrings
from Tiffany & Co.:
1) Elsa Peretti® Continuous Mini-mini BEAN bracelet
2) Stencil Heart bracelet
3) Pebble bracelet
4) Paloma Picasso® ZIG-ZAG ring
5) Elsa Peretti® Sevillana pendant
6) Petal ring
7) Tiffany Voile ring
8) Paloma Picasso® LOVING HEART ring
*lol* i can almost imagine the look on my baby's face when he sees this wish list. haha! hey, its a wish list after all, meaning i won't get everything i want in here, therefore the term, wishful thinking. *tongue sticking out* alright pple, start saving for my prezzies!
with a long weekend waiting ahead of me, i'm feeling good all over, even though i still have to come back to work today and tomorrow. deardear walked me to the bus-stop in the morning, that's what he usually does when he's out. it would be crazy for him to send me all the way here to orchard and then go home. i wouldn't allow it. alright, updates updates:
1) well, turns out that we didn't go clubbing after all on wednesday, because the queue was simply too "snake-winding" for us to make it anywhere near the entrance. so after waiting for abt 2 hours, we decided to head down to oasis for supper at the taiwan porridge house. the night was pretty well spent if you ask me. because we went for a little stroll by the waterfront after supper.
2) the sun indeed shone brightly for us yesterday and i'm so proud of my boy, he can swim so beautifully now. shows that my hard work paid off. but the pool was just flooded with people, especially children just fooling around, blocking anyone who wanted to have a decent swim. after a short while, we left.
3) after our dip, we went to costa sands resort, where i'll be having my birthday thingy, to confirm the catering stuff. i will only know my chalet unit when i check-in, so let's pray it'll be a good one.
4) deardear ordered my favourite cake for my birthday liao, so happy!
5) oh and yesterday we went shopping and i got myself a couple of tops from mango and topshop. what to do? i'm a topshop member, i have additional discounts for my birthday, and they just sent loads of shopping vouchers for christmas! man, they just want me to keep spending money! and so i "sinfully" did. *tongue sticking out* and because i overspent, i couldn't get my heels from u.r.s and charles & keith, *screaming*! oh and guess what? mango finally decided to come out with its own privilege card. how to get it? $200 in a single receipt. how much is the discount? its only a pathetic 5%. so i guess i'll just look around and see if they have any nice clothes for me to even spend that amount.
6) because i'm also a club levi's member, i get 25% for my birthday as well. man, the sins of shopping. but i decided to let my dear's buds use this 25% instead. dear says i've got too many pairs of levi's jeans, and too much clothes. *tongue sticking out* actually its not that much, probably just a whole wardrobe full of clothes? and my wardrobe is from the brand cupboards, where the length is from the floor to the ceiling, and fake walls are built at the side, to make the sliding door. the width of my wardrobe? 1.7 metres. i shall post a picture of my wardrobe so you'll know what i'm talking about. hee!
7) i feel so sick about my birthday party. i dunno how the day's gonna be like, feel like just closing the whole thing down.
8) yes, after this post, i'm gonna do up my birthday wish-list!
9) i guess my number one worry is still about whether my boyfriend is gonna make it for my birthday weekend or not. *keeping fingers, toes, hands and feet crossed*
10) am i gonna let she and her horrible boyfriend come for my party? in all honesty, i don't think i'll welcome her horrible boyfriend. maybe she's fine, but not her boyfriend, definitely. but knowing my parents, they'll probably force me to invite them. but i dun want too!!! i can't take it! *screaming*
okok, so i'm gonna do up my wish-list now.
i'm on MC again today, the second time in a month, 2 weeks in a row. honestly, how sick can i get? and i feel so bad having to tell my bosses i can't come to work again because my throat is still infected. *sigh* bad feelings aside, i really couldn't get to sleep last night because of the stinging pain in my throat. i kept waking up to drink water but it so did not make me feel any better. and as a result of my "water parade" last night, i ended up visiting the toilet at least a hundred times. so the minute the clock struck 8am, i quickly got outta bed, washed up and went to the clinic downstairs. i knew i needed to do something about the pain. i was already losing my voice yesterday at work and i even threw up all my herbal tea this morning! *mouth wide open* i know i know, and i'm convinced never to try self-medication again. prior to this, i went to the pharmist to get a stronger dose of lozenges and it so didn't help. anyway, the doc was pretty surprised to hear that even though i finished my course of antibiotics, my throat is still infected, only worser this time. so he specifically instructed me to avoid cold and gassy drinks, and even fruits?! i repeated after him just so i heard him right. he said, until i recover from my cough. fine. so after taking my first dosage, i'm feeling alot better in my throat. i mean, duh the pain is definitely still there, but at least it wasn't as sharp as last night. but i'm still coughing quite badly. *sigh* and turns out that the medicine is not drowsy enough! *screaming* i can't get to sleep, so here i am, blogging away. which reminds me, i actually have loads to blog about! *screaming again* okok, calm down. slowly, one by one.
1) my dear's booking out in less than 7 hours' time, so i'm gonna see my dear in less than 7 hours' time! *applause*
2) seems like she and her horrible boyfriend left for KL this morning, and will not return until sunday. *jumping up and down* peace on earth at last!
3) i took some pictures of my little dog to kill my boredom in the morning. and i'm gonna post it up soon! patience, patience. oh did i mention, he's sick and also on medication like me? hee.
4) my party's drawing near, its actually next week! *screaming* oh no, everything's so not prepared, i'm so not prepared! but i've got my leave approved though, hee.
5) i pray for a sunny day tomorrow because i wanna go swimming with my baby! i reckoned part of the reason why i've been so weak the past 2 weeks, and falling sick nonetheless was because i haven't been exercising. so i have too, before my limbs become too stiff.
6) i'm gonna draw up a wish-list for my birthday, so that nice pple like you will not have to rack your brains too hard for my prezzies. *thick-skinned*
7) deardear says we're gonna have an all-you-can-eat meat buffet tomorrow. hmmmm well, i'm not exactly a meat-lover, so i'm not exactly excited about it. but i don't mind, after all, anywhere with him is heaven to me.
8) i've decided that i'm gonna treat my parents for a good meal one of these days (while she's away), to show them i still care and love them, and that they'll always be my heroes even though they're ignoring me.
9) i'm happy happy happy even though i'm sick and my throats' killing me! okok, i'm gonna get some rest now.
10) there's no number 10 because i really need to get some rest now, haha! *tongue sticking out*
::the handsome boy looking as majestic as ever::
::looking so sad and so down::
::gonna fall asleep soon::
::falling asleep any second now::
::sleeping::
today's a really boring day, and time, as usual is crawling. its barely even six! so i've been surfing and came across this website, which is rather interesting. *lol* actually it wasn't me, it was my lady boss. she gave us this website and turns out its pretty cool. so go check it out when you're free and just waiting for the time to go home yah?
i've got the whole weekend packed with loads of activities so i really need to get well. i wanna enjoy every second with him. i wanna enjoy every moment with him. he's my everything and i just can't wait to be in his arms again! *waiting waiting*
came across this little poem while doing my devotion this morning, and i just thought of sharing, hee.
When fear and worry test your faith,
And anxious thoughts assail.
Remember God's in control,
and He will never fail ~ Sper
there you have it, daily bread for your soul!
again i'm sick, again i'm down with throat infection and cough caused by heatiness i guess. and once again i'm feeling so inadequate and so lousy. once again i feel so incompetent that biscuit has to be the one doing all the work, and doing all the explanation. then what do i do? *screaming* the only comforting thing is that my boyfriend's gonna book out tomorrow night!*yay* i'm just so glad we're gonna be getting our old lives back, hee!
and ms lee's son, jack is here. not that i dislike him, he's alright, just that i'm a real lousy host, so i'd prefer not to bring them around?
anyway, back to being sick, i really don't wanna be going to the doctor so often, i hate going to the doctor. i hate eating medicine, but it seems that's the only right thing to do. or should i just rely on my natural immune system to get me back on my feet? *sigh*
i was at angela's house yesterday to see her newborn puppies. there was a total of 4 pups and they were so tiny, 2 black and white ones, and the other 2 were brown and white ones. their eyes weren't even opened yet, and their nose, paws, teeth were not developed yet. one of them even shat! *lol* so adorable! they kept making pup noises, like as if they were having some nightmare, so cute!
::the size of one of them in my arms::
::another one, brown and white, in my arms::
::the actual size of them::
and while i was there, star, their mother, displayed her maternal instincts by breast-feeding her 4 pups. she looked so tired and exhausted while the 4 of them just sucked her. i tried taking more photographs, but the lighting was simply too dim for any good pictures. and later on, when star finished feeding her pups, i went to sayang her. she rolled over as a sign of wanting belly-rub, but her nipples were all red and swollen, some were swollen with milk, and others were swollen due to scratch marks inflicted by her innocent pups. oh God, such is a mother's love. how painful it must have been, i could almost feel her pain back then. which is why, all mothers are great, no matter what. God bless all mothers in this world!
i'm finally blogging after 3 days, i just didn't want pple to be reading how screwed up my life is, and how supposedly loving my family turned out to be. excuse the pun there. anyway, i'm much better, meaning i've come to terms with the fact that my boyfriend's isn't gonna be out this weekend no matter how hard i cry about it, so i might as well just save my tears for other occasions. and i'm also much better with regards to my family, i mean, what else is there left for me to do? emails after emails, even a letter came talking about what a saint she has been, all the sacrifices she's made just for the family, assuming the role of mediator in the family with such a heavy heart. bah, my foot! after my dear reads it, then i'll probably post the letter up so that you nice pple out there can see what grievances i've had to put up with.
enough about them.
my hormones are stabilised, i've survived yet another excruciating cramps *applause*. and my baby's gonna be out on wednesday night. not counting today, it'll be another 3 more nights before i get to see him, feel him, hold him in my arms *applause even louder*. yesh, i'm a survivor! so last night, i went to my ex-classmates' birthday party at downtown east. the place was just infested with little young punks, most of them wearing the infamous 'no rulz' t-shirt, and trying to make the best outta their pathetic little chalets with god-knows-what? *yyyeeeww* the thought of it brings shiver down my spine. anyway, i was only there for a short while, because i just cannot click with most of my ex-classmates. either i was just being too classy, or they just blatantly ignored me. whatever, kc gals will always be the notorious kc gals i guess. pity my friends weren't there or i'm sure it would have been alot better. took pics with the birthday gal, so patience and the pics will be up real soon.
all the talk about family kinship and family ties, where are they? what are they? when everyone misunderstands you, when everyone thinks you're the incarnation of a little devil, where is support? where is the love? sounds so cliche i know, but honestly, where issit? they think that some spirit has possessed me, they think i'm crazy hating her. why is she so important to everyone? why issit that when she says something, everybody listens and abides? no answers. an email to my dajie and even she thinks it was me probably bad-mouthing her while she's away in aussie or something. the feeling of accusation. and now she ignores me on YM, maybe dragged me into the ignore or invisible list or something. who knows? who cares? i cared too much, and this is what i got. i cared for her because i didn't want any guys to bully her and to take her lightly. i didn't want them to think she's easy and that they could have their way with her. i didn't want them to be any short of respect for her, i wanted her to be prized highly around guys. but that became her grudge for me. speechless. i actually don't hate her. i care for her because she's my sister. pardon me, perhaps it should be cared instead. i respect the choices she's made, whatever they may be in her life. but not at the expense of others, because that becomes selfishness. and that was what happened which makes her so difficult to live with, so unreasonable to talk with, and intolerable to bear with. whatever happened? my parents don't see it. all they see is that i've been giving her attitude and that's wrong of me. all they hear is what she says and because i've said nothing, that's wrong of me. all they see is a fillial daughter, cooking dinner and doing the household chores, but did i already mentioned she's on holiday? all they hear is my silence and that, i'm afraid is also wrong of me. *sigh* anyway, whatever i do is wrong. whatever i try to say, is also wrong. nothing is ever right when it comes to me, why? because i'm the little devil of the house. period. no questions asked. disappointment. my heart is almost dead when it comes to her. i think i need to move out so that i can carry on the fantasy and the dream of my fairy tale becoming a reality. she's suffocating me in that house. i dread going home after work, dread seeing the disappointed looks on my parents faces when everything about me is wrong. i thought they knew, i thought they understood, i thought they empathised with me because they were the youngest in their family too, i thought they knew how the three of us are like, i thought they knew how she was like. even if they do know, i guess they pretend not to because she's supposedly to be the abnormally slow one. why do i feel like i'm acting in some lousy mediacorp production? *hah* forget it. forget about her. my life will go on.
she picked a quarrel with me last night, yelled and screamed at me, and even threatened to slap me. i hate her! how i wish i was really living in my own castle and that i would have the power to banish her into the abyss of the earth. fantasy fantasy. reality bites, i'm afraid. no matter how hard i try to run away from her, avoid her, she still comes. what does she want? she's got my whole family on her side, she's got the phone lines as and when she wants to use, she even spoiled my dajie's birthday today! somebody should just shoot her! i told her i don't want her to be at my party, lest someone just decides to finish her for me. i'm really upset, she's got everything thinking i'm the evil one while she's the only divine living around. disgusting. and the only thing that made me cry wasn't her, wasn't because she was scolding me, but rather, my mother was on her side no matter what. and that was why i'm really disappointed with my family, i'm really heart-broken.
there's been so much stuff on my mind since i fallen ill, and now that i'm feeling much better, i need to get them off my chest. wait, let me focus. alright, here goes:
1. i think my birthday party's gonna sux big time because until now i have no idea who's coming and who's not. and until now i haven't placed any order for the catering service. i do have an idea what i want my cake to be though. but heck, i don't have any motivation!
2. ladder 49 was really good. watched it on saturday after work. it talked about the call of duty, before family, before nation. inspiring movie. highly recommended. shows you the side of fire-fighters you never knew.
dear and i, in the cinema, before the movie started. hee!
3. friday night after he booked out, we went to bedok to have supper. got our favourite bbq chicken wings, fried oyster and our bak chor mee! hee, lovely!
4. and saturday before the movie, we met up with dear's buddies for a short while. we got him a birthday present, a G-shock for army! hee, he loved it! and i mean, he really really liked it. :) i'm glad coz i paid a little bit for it as well ok?
5. we went to DFS as well. haven't been there for the longest time so just thought we'd go have a look. went there and i knew what i wanted for my birthday, hee! *hint hint*
oh but i just don't have the mood for anything. maybe its because i'm PMS-ing now and having just recovered from fever and tonsilitis, makes me just not wanna do anything. like i wanna rest all day at home and do my own stuff. argh! control control, its alright, i'll be ok. :)
was reading the new paper when i got to work this morning, and in there was an article about a train hitting 2 elephants, and killing them. so sad! like is the train driver stupid or something?! there were a total of 5 elephants trying to cross the railway tracks, 3 made it over, while it hit the other 2. one died instantly, the other staggered a short distance before collapsing into a creek. he would have saw the elephants making their way, and he damn well should have already started braking a little. you know how elephants are, they are gentle giants, they are big in size and that's what makes their actions a little slow. you can't blame them for taking a longer than usual time to cross the railway track. and when the train got nearer, he realised he needed to stop the train, but it was too late. irresponsible stupid brainless train driver! elephants are almost extinct and killing them "by accident" isn't the best excuse around! cruelty in the highest degree!
elephants are my favourite animals, they are really sweet by nature, plus the fact they are vegetarians makes me adore them even more. they are very harmless creatures, and very mild as well. if you teach them well, they will listen to you and do your bidding. they are not lazy, neither are they disobedient, which is why i cannot understand how their trainers could have the heart to hit them. but i really love elephants and wish they never die out! they are so peaceful, which makes them a hot favourite on poacher's list. disgusting poachers! they should rot! i shall begin my mourning for the poor elephants.
i'm sick *sniff*, for the first time this year i think. i'm a relatively strong gal, and i hardly fall ill, and this time round was bad. because i didn't have my deardear to sayang me, he wasn't here physically with me to take care of me, just the sound of his voice to accompany me. so the doc said i'm down with fever and some throat infection known as tonsilitis. dunno how on earth did i get that kind of stuff but the doc said it was because of lack of rest and eating too much junk food *tongue sticking out*. alright i got the hint. i felt so horrible yesterday, i took half a day off and took a cab to the nearby clinic at my house. the feeling was so undescribable, i could only lie on my bed. i had no appetite, i was super tired and lethargic. i felt nauseous and i kept wanting to vomit, but i knew how puking would make things worse so i tried my best not to let it out. my body ached so badly i could hardly walk. so my mom made me some porridge, but i couldn't finish it because every now and then i just felt so horrible, i had to lie down. i've been given 2 days MC to rest, and that's what i've been doing. my throat still feels weird, its not the normal sore throat feeling, but something weirder. even opening my mouth to talk is painful for me, so i'm just keeping quiet. who is there for me to talk with anyway? except my dear who can only call me when he has free time.
alright, enough said. i shall continue my rest.
i'm back to being alone alone after sending my boyfriend back to camp last night. to make things more unbearable, i'm having a sore throat because i caught a cold, i'm sick again! *pouts* my head is spinning and i don't feel like talking because i'm feeling all so weak in my body. and its raining again! *screaming* today is the first day of november, and my birthday party's in 20 days' time, and i haven't even confirmed the number of people attending because i've been too lazy to follow-up with them? *sigh*
just had laksa for lunch, and its so horrible because it tasted a little sour. and now i'm feeling so queazy in my stomach. why do i feel so lousy? like my boyfriend who was in the wilderness and who also constipated, i've been constipating as well. what is wrong? everything is wrong, everything seems so wrong, i haven't fallen ill for the longest of time, and now if i do, i know its gonna hit me real bad. *darn* guess i'll try to find something to occupy myself before i whine even more.
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